Healing Laughter

About Healing Laughter

Join Katie Utterback, CLC for conversations about what it's like and what it takes to heal from narcissistic abuse. We'll talk about the entirety of the journey from first discovering your loved one is toxic or narcissistic, to what it's like going no contact with your family of origin due to emotional abuse, and all of the emotions and experiences in-between. We'll also talk about astrology, inner-child healing, manifestation, spirituality, mental health, meditations, healing water, mermaids, and we'll do it all through the lens of one of our favorite medicines: laughter.

Publisher

Katie Utterback, CLC

Category

health & fitness

Language

en

Explicit

Yes

First episode

13 Apr 2021

Latest episode

29 Aug 2023

Latest episodes

54 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   29 Aug 2023

   #053: Breaking Generational Trauma & What I Want My Children to Know

   Aloha, Namaste, and welcome back to the Healing Laughter podcast. This is the show where we talk about all things related to self-love, trauma recovery, manifestation, spirituality, the power of positive affirmations, healing water, astrology, and soul much more. I’m your host Katie Utterback. I’m an ICF-certified spiritual life coach, a western tropical astrologer, breathwork practitioner, proud mama, and wannabe mermaid. Today on the show I wanted to talk about motherhood. That’s the reason I’ve had to step away from this podcast for most of 2023. I’m recording this at the end of August and my husband and I are expecting our daughter to arrive Earth-side, really any day now. This little coconut is our first human baby, if you’ve been around for a while you know I have a fur baby, who is now four years old. And while everyone has been telling me that having a human baby is an experience, a love unlike anything else, in all honesty I felt myself step up into a more maternal role when we adopted our fur baby Jagger in 2019. So I'm really not sure what to expect or how I will feel. When I went no contact, I wasn’t just thinking about the wellness of my future human children - I was thinking about my fur babies too. So that’s the energy I’m kind of coming from when I say I don’t know how much deeper I can step into becoming the Mother archetype. I feel like I already am her, but then again, we’ll see what happens when my Baby Girl arrives in the next few weeks or so how I feel about the love I have for my fur baby compared to my human baby. So far the only thing that seems different is what I want to teach my daughter vs what I want to teach Jagger. But I’ve also noticed a lot of similarities - namely that i want both of them to know how much their Daddy and I love them, how important they are, how loved they are, how special they are, how smart they are, how perfect they are. It’s so different from how I was brought up and I’m proud of that. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to say when I first meet her and I’m worried about what my face will look like. I hope I’m smiling, I hope she doesn’t think I’m criticizing her appearance the first time we look into each other's eyes. I hope I remember to say something loving to her when she hears my voice for the first time Earth-side. And as I’ve been thinking about what I want to say to my Baby Girl, not just that first time we meet, but every day, my mind has been flooded with phrases I heard as a child that I never want her or any of my children - human or fur - to hear. Things like: I brought you into this world, I can take you out of it. Abuse?! You think that’s abuse?! I’ll show you child abuse. The people who love you the most will treat you the worst when they need your love the most If you eat that it will go straight from your lips to your hips. You need to have more confidence - you look like a turtle. This was said to me by the way when I was in middle school, right before I got on the bus to school. You’re embarrassing me. I’m sorry you got your Dad’s farmer arms and thicker body type and your sister got my slender physique You have mental issues. Can you not be so obviously uncomfortable around the child predator? You’re making everyone else uncomfortable Blood is thicker than water If you’re open to sharing, let me know what kind of messages you tell your kids everyday - human or fur - and what the first thing you said to your newborn was, and what kind of messaging or parenting techniques you’re working to leave behind. (https://elevatedaura.com/)

2. 

   17 Jan 2023

   #052 Super New Moon in Aquarius

   January 21, 2023: Aquarius New Moon | 12:53 PM Pacific | 1°, 32” This a Super New Moon - meaning it’s not just a new moon, but the new moon will occur when the moon is closer to Earth than normal, so the moon’s pull will be greater, the energy may be more intense. And when I started to look closer at the aspects, the energy at play here, I do think this will be a potent and powerful New Moon. Meaning those who take the time to use this energy to their advantage may be pleasantly surprised when the Aquarius Super Full Moon occurs this August. At the time of the Aquarius Super New Moon, both the sun and moon will be at 1°, 32 minutes of Aquarius. This is actually the fourth of five New Moons in a row all happening at 1 degree. What I find so poetic about New Moons at these early degrees like 1 degree is that Aries is the leader of the zodiac, Aries season represents the astrological new year; so although Aries has this tough reputation, this association with being a warrior, it’s also the energy of going out in the dark, of finding something new, taking a new path. And that actually really compliments the energy of Aquarius quite well because Aquarius is the rebel of the zodiac. Being a rebel can sometimes have a bad connotation, so think of it this way - Aquarian energy tends to be more rebellious because Aquarians are usually thinking about the future, about communities, and when you’re thinking light years ahead, you can sometimes rub people the wrong way especially when you have a vision in mind and you’re not letting anyone get in your way of bringing this vision to fruition. Aquarians tend to be eccentric, spontaneous, and original. And this is not just in how an Aquarian thinks, they tend to dress more eccentrically, wear brighter colors, perhaps pair together patterns or materials that you wouldn’t normally think go together, so sometimes Aquarian energy appears more confident than it really is. Aquarius is a fixed, air sign, and the natural ruler of the 11th house of community and networking, so many Aquarians can sometimes come off as if they are very logical, scientific in thought, much more logical than they are emotional, but that’s just how they appear. Under the surface, Aquarians are really not that conservative because they are so involved and constantly thinking about others and how to build more communities that work for everyone. So in that sense they are very social justice minded they’re just a little quieter, more reserved sometimes than other signs, including fellow air sign Gemini. Aquarius is an air sign, not a water sign, which tricks some people because Aquarius is represented by the symbol of the water bearer, and even the zodiac symbol for Aquarius looks like waves, but alas it’s an air sign. So with an air sign, some people can take this energy as you’re not necessarily being emotionally aware or sensitive, perhaps they feel you rub them the wrong way because the energy of Aquarius can sometimes appear demanding, critical, much more logically based than emotionally intuitive, but again, it’s usually because they are working to bring some sort of social and humanitarian ideal into their reality; the harshness of Aquarian energy is sometimes confusing even for Aquarians themselves because the water bearer energy is an energy that absorbs and collects the energy, the desires, the limiting beliefs of those around them. Almost like an empath, there’s this innate ability to read the energy of the social community and determine what needs to be done, what needs to change, what needs to be released in order to bring more harmony, love, and peace to the planet. The Aquarius Super Full Moon will occur on Aug. 1, 2023, so think about the area of your life being illuminated by this Aquarius New Moon. What would you like to see happen in that area of your life by August 2023? Meditate, write it down and start working toward those goals

3. 

   11 Jan 2023

   #051 Thank You, Harry & Meghan, for Highlighting Toxic Families

   Prince Harry and Meghan Markle are once again dominating the headlines. This time it’s because of the content Harry included in his new autobiography, “Spare.” Full Blog: https://elevatedaura.com/thank-you-harry-meghan-for-highlighting-toxic-families/ I had no intention of commenting further than I already have on Harry and Meghan, but I started to hear things like “why is Harry revealing so many personal details about his family? Didn’t he ask for privacy?” followed by a bunch of chuckles and eyerolls. And it honestly pissed me off because so much of their story feels like my own story. Am I a royal or an actress, no. But it was my wedding where I realized how little my family of origin loved me for who I am as a person, an individual. Their love for me was really more based on what I could do for them, how I could pump them up and make them feel like Gods. You can listen to a little bit of my story in episodes 1 (https://spotifyanchor-web.app.link/e/DZKkqHC8twb) and 2 (https://spotifyanchor-web.app.link/e/6pIh9GC8twb) of the Healing Laughter podcast. What I found so refreshing about Harry and Meghan’s story is the level of honesty. That’s really all I wanted anyone to be when things got messy. But instead of telling the truth, I watched people bury their heads in the sand, spread harmful rumors, and sit silently while the world around me crumbled. I understand why Harry and Meghan want to speak up and share their version of events, because I have felt similarly. And like Harry and Meghan, I didn’t understand why my side of the story was viewed so harshly. If anything good comes out of Harry and Meghan sharing their story I hope it’s this: When there is a conflict or even a joyful occasion, it is so important to get the details from those who actually experienced what happened, and to not spread gossip or rumors. You never know – even in a family of origin – who truly has your back until things get messy. And those who stand behind you, who don’t believe the chatter mill, who come to you first to get the truth, those are the people you want to surround yourself with. Full blog available elevated aura (https://elevatedaura.com/thank-you-harry-meghan-for-highlighting-toxic-families/) & Little Miss Generational Trauma Ends With Me (https://www.redbubble.com/i/tank-top/Little-Miss-Generational-Trauma-Ends-With-Me-by-elevated-aura/120795830.N283C) print available on Redbubble

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