Becoming

About Becoming

Each episode features intimate conversations with people shaped by unexpected seasons of change and the courage it took to move through them. These are stories of resilience, reinvention, and inner growth. Nicole Toudouze goes beneath the surface, exploring what it takes to build a meaningful life from the inside out. Becoming is a space for honest reflection, shared humanity, and the reminder that transformation is always the call for becoming who you are meant to be.

Publisher

Nicole Toudouze

Category

religion & spirituality · society & culture

Language

en

Explicit

No

First episode

27 Apr 2026

Latest episode

1 Oct 2026

Latest episodes

10 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   1 Oct 2026

   What Nicole’s Divorce Taught Her About Love, Self-Worth, and Becoming

   In this episode of Becoming, Nicole Toudouze opens up about one of the most transformative chapters of her life: the end of her marriage. Nicole shares how a marriage she once believed would last forever slowly began to unravel, what was happening beneath the surface of a life that looked perfect from the outside, and the ways she began to lose pieces of herself along the way. She talks honestly about the grief, loneliness, identity loss, and self-discovery that came with divorce, and how the experience ultimately changed the way she sees love, marriage, faith, and herself. This conversation is about knowing when to fight, when to let go, and how to love another person without losing yourself in the process. Nicole also shares advice for women and couples on communication, accountability, intentional connection, and choosing each other every day.

2. 

   12 Aug 2026

   God is Asking You to Choose You: Heather Mutz on Divorce, Divine Surrender, and Happily Ever After

   For years, she stayed in a marriage that never felt right, believing that leaving would mean failing her family and disappointing God. But sometimes the life we fight hardest to preserve is the one we are being called to release. In this episode of Becoming, Heather Mutz (https://www.linkedin.com/in/heather-mutz-5b7945173/), Associate Broker of Homestead and Ranch Real Estate, shares how she found the courage to leave, rebuild her identity, and trust God through the uncertainty of starting over. After 15 years of ignoring her intuition and feeling alone, she chose a life rooted in peace, authenticity, and faith. From building a successful real estate career and blending a family of six children to finding healthy love, Heather’s story is a reminder that divorce does not have to be the end. It can be the beginning of a life you never imagined possible. Highlights: (00:00) Introduction and Heather’s journey of rebuilding (02:27) The marriage she knew was wrong from the beginning (10:16) The six-year struggle to leave (13:17) How real estate became Heather’s path to independence (16:21) The unexpected love story unfolding two houses away (21:52) Moving from performative faith to a personal relationship with God (23:00) Divorce, finding her identity, and choosing an authentic life (25:23) The butterflies, friendships, and spiritual signs that guided her healing (31:55) What leaving taught Heather and her daughters (35:29) Blending six children and building a healthy family (49:03) Balancing business, motherhood, faith, and love (57:49) Looking back, trusting God’s timing, and surrendering control Resources: Guest: Heather Mutz | Associate Broker, Homestead and Ranch Real Estate LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/heather-mutz-5b7945173/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/heather-mutz-5b7945173/)

3. 

   30 Jul 2026

   Wounds to Wisdom: How Childhood Pain led Nicole to Discovering God's Plan in Her Past

   I spent years becoming the person everyone needed me to be, but beneath the strength was a little girl still searching for love, safety, and belonging. Sometimes the patterns that help us survive are the very ones we have to learn to release. In this episode of Becoming, I share my own journey and the childhood experiences that shaped the woman I am today. From feeling unseen, afraid and unworthy of love to working through abandonment, bullying, and the need to prove my worth, I open up about how those experiences shaped my identity, my relationships, and my path toward healing. From survival patterns and self-discovery to faith, awakening, and reconnecting with my true self, this conversation explores what it takes to shed the layers we build to survive and return to who we were always meant to be. Highlights: (00:00) Introduction: The personal story behind Becoming (02:53) The childhood experiences that shaped my identity (08:03) The burden of being the eldest daughter (13:24) Bullying, rejection, and learning to feel unlovable (17:58) How childhood wounds shaped my ego and survival patterns (20:52) Recognizing when you are disconnected from your true self (23:09) Chasing achievement and external validation (28:39) The life collapse that sparked my awakening (32:07) Finding faith and the spiritual moment that changed everything (38:04) Turning pain into purpose and returning with my medicine Resources: Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/)

4. 

   15 Jul 2026

   When Being "Too Much" Becomes Your Greatest Strength: Naiara Wireman's Story

   She spent years chasing validation, pushing through survival mode, and trying to prove her worth, but the greatest transformation came when she finally turned inward. In this episode of Becoming with Nicole Toudoze (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/), Naiara Wireman (https://www.linkedin.com/in/naiara-wireman/), Senior Coach and Lead Call Manager of GnA Consulting, shares her journey from growing up without her father, immigrating from Argentina, and building a life fueled by achievement, to confronting childhood wounds, rediscovering her feminine energy, and rebuilding her marriage through healing. She opens up about spirituality, self-love, forgiveness, and the inner work that helped her stop seeking approval from others and start living authentically. From father wounds and identity to marriage, motherhood, and spiritual awakening, this conversation explores what it truly means to come home to yourself and embrace the person you were always meant to become. Highlights: (00:00) Naiara's miraculous birth story and childhood in Argentina (07:17) Growing up without a father and chasing validation (12:13) Marriage, separation, and rebuilding from within (20:02) Healing the inner child and letting go of survival mode (33:38) The awakening that changed everything (45:02) How separation transformed their marriage (01:00:18) Spirituality, self-love, and finding inner peace (01:16:09) What healthy relationship looks like for Naiara (01:27:49) Spirituality and listening to His voice Resources Connect with Naiara Wireman:  https://www.linkedin.com/in/naiara-wireman/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/naiara-wireman/) GnA Consulting: https://www.linkedin.com/company/gna-consult/ (https://www.linkedin.com/company/gna-consult/) Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/)

5. 

   1 Jul 2026

   When a Mother's Worst Fear Becomes Her Doorway to Belief: Laura Maly's Story

   She built a thriving business, navigated motherhood, and faced unimaginable challenges, but life had more lessons in store. In this episode of Becoming with Nicole Toudoze (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/), Laura Maly (https://www.linkedin.com/in/laura-maly-094bb36/), co-founder of Wonderist Agency - Dental Marketing (https://www.linkedin.com/company/wonderist-agency/), shares her journey from starting an agency at a kitchen table to leading an Inc. 5000 company, all while navigating divorce, adoption, and her daughter’s life-threatening heart condition. Laura opens up about resilience, faith, and the choices that shaped who she is today. From entrepreneurial risks and personal setbacks to miracles, family, and leadership, this conversation explores what it takes to rise through life’s storms while staying true to yourself. Highlights (00:00) Introduction: Laura’s early career and agency beginnings (02:41) Escaping corporate life and discovering her entrepreneurial path (07:05) Early clients, first successes, and the kitchen table agency (12:16) Meeting Michael: love, partnership, and building Wonderist together (22:14) Motherhood and miscarriages: resilience in the face of loss (26:55) Francie’s diagnosis: confronting fear and finding hope (42:04) Community, family support, and navigating life with a cardiac child (52:59) Lessons on surrender, faith, and detachment from outcomes (01:27:02) Becoming today: refinement, gratitude, and leading with authenticity Resources Connect with Laura Maly:  https://www.linkedin.com/in/laura-maly-094bb36/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/laura-maly-094bb36/) Wonderist Agency - Dental Marketing: https://www.linkedin.com/company/wonderist-agency/ (https://www.linkedin.com/company/wonderist-agency/) Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/)

6. 

   17 Jun 2026

   Eric Gallegos on Awakening, Self-Truth, and Intentional Living

   He seemed to have it all: a thriving career, accolades, financial success. But behind every achievement was a man who had been performing life for the wrong reasons. In this episode of Becoming, Eric Gallegos (https://www.linkedin.com/in/egallegos27/), VP of Growth in InsideDesk (https://www.linkedin.com/company/goinsidedesk/), opens up about the awakening that shifted everything. From performative living and chasing external validation to isolating himself and facing hard truths, Eric shares the journey of discovering who he really is and the life he actually wants. From family pressures and societal expectations to soul-searching through silence, reflection, and even birdwatching, this conversation explores what it takes to shed the masks, stop performing, and step into authentic, intentional living. Highlights (00:00) Introduction and Eric’s high-achieving background (01:18) The moment he realized his success felt performative (03:45) Learning to fail and stand on his own (08:19) The awakening: questioning intention and fulfillment (14:49) Isolation, unplugging, and confronting performative living (22:05) Facing ego, external validation, and the split from self (36:28) The work of truth: shedding masks and reviewing beliefs (44:35) What authenticity cost him in relationships and habits (57:23) Therapy, self-acceptance, and evolving as a man (01:03:35) Designing a life he actually wants: traveling, retiring, and pursuing passions (01:25:29) The power of intentional choices and showing up for oneself Resources Connect with Eric Gallegos: https://www.linkedin.com/in/egallegos27/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/egallegos27/) InsideDesk: https://www.linkedin.com/company/goinsidedesk/ (https://www.linkedin.com/company/goinsidedesk/) Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/)

7. 

   3 Jun 2026

   My Story & My Becoming with Nicole Toudouze

   Before the guests, there was this. Episode 0 is my story, the one that made this show necessary. One of my most trusted people, Chelsea Maldonado, sits down with me to ask the questions I'd never been asked publicly. And I answer all of them. I share what my life looked like before my awakening: the performative, self-sacrificing version of me who looked like she had it together but was quietly falling apart. I talk about the divorce that turned my world upside down, and the long, painful process of falling apart before I could put myself back together. I share what ego death actually feels like in your body and why surrender isn't weakness. I talk about how I rebuilt my life from zero through meditation, journaling, and deep faith, and what it looks like to slowly, intentionally remember who you were always created to be. This episode is the answer to why Becoming exists. If you're in a season of questioning, losing, or rebuilding, start here. Highlights (00:00) When performing became survival (01:26) Chelsea takes the mic (07:48) The cost of burying yourself (08:02) What ego death actually feels like (13:50) Why the shedding never stops (15:38) Control was never about control (23:58) The moment that broke everything open (26:30) The relationship that nearly erased me (31:34) The three months I didn't leave my house (36:12) How I found my way back (41:10) The power of going inward (44:56) You are already enough (49:41) The morning routine that changed my life (53:40) Why I built this show Resources Chelsea Maldonado | Social Media Manager LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/chelsea-maldonado-5819b7216/ Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/

8. 

   20 May 2026

   Your Still, Small Voice Will Lead You to Your Passion and Fulfill the World's Needs

   She said yes to writing a children's book with no agent, no publisher, and no plan. Just a conversation, a calling, and a Google Doc. That book ended up in the hands of a HarperCollins publisher, and the illustrator they brought in? She's now a full-time children's book illustrator too. In this episode of Becoming, I sit down with my dear friend and neighbor, Cameron Vickrey (https://www.linkedin.com/in/cameron-vickrey-b3a8182b9/), co-author of My Love, God is Everywhere (https://www.joannacarillo.com/picture-books/my-love-god-is-everywhere), Director of Communications at FaithWorks (https://faithworks.com/), and co-founder of Reverend Mamas (https://www.instagram.com/reverendmamas/). We talk about what it really means to follow the still small voice, raise teenage girls with faith and courage, and discover your calling at every season of life. This one is warm, real, and full of wisdom for anyone who has ever wondered whether their still small voice is worth listening to. Highlights (00:00) Where passion and the world's deepest need collide (01:14) How Nicole and Cameron met (03:26) The origin story of My Love, God is Everywhere (06:18) The accidental literary agent (09:25) The fear of putting yourself out there as a woman (11:24) Crowdsourcing kids' questions from parents (16:12) Two new books coming in 2027 (20:49) How FaithWorks started (25:27) Writing a 40-page grant in 3 days and winning it (31:39) Parenting teenage girls through peak emotionality (33:34) What a truly supportive partner looks like (39:52) Enneagram Type 2 and learning to pour into yourself (47:03) Calling vs. passing thought, how to tell the difference (50:52) The second-grade dream she had forgotten Resources Guest: Cameron Vickrey | Co-Author, Co-Founder of Reverend Mamas, Director of Communications at FaithWorks LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/cameron-vickrey-b3a8182b9/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/cameron-vickrey-b3a8182b9/) Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/cameronvickrey/ (https://www.instagram.com/cameronvickrey/) Book: My Love, God is Everywhere https://www.joannacarillo.com/picture-books/my-love-god-is-everywhere (https://www.joannacarillo.com/picture-books/my-love-god-is-everywhere) Website: FaithWorks https://faithworks.com/ (https://faithworks.com/) Reverend Mamas Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/reverendmamas/ (https://www.instagram.com/reverendmamas/) Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/ (https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/)

9. 

   6 May 2026

   How Self-Love Became Lisa Jauregui’s Greatest BK Beauty Business Strategy

   She started filming makeup tutorials in her daughter’s nursery with no plan, no following, and no idea where it would lead. That woman is now the founder of BK Beauty (https://www.bkbeauty.com/), one of TikTok’s most viral beauty brands, ranked in the top 500 of the Inc. 5000 for the third year in a row. In this episode of Becoming, I sit down with my friend Lisa Jauregui (https://www.linkedin.com/in/lisa-jauregui-3b8b056/) for a conversation that every woman and mother needs to hear. We go deep on the inner work behind her outer success, from people-pleasing and insecurity to finding self-love through the Hoffman Process. Lisa shares how she learned to lead with softness, and how she built a brand rooted in the message she wants her daughters to carry: that beauty is kindness, and it starts from within. This is a conversation about remembrance, resilience, and what it really means to become who you were always meant to be. Highlights (00:00) Not letting fear of judgment stop you (01:05) How Nicole and Lisa first met (03:10) The origin story of BK Beauty (05:50) Dancing with the Stars and overcoming limiting beliefs (08:26) Learning self-love in your late 30s (17:45) Following your passion (19:52) Choosing a partner who builds with you (24:31) Staying grounded as a founder (30:13) The catalyst at 19 that changed everything (40:16) Juggling motherhood and business without guilt Resources Guest: Lisa Jauregui | Founder, BK Beauty LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/lisa-jauregui-3b8b056/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lisajmakeup TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@lisajmakeup YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@lisajmakeup Website: https://www.bkbeauty.com/ Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/

10. 

    27 Apr 2026

    Becoming with Nicole Toudouze

    I spent most of my life building an identity around what everyone else expected of me. I looked successful on the outside, but inside, I was empty. When everything crumbled, my marriage, my sense of self, every aspect of the life I had created, I stood in front of the mirror and didn't recognize the woman looking back. Who had I become? That question broke me open. The truth is, I had buried myself so deeply beneath a life built for everyone else that I lost her completely. The anxiety, the need to control, the shame, it all traced back to never feeling safe in my own body. But this is the part of the story that matters most: I surrendered. I stopped running. I stopped silencing my voice. And I started becoming who I was always meant to be. This is Becoming. This is my story.

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