Welcome to IDK WTF I’m Doing, the unfiltered podcast where spirituality meets real life, business, fitness, and motherhood.
I’m Mia J., founder of Noir Joya — entrepreneur, mom, and woman learning to flow through every “WTF” season with faith and fire.
Here, we talk purpose, alignment, health, and hustle — and how to turn chaos into clarity. Because truthfully, none of us have it all figured out — and that’s exactly where the magic begins.
Entrepreneurship Is a Spiritual Game: Faith, Delayed Gratification & the Wilderness
What if everything you’re going through in your business is actually happening for you? In this episode, we’re getting into why entrepreneurship is one of the most advanced spiritual practices there is — and why nobody talks about it that way. We’re breaking down the real reason your ceiling keeps hitting you, why delayed gratification is a spiritual discipline (not just a mindset hack), and what it actually means to surrender outcomes without quitting. If you’ve ever felt isolated in your journey, questioned your faith when the numbers didn’t move, or wondered if you’re doing something wrong because it’s taking longer than you planned — this episode is for you. We also get into the comparison trap, detachment from outcomes, discernment between God’s voice and your ego, and why the wilderness season isn’t punishment. It’s preparation.
In this episode:
• Why entrepreneurship is a spiritual game, not just a financial one
• Delayed gratification as a spiritual practice
• The wilderness season and what it’s forming in you
• Surrender vs. giving up
• Flow mode, intuition, and trusting divine timing in business
• The comparison trap and highlight reels
Find me: Instagram | TikTok | @callhermiaj
Follow my business: Noir Joya Co.
25 Jun 2026
Your Brain Is Wired Differently — 5 Signs You’re Actually Built for Entrepreneurship (Even If You’re Still at a 9–5)
If you’ve ever sat at a job thinking I could run this better — that’s not arrogance, that’s wiring. In this episode I’m breaking down the 5 real signs you’re built for entrepreneurship, not just interested in it. We’re talking about why you see problems everywhere, why you can’t stop solving things that aren’t even yours to fix, why someone else’s ceiling feels like suffocation, and why uncertainty doesn’t break you the way it breaks others. This isn’t about having it all figured out. It’s about recognizing what’s already in you. Whether you’re still clocking in somewhere or you just started your first business, this episode will help you stop second-guessing yourself and start moving with intention. Plus I’m sharing something I’ve been building for years that’s finally out — and it might be exactly what you need right now.
Follow me on social media: @callhermiaj
Follow the business: @noirjoya
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18 Jun 2026
The Invisible Load of Solo Parenting (You Are Enough)
Single mom, solo parent, running on empty? This one’s for you.
In this episode of IDK wtf I’m doing, I’m pulling back the curtain on the invisible load of solo parenting — the constant mental tracking, the financial juggling, the never-ending list that nobody sees and nobody claps for. I’m talking about the tears in the car before work, the showers you turn on just to cry in private, and the exhaustion of being everyone’s everything with no one to pass the baton to.
But this episode isn’t just about naming the weight — it’s about giving yourself permission to put some of it down. We get into why pouring into yourself isn’t a luxury, it’s maintenance. Why asking for help is wisdom, not weakness. And why you deserve to be poured into, not because you’ve earned it, but because you’re human.
If you’re a single mom solo parenting with little to no support, this is for you. I see you. I am you.
Follow me on socials @callhermiaj, and follow the business @noirjoya. My updated manifestation journal is launching soon, so stay close so you don’t miss it.
11 Jun 2026
Act As If: The Identity Shift That Actually Changes Your Life
Manifestation is step one. Becoming her is the work.
In this episode, Mia J breaks down what “acting as if” really means — and why it’s not faking it till you make it. It’s identity-level transformation backed by neuroscience (neuroplasticity + your RAS), and Mia shares a personal story from when she was living in a shelter and used this exact framework to shift her reality.
If you’ve been doing all the right things but still feel stuck, this one’s for you.
You’ll learn:
→ Why affirmations alone won’t move the needle
→ How your brain rewires around the identity you embody
→ Why your circle is part of the work
→ 3 ways to start acting as if today
None of us know what we’re doing. We’re just taking one foot in front of the other — and doing our best.
Follow Mia: @callhermiaj on Instagram, TikTok & Threads
Follow my business: @noirjoya on all social media
Email: noirjoya@gmail.com
4 Jun 2026
Episode 8: When the Tears Won’t Stop: Navigating a Depressive Episode as a Solo Mom & Entrepreneur
In this episode, Mia gets raw and unfiltered about the depressive episode that hit her out of nowhere — crying spells that lasted days, canceling plans she actually wanted to keep, and a body that finally said enough.
She breaks down what triggered it, why she couldn’t just “journal it out,” and how being a solo mom, entrepreneur, and woman with no village makes mental health hits land differently. She also opens up about reaching out to her spiritual therapist, doing emergency self-Reiki in her car, and the one rhetorical question that cracked everything open.
This episode is where season two begins — with Mia stepping fully into the “Act As If” journey and outlining who her future self actually is.
If you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired, this one is for you.
Topics covered:
• Depressive episodes & grief nobody talks about
• The impossible weight of juggling every role alone
• Why surface-level advice doesn’t cut it
• Self-Reiki as a real coping tool
• Burnout vs. tiredness — knowing the difference
• Introducing the Act As If framework
• Getting back to creativity as medicine
Follow along: @callhermiaj (personal) | @noirjoya (business)
14 May 2026
Episode 7: God’s Voice Vs Intuition Vs Ego - How to Know Which One Is Talking To You
Have you ever been in the middle of a big decision and felt like you were hearing a million different voices — but had no idea which one to actually listen to? In this episode of I Don’t Know What the F** I’m Doing*, host Mia J breaks down the three voices we all experience: the ego, God’s voice, and your intuition — and more importantly, how to tell them apart.
Whether you’re navigating a major life decision, trying to manifest your next level, or just trying to figure out if that nagging feeling is fear or guidance — this episode gives you a practical framework for discernment that you can use in real time.
Mia shares a personal story about wrestling with the decision to leave Michigan and move back to Arizona — hearing all three voices at once — and what finally helped her choose.
In this episode:
• Why the ego is loud, urgent, and fear-based — and why we still need it
• How God’s voice shows up as quiet authority — direct, calm, and unbothered
• Why your intuition is like a calm mom gently tapping your shoulder
• The pause practice: how to check which voice is actually running the show
• How your body tells you the difference between fear and alignment
• Why discernment is a muscle — and how to keep building it
Follow Mia J: TikTok & Instagram @callhermiaJ | Noir Joya on all platforms
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7 May 2026
Episode 6: You Are Not Your Emotions: How to Stop Identifying With Your Feelings
You are not your anger. You’re not your anxiety. You’re not your sadness — you’re a person experiencing those things, and that difference is everything.
In this episode we’re talking about one of the simplest but most powerful mindset shifts you can make: changing “I am angry” to “I feel angry.” It sounds small. It’s not.
When you fuse your identity with your emotions, you make them permanent. When you separate them, you get your power back.
We’re breaking down:
→ Why language shapes how long emotions stick
→ The psychology behind identity vs. emotional state
→ How to start rewiring the way you talk about yourself — starting today
This is emotional intelligence meets spiritual growth, and it’s a conversation that’ll hit different if you’ve ever felt like you were your worst feelings.
🎙️ IDK WTF I’m doing — real talk on mindset, growth, and figuring it out.
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30 Apr 2026
Episode 5: Trusting Divine Timing: How to Stop Forcing and Start Flowing
Are you doing all the right things — visualizing, praying, setting intentions — but still feel like nothing is moving? In this episode of I Don’t Know What the F** I’m Doing*, host Mia J breaks down why divine timing is real, why we resist it, and what it actually means to trust the process.
We’re unpacking why the need to control your timeline is often rooted in fear and trauma responses, how forcing creates low-frequency energy that repels the very things you want, and what it looks like to genuinely align with what’s coming for you.
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Mia shares a personal story about how she manifested her Reiki Level 1 certification by releasing control — and what happened within the same week. Plus, the “burnt toast theory” and why divine timing is always protecting you, even when it doesn’t feel like it.
In this episode:
• Why control is a trauma response disguised as productivity
• The difference between trusting and being passive
• How to stay in high-frequency alignment while you wait
• Why timing is always protection
Your homework: Identify the one area where you need to stop forcing
Follow Mia J:
TikTok & Instagram @callhermiaJ | Noir Joya Co. on all platforms
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23 Apr 2026
Episode 4: Spiritual Journey
I’m bacccck. I took a bit of a hiatus but in this episode I speak Briefly about my spiritual journey including how I became reiki certified,
5 Nov 2025
Episode 3: Becoming An Entrepreneur
In this episode I talk about pillar 2 of 4 for me… Entrepreneurship.
Do you see entrepreneurship as a pathway for you?
Follow me on socials: @callhermiaj and @noirjoya
30 Oct 2025
Episode 2: How Being A Parent Impacted Me
In this episode, I begin talking about one of the four pillars of me: Parenthood. I discussed how becoming a parent catapult me into the rest of my journey.
Has parenting shifted you in anyway ?
Follow me on social media : @callhermiaj & @noirjoya 🤞🏽
20 Oct 2025
Episode 1: IDK WTF I’m Doing
Season 1, Episode 1… the beginning of figuring out wtf I’m doing. If you can relate, this is the right place for you. I give you just a brief overview of what I’m trying to figure out: spirituality, parenthood, entrepreneurship, and health.
Find me everywhere @noirjoya or @callhermiaj
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