I'M NOT FAILING is a creative platform in which I am using my spoken, written, musical, and visual VOICES to tell the TRUTH about being the daughter of a mother with NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER and HEALING from the COMPLEX TRAUMA inherent to my family of origin's isolated and abusive family structure.
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I’m Elizabeth. I am a modern, multi-faceted, middle-aged woman.
A LOT of different (overlapping and sometimes conflicting) labels and titles can describe me...MUSICIAN, WRITER, ACTOR, EDUCATOR, ACTIVIST, MOTHER, WIFE, FRIEND, NIECE, Emotional EMBODIMENT CHEERLEADER, and TRUTH-TELLER feel the most important to me now.
I spent a lot of my life feeling like I was failing at EVERYTHING. No matter what.
When things were hard, I felt it was exactly what I deserved. When things were easy, I obsessed about when everything would collapse so I could get back to things being hard (and exactly what I deserved).
Some of this angst was just part of life and learning, but a lot of it, as it turns out, was NOT normal. I was actually (not) dealing with COMPLEX TRAUMA from growing up within an isolated narcissistic family structure centered around my mother’s untreated NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER.
A few years ago I started telling the truth about how I grew up and began the process of actively reparenting myself.
It turns out that when we tell the truth about the bad stuff we can finally tell the truth about the good stuff too!
So here I am - feeling more ELECTRIC at this stage of my life than I ever have - USING MY VOICE to finally TAKE UP SPACE on the center stage in my own life!
I’m Elizabeth. I'm Not Failing...I AM.
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I'm Emerging
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I'm Feeling
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I'm Done Fighting With You
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20 Apr 2023
I'm Talking About My Mental Health, Part 1 - OCD
#003 - I'm Not Failing...I'm Talking About My Mental Health, Part 1 - OCDIn this episode, I talk about:Finding a name for the growing community of INF listeners: ‘Friends’, ‘Failers’, ‘Winners’...there HAS to be something better. Please help!Launching the first in a series of discussions on my mental health, with this first part about sharing some of my experiences living with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).I describe some of my earliest, and most significant, obsessive compulsive ...
23 Mar 2023
I'm Making a Podcast
#001 - I'm Not Failing...I'm Making a Podcast! I’ve done it! Woohoo!!! I’ve recorded, edited, and published my first episode of I’m Not Failing, the Podcast! It’s literally been a lifetime in gestation, friends. A lifetime.In this episode, I:introduce myselfexplain what the I'm Not Failing Podcast is about and how it will workinvite you to join me on my journey by subscribing to my newsletter and supporting me on Patreon.NEW EPISODES every two weeks on Thursdays!Y...
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