I'm Jeynelle, also known as Buffbaby88. You probably've heard of me, probably haven't. But in my own circle, I'm known to change my mind at least 5 times in 30 minutes. And yes, I'm at quarter life and I AM HAVING A CRISIS.
This is a podcast about navigating the emotionally chaotic self (which you'll probably relate to) while being ambitious, emotionally dramatic and self-aware all whilst figuring it out - Against My Will!
I don’t have it all together.
And honestly, neither do you.
But that’s the point.
If life feels messy, confusing, overwhelming, or chaotic — you’re not alone.
This week's podcast is all about a life update!! How I've been navigating life alone, friendships , relationships, career.. all the tea.
LETS CONNECT:
@againstmywillpod & @buffbaby88 on Instagram
Work enquiries: nellyjellylana@yahoo.com
4 Jun 2026
dealing w insecurities ( i wish i was prettier )
This week's podcast is all about insecurities — the quiet little voices that make us question our worth, overthink situations, and sometimes sabotage perfectly good things.
If you've ever spiralled over a text, compared yourself to someone online, or felt like you weren't enough, this one's for you. 🫶
LETS CONNECT:
@againstmywillpod & @buffbaby88 on Instagram
Work enquiries: nellyjellylana@yahoo.com
3 May 2026
outgrowing rs & learning to let go (i try to)
tough phase, but necessary. here's my take on learning to grasp the concept of outgrowing relationships. and I hope this doesn't make you so alone because hey, everyone goes through it honestly.
LETS CONNECT
:@againstmywillpod & @buffbaby88 on Instagram
Work enquiries: nellyjellylana@yahoo.com
10 Apr 2026
learning to decenter men (i mean romance lol )
i love love…but maybe a bit too much to the point where i forgot about myself
so yea, we’re decentering love for a bit. for now.
LETS CONNECT:
@againstmywillpod on IG
@buffbaby88 on my personal and Youtube! 🙂
3 Apr 2026
maybe being alone isn't so bad afterall
as someone that used to date a lot, I have now actively chose not to - at least till I feel more ready .
been learning to face myself . and honestly it’s so uncomfortable… but necessary
LETS CONNECT:
@againstmywillpod on IG
@buffbaby88 on my personal and Youtube! 🙂
19 Mar 2026
stop playing emotional games!!!! (in a rs)
Emotional games are so commonly normalised, but at what point should we stop before we ruin authentic connections? Because does showing up inauthentically actually mean that we are able to find our person?? Let's talk about it.
LETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod on IG
@buffbaby88 on my personal IG and Youtube!
4 Mar 2026
social media dating advices SUCK!!!
Take it with a pinch of salt but I really hate how we show up for love because of what social media says. Social media determines what's right what's wrong and I'm tired of that because it really messes me up. I want to give my own views based on how I feel about different situations. What do you think?
LETS CONNECT:
@againstmywillpod on IG
@buffbaby88 on my personal and Youtube! :)
27 Feb 2026
i hate that i don't trust myself
I'm some girl you probably "know" from the internet and yet this is another unprofessional advice pep talk to myself (which you might relate) about self-trust, spiralling less, and rewiring my dramatic little brain. yes, I'm very turbulent and dramatic but I am willing to learn and pick myself up.
@againstmywillpod on IG & @buffbaby88 on Youtube for the video version.
21 Feb 2026
communication is f hard
On the first episode, I would like to share the biggest thing I struggle with - COMMUNICATION. it's something so simple that we seem to be able to, but in reality are we really communicating? let's look inward a little!!
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