Back to You is a podcast about rediscovering who we are beneath the layers of fear, conditioning, and expectation. Through personal stories, reflections, and heartfelt conversations, we explore self discovery, healing, and authenticity. Each episode invites you to release what no longer serves you and reconnect with your true essence by living a life of purpose, freedom, and fulfillment ✨
After three months away, I'm talking about what change actually requires of you, and why nobody warns you that transformation feels ugly before it ever feels good.
I get honest about the conversation I had to have with myself: about my outcomes, my behaviors, the patterns I kept repeating. The stuff that's uncomfortable to look at straight on because that honesty is what real change requires.
If you're in your own messy middle right now, this one's for you baby xx
4 Jun 2026
#017: Overperforming, Overgiving, and the Wound Underneath It All
In this episode I'm getting honest about my wound of inadequacy and how it showed up in every relationship I had through overgiving, overperforming, and self abandoning in ways I didn't even recognize at the time. Where it came from, how it kept me stuck in relationships where I was never really receiving, and what it actually took to start changing that at the root.Note!!!! battery died and some technical difficulties cut this one a little short, but we're going deeper on this next week ❤️🔥
26 May 2026
#016: Nobody Told You Alignment Would Feel Like This
Everyone talks about living in alignment like it's peaceful and beautiful. Nobody tells you it can feel like your life is falling apart.This episode is the honest conversation. Choosing who you really want to be and having the courage to actually look at who you are right now is one of the hardest things you'll ever do. And that's exactly why you keep avoiding it.But it's also the only way your life changes.This episode is your permission to stop pretending it's supposed to be easy and start giving yourself the grace to do it anyway.
12 May 2026
#015: Your feelings aren't the problem. Your resistance is.
You're stuck because you're trying to fix something that was never broken. In this episode, I'm breaking down why we spend so much energy finding solutions for our feelings when feeling is literally the most human thing we do. The problem isn't your emotions. The problem is your resistance to them. When you stop trying to escape what you're feeling and start letting yourself actually feel it, everything begins to actually change.
16 Apr 2026
#014: The Honest Truth About Who You're Becoming
You have a self problem, not a strategy problem.
In this episode we're having the conversation really nobody wants to have the one about the gap between who you say you want to be and who you actually are. About why change feels so hard even when you know exactly what needs to shift. About the identity you've outgrown and the one you're too scared to step into.
If you've been waiting to feel ready, this one's for you.
31 Mar 2026
#013: What REALLY Happens When you Choose a New Identity for Yourself
Nobody tells you that becoming who you're meant to be can feel like losing everything. When you decide to step into a new identity life has a way of shaking loose everything that no longer belongs. Relationships feel different. Your routine stops working. The things that used to comfort you suddenly feel hollow. It's disorienting, it's lonely, and it can make you wonder if you made a mistake. You didn't. This is actually a sign that everything is going right for you.This podcast is for the people in that in between space, doing the hard, unglamorous work of becoming.
5 Mar 2026
#012: Why expansion can actually feel SO bad
Sometimes getting what you want doesn’t feel pretty. Sometimes it feels messy, vulnerable, and a little uncomfortable.In this episode, I’m talking about the strange moment when the things you’ve been asking for actually start showing up and instead of feeling pure excitement, something in you wants to protect it, hide it, or even push it away.Because if we were fully ready for the things we say we want, we’d probably already have them.This is just an honest, open conversation about what I’m moving through right now a little "putty minded", a little messy, and very real.
10 Feb 2026
#011: Stop Trying to "Kill your Ego"
In this episode on BTY, I talk about some current edges I have met in my life in this part of my life journey, what integrating parts of yourself, and urging you to stop trying to kill your ego.
I’m breaking down why “ego death” is actually keeping you stuck and what you need to do instead if you want real growth, real confidence, and real transformation.
🎧 Listen now.
19 Jan 2026
#010: How to Relentlessly Live in the Now
This episode came straight from my soul to yours.
We talk about what it really means to live now and thats not someday, not when you’re healed enough, fixed enough, or ready enough. Right. Now.
I share what happens when you let go of the stories you’ve been carrying, the identities you’ve outgrown, and the armor you once needed to survive. We explore true authenticity, the power that becomes available when you’re fully present, and how real safety is created from the inside out.
This is about integrating every part of you. Not bypassing, not fixing, not judging... but truly welcoming yourself home.
If you’ve been feeling the call to stop waiting and start living, this episode is for you.
Choosing authenticity isn’t always empowering — sometimes it’s lonely, confronting, and deeply uncomfortable.
In this episode, I’m sharing my personal experience of stepping into a more authentic version of myself and choosing the path less traveled. A path that has come with comparison, doubt, grief, and moments of feeling incredibly alone.
This is a conversation about what growth actually looks like behind the scenes — especially during seasons of change when the old version of you no longer fits, but the new one hasn’t fully formed yet.
We talk about:
Why choosing authenticity can feel isolating
The loneliness that often comes with personal growth
Navigating comparison when you’re walking a different path
What it means to keep going when growth feels hard
How this cycle shows up at every phase of life
If you’re moving through a difficult transition, feeling disconnected, or questioning whether choosing yourself is worth it — this episode is for you.
27 Dec 2025
#08: Creative Block Explained: Identity, Authenticity, and True Power
In this episode, I’m sharing honestly about a season where I felt deeply stuck — creatively, emotionally, and energetically. What showed up as a “creative block” was actually something much deeper, and moving through it changed the way I understand creation, identity, and authenticity.
We talk about what creative blocks really are, why they often appear when you’re outgrowing an old version of yourself, and how the pressure to perform, produce, or wear a mask can quietly disconnect you from your true creative power.
This episode is an invitation to remove the mask — to face the parts of yourself you’ve been hiding, managing, or diluting — and to step into everythingness. The mess, the depth, the contradictions, the truth of who you are.
Because being you is not just enough — it’s your greatest gift.
And your authenticity is the most powerful place of creation you will ever access.
If you’ve been feeling blocked, uninspired, disconnected, or unsure how to move forward, this conversation may help you see that nothing is wrong — something is being born.
15 Dec 2025
#07: Back to Cristian — Awakening to Authenticity: The Real Happy Life Movement
In this episode of the Back to You podcast, we interviewed Cristian Amaral, the founder of the Happy Life Movement. Cristian shares his journey from aspiring stand-up comedian to corporate employee, and how a layoff led him to rediscover his passion for helping others. The conversation delves into themes of authenticity, self-validation, and the importance of taking action to overcome fear and stagnation. Cristian emphasizes the need to let go of false identities and embrace one's unique voice, while also discussing the illusion of scarcity and the abundance mindset. The episode encourages listeners to reflect on their own lives, find their passions, and take steps towards living authentically. In this engaging conversation, theyexplore the themes of authenticity, emotional intelligence, and the humorous lessons the universe provides. They discuss how foundational beliefs shape our identities, the importance of embracing our true selves, and the power of action over mere intention. The dialogue emphasizes the significance of honesty in relationships and the journey towards self-acceptance, ultimately leading to deeper connections and personal growth.
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Website: www.thehlm.co (http://www.thehlm.co/)
Become an emotionally intelligent leader | TEDx Speaker and Leadership Coach Betsaida LeBron: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIzQoZGUTB8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIzQoZGUTB8)
Takeaways
Christian's journey reflects the struggle for self-acceptance and authenticity.
The importance of rediscovering passion after setbacks.
Authenticity is about letting go of what is not truly you.
Life is about the journey, not just the destination.
Everyone has a unique voice and gift to share with the world.
Trust in oneself is crucial for taking action.
Reflecting on childhood influences can help understand current behaviors.
The universe is abundant and responds to our intentions.
Happiness should be the ultimate goal in life.
Taking action is essential to overcome feelings of being stuck. Fear of cringe can be a barrier to authenticity.
The universe often provides humorous lessons when we think we've learned something.
Emotions serve as signals to pay attention to our inner state.
Foundational beliefs shape our identity and can limit our potential.
Authenticity requires embracing our true selves, regardless of others' perceptions.
Choosing happiness often means stepping outside of our comfort zones.
Taking action is more powerful than merely thinking about our goals.
Inadequacy is a self-imposed limitation that can be overcome.
Intimacy in relationships is built through honesty and vulnerability.
Chapters
00:00 Introduction to the Happy Life Movement
01:03 Cristian's Journey: From Comedy to Corporate Life
06:40 Rediscovering Passion and Authenticity
10:32 The Quest for Validation and Self-Worth
12:27 Childhood Influences on Identity
18:23 The Path to Authenticity
20:13 The Illusion of Scarcity and Abundance
28:23 Embracing Mortality and Living Fully
41:25 Opening the Door to Change
42:23 Evaluating Your Current Life
45:04 The Power of Writing Down Goals
46:00 Manifestation and Specificity
48:09 Abundance Mindset and Value
49:30 Embracing Emotions as Gifts
51:43 Uncovering Your Authentic Self
54:55 The Journey of Content Creation
01:00:53 Foundational Beliefs and Identity
01:12:03 The Power of Personal Narratives
01:15:18 Choosing Between Safety and Authenticity
01:17:57 The Unknown: Embracing Possibility
01:21:48 Thinking vs. Doing: The Action Dilemma
01:26:10 Authenticity in Relationships
01:29:56 Intimacy: Sharing Vulnerability
01:38:42 You Are Enough: Embracing Self-Worth
10 Dec 2025
#06: Back to Lili — The Story of Becoming
In today’s episode, I’m opening the door to the part of my story you’ve never fully heard — the version of me that existed before the transformation, before the healing, before the embodiment you see today.
Most people know the Lili who shares insights, holds space, and teaches transformation…
but this is the story of the Lili who came before.
The lenses I learned to see life through.
The patterns I inherited.
And the experiences that shaped the foundation I had to rebuild.
This episode includes themes of childhood trauma, emotional and physical abuse, and being in environments that weren’t safe. Please listen with care and take what you need.
I’m sharing this not for sympathy —
but so you can understand that your transformation is possible too.
Because I didn’t start from ease.
I started from survival.
And this is the story of how those early experiences formed the perspectives I spent years untangling and transforming.
This episode is also the beginning of something new —
I’ll be bringing guests onto the show to share their own stories, their own breakthroughs, and the lived experiences that shaped who they became.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for listening. Thank you for allowing me to share the pieces of myself that built the woman I am today.
3 Dec 2025
#05: Why You Feel Exhausted Even When You’re “Doing Everything Right”
Feeling tired no matter how much you rest? In this episode we break down the hidden reasons behind chronic exhaustion — the ones no one talks about.
From people-pleasing, saying “yes” to things that drain you, choosing paths that don’t excite you, ignoring your intuition, and forcing yourself into roles that aren’t aligned… your fatigue might not be physical at all.
We talk about:
✨ Energy leaks and misalignment
✨ Why doing “everything right” still isn’t working
✨ How your body signals when you’re off path
✨ The cost of people-pleasing and overcommitting
✨ How to reclaim your energy by choosing what truly lights you up
If you’ve been feeling constantly tired, burnt out, or disconnected — this episode will help you understand why and what steps you can take to come back into alignment.
24 Nov 2025
#04: Choosing Alignment Over Fear: What Really Happens When You Quit the Wrong Life
In this episode, I share my personal journey of quitting my job and the powerful lessons it taught me about living a life in alignment. I dive into what it really means to listen to your inner cues, honor your truth, and take the sometimes scary leap toward what’s right for you.
This isn’t just about leaving a job. It’s about recognizing the areas of your life that no longer serve you and taking action to create space for what truly matters. Tune in for insights on how to identify misalignment, embrace uncertainty, and step into a life that feels authentic.
If this episode speaks to you, screenshot it and share it on your stories — I love seeing what part hit home for you💛
19 Nov 2025
#03: Q&A — Overthinking, Self-Forgiveness & Learning to Trust Yourself Again
In this Q&A episode, I’m answering your submitted questions from Instagram and today we’re talking about three big ones:
overthinking, forgiving yourself, and learning to trust yourself again after past decisions.
We explore:
• why overthinking shows up and how to move through it
• what keeps us stuck in guilt or shame
• how to genuinely forgive yourself without bypassing
• why we feel like we’ve made “bad decisions”
• how to rebuild self-trust from a grounded, aligned place
• the patterns and stories that create these struggles in the first place
This conversation blends emotional awareness, self-inquiry, identity work, and grounded inner connection.
If you’ve been feeling overwhelmed, hard on yourself, or unsure how to move forward this episode is for you.
Thanks for sending in your questions! YOU ROCK!
💛 Enjoy the episode friends
13 Nov 2025
#02: Letting Go: Why It’s Hard, How to Do It, and What Freedom Feels Like
In today’s episode of Back to You, we dive deep into one of the most powerful and most challenging parts of personal growth: letting go.
Whether you’re releasing an old identity, a relationship, a belief, or a season of life, letting go can feel impossible… but it’s also the gateway to emotional freedom, alignment, and peace.
I break down:
What “letting go” actually means (beyond the clichés)
Why it feels so hard: psychologically, energetically, and emotionally
How to start releasing what’s holding you back
Practical action steps you can take today to create real movement and find your way back to yourself
This episode is grounded, honest, and supportive. Totally perfect if you're in a transition, feeling stuck, or sensing it’s time to move into a new version of you.
6 Nov 2025
#01: The Back to You Podcast: The Journey of Remembering Who You Really Are
In this first episode, I explore what it really means to remember who we are beneath the layers of stories we’ve absorbed from childhood, society, and life itself. So many of us live by patterns that keep us small. Fear, perfectionism, people pleasing, but the journey back to ourselves is about releasing those layers and reconnecting to the essence of who we truly are.Join me throughout this podcast as I share my personal experiences , insights, and the lessons learned along the way. Plus conversations with guests who have each walked their own path back home to themselves. Together, we’ll talk about self discovery, healing, authenticity, and living a life rooted in purpose and fulfillment.✨ Subscribe to stay connected as we continue the journey Back to You.
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