If I Am Being Honest is a podcast about raw, real conversations on mental health, growth, and community. Hosts Nishani Jayawardena and Himgauri (Gigi) Alve share honest truths and big leaps to help you feel seen and inspired.
Your Body Is a Compass: Coming Back to Yourself with Xandrine Ayla
She's called five countries home, and every time she started over she learned the same thing: wherever you go, there you are.
In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Nishani and Gigi sit down with Xandrine Ayla, an embodiment mentor who guides women through life's biggest transitions back to who they really are, to talk about getting out of your head and back into your body.
Xandrine shares how years of mysterious rash outbreaks that no doctor could fix led her from mindset coaching into body-based work, and why she now calls her body her compass. She opens up about growing up in a conservative culture in the Philippines, her five-year conscious celibacy journey, and learning to source her own pleasure instead of outsourcing it. We also get into the identity shift she's moving through right now as her daughter spends more time with her dad, why mom guilt grows when you don't carve out time for yourself, and what happens when your growth triggers the people around you, from crab mentality to a family comment about her dancing videos. This one is for anyone who's ever lost themselves in a role, a relationship, or a new chapter, and is ready to find their way back home to themselves.
Chapters
00:00 Introduction to Xandrine Ayla
03:00 Moving Countries and Starting Over
06:31 Your Body as a Compass
11:10 From Mindset Coaching to Body-Based Work
17:07 Living From the Neck Up: First Steps to Reconnect
22:04 Why No One Can Fix You
31:33 Growing Up in the Philippines and Reclaiming the Body
33:30 Conscious Celibacy and Self-Sourced Pleasure
39:28 Losing Your Identity in Relationships and Motherhood
45:35 Finding Herself Again After Full-Time Motherhood
52:40 How to Come Back to Yourself
1:05:42 Mom Guilt and Carving Out Time for Yourself
1:10:41 When Your Growth Triggers Others
1:14:47 How Deep Can You Root?
Connect with Xandrine Ayla:
Website: xandrine.com (https://xandrine.com)
Email: hello@xandrine.com (mailto:hello@xandrine.com)
Instagram: instagram.com/xandrine.ayla (http://instagram.com/xandrine.ayla)
YouTube: youtube.com/@XandrineAyla (https://www.youtube.com/@XandrineAyla)
Podcast: Spotify (https://open.spotify.com/show/1gHdfeyGp6TuHamG11YSvD)
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Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health guidance. Please consult a qualified provider for personal concerns.
18 Sept 2026
Signs of OCD No One Talks About with Dr. Danielle Henderson
She specializes in treating OCD for a living — and still spent months secretly battling it herself after having her first child.
In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Nishani and Gigi sit down with Dr. Danielle Henderson, PsyD, LPC — Clinical Director and Founder of Break Free Counseling Center and co-founder of THRIVE — to talk about what OCD actually looks like, on and off the surface.
Danielle breaks down the real difference between obsessions and compulsions, why OCD can show up as intrusive images, memories, and urges instead of just visible rituals, and the leading theories on where it actually comes from. She opens up about pulling out her own eyelashes at twelve years old, the postpartum OCD she kept hidden from her own providers and her husband, and how long it took her to actually use the tools she teaches her clients every day. We also get into her leap from corporate mental health into entrepreneurship — leaving a job with nothing else lined up, the burnout and hospitalization that pushed her there, and what it's really like building two businesses while managing anxiety, perfectionism, and people-pleasing along the way. This one is for anyone who's ever wondered if their own habits, rituals, or "that's just how I am" moments are actually something worth naming — and worth getting support for.
Chapters
00:00 Introduction to Dr. Danielle Henderson
03:01 Understanding OCD and Anxiety
09:46 The Impact of OCD and Anxiety on Daily Life
22:23 Challenges Faced by New Mothers
27:04 Exploring [Just Right / "Gesturite"] OCD (pending confirmation)
28:16 Influence of Family Behaviors on OCD
30:53 Entrepreneurship and OCD
36:06 Impact of Entrepreneurship on Mental Health
49:19 Treatment Plans for OCD
56:35 Specialized Therapy for OCD and Anxiety
57:11 Success Stories and Treatment Impact
1:10:02 Prevalence and Challenges of OCD Treatment
Connect with Dr. Danielle Henderson:
Website: breakfreecenter.org (http://breakfreecenter.org) / thriveocd.com (http://thriveocd.com)
Instagram: instagram.com/breakfreecounseling (http://instagram.com/breakfreecounseling)
LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/danielle-henderson-psy-d-lpc-7657691a3 (http://linkedin.com/in/danielle-henderson-psy-d-lpc-7657691a3)
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4 Sept 2026
Your Birth Card Knows You Better Than You Think | Shelbie Mariah Moore
She was seven years old doing tarot readings with a deck of playing cards and offering candy to her ancestors — until her mother shut it down. Ten years ago, the day after her wedding, that same instinct came roaring back, and it became her life's work.
In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down with Shelbie Mariah Moore, cardology educator, author, and mother of three neurodivergent children, to talk about what it means to understand yourself through the wisdom of a regular deck of cards.
Shelbie breaks down what cardology actually is — the ancient study of playing cards as personality assessment and divination — and makes the case that playing cards are the original tarot deck. We get into her monthly Cardology Shadow Circle, why your shadow side isn't something to fix but something to befriend, and the story behind her son's birth card that sent her down this path in the first place. Shelbie also opens up about her own shadow, her Saturn card, and the reflective questions inside her new book, The Light & Shadow of Your Birth Card. This one is for anyone who's ever wondered why certain people feel like home and others feel like friction — and what their own light and shadow might be trying to tell them.
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Connect with Shelbie Mariah Moore:
Book: a.co/d/0ePRMAnY (http://a.co/d/0ePRMAnY)
YouTube: Cardology Wisdom
Instagram/TikTok: @CardologyWisdom (http://instagram.com/CardologyWisdom)
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LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ (http://linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/)
Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not a substitute for professional spiritual, medical, or mental health guidance. Please consult a qualified provider for personal concerns.
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