It's All Me

About It's All Me

The Modern Phoenix (formerly "It's All Me") In a culture that values logic, urgency, perfection, and sameness, The Modern Phoenix walks a different path: one that honors her unique mind, body and soul. Between information overload, the demands of modern life, and lifetimes of conditioning and "shoulds", it can feel hard for a woman to know and listen to her own wants and needs. We're so busy caring and doing and anticipating and managing that we forget ourselves. We hope there's a better, more balanced, life-giving and feminine way to be a modern woman—to have regulated nervous systems, intuitive solutions to complex problems, and the distinct trust in ourselves and our choices, despite life's curveballs, but we're not sure where to start. That's where I come in. I'm Gervase Kolmos, Inner Transformation Coach and phoenix-in-evolution. I help women learn to trust themselves and be guided by their own inner authority to live with pleasure, authenticity and embodied wisdom. This podcast is my mission and my mantra: you are light and dark, thinking and feeling, perfect and a work-in-progress. Together, we'll unlock your intuition, tap into the wisdom and resources of your body, and navigate this confusing, demanding, gorgeous life. So let's burn down the stories, conditioning and beliefs that don't serve us, shall we?

Publisher

Gervase Kolmos

Category

education · society & culture

Language

en

Explicit

Yes

First episode

13 Nov 2020

Latest episode

15 Dec 2025

Latest episodes

183 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   15 Dec 2025

   When Will It Be Enough? Reclaiming Your Inner 'Enoughness' in a Capitalist World

   In this soulful December episode, Gervase pulls back the curtain on her decision to shift The Modern Phoenix Podcast to a monthly publishing schedule and the deeper question underneath it: When will it be enough? From business to motherhood to Black Friday shopping spirals, she explores how capitalism and patriarchy train women to measure our value by how much we do, produce, and perform—and why it will never feel like enough if we're only chasing external metrics. You'll be invited into a simple, somatic practice to reconnect with your body, your soul, and your inner sense of "I am already enough," so you can move through the holidays and the new year with more intention, gentleness, and grounded power. Listen to this episode to discover: Why Gervase is moving the podcast to a monthly schedule (and why that's a power move, not a retreat). How capitalism quietly lives inside your thoughts, to-do lists, and sense of worth. The difference between "doing more" and actually feeling like enough. A simple hand-on-heart embodiment practice you can use anytime to come back to yourself. How reclaiming your inner enoughness changes the way you parent, work, and make decisions. This episode is for you if… You are a woman who has tried to earn her worth by doing more—at work, at home, in your business, in motherhood—and it still never feels like enough. You're tired of the hamster wheel but scared to step off. You're craving a softer, more embodied way of living and leading that doesn't require you to abandon yourself to be "successful." You want to feel grounded, resourced, and okay inside your own body—no matter what your inbox, bank account, or holiday calendar looks like. Pull Quotes "We will never do enough on the outside for it to feel enough on the inside." "Capitalism literally profits from us never feeling enough." "Creating one podcast episode with love is more powerful than four frantic episodes from lack." "You can't take power from someone who is embodied in themselves." "Just because something is normal in dominant culture doesn't mean you need to do it." Resources Mentioned Tulum Retreat — March 18–22, 2026 A deep, luxurious, party-meets-prayer retreat experience for women in the jungle of Tulum, Mexico. Inner Knowing Immersion — Two 1:1 sessions with Gervase focused on one specific pattern that keeps you spiraled, plus a custom hypnosis track you keep forever. Soul Shift Intensive — A powerful deep-dive 1:1 experience to catalyze a shift in one core area of your life. Join Us: Be part of the Phoenix community—circles, retreats, and offerings that honor endings, beginnings, and everything in between. Join to receive biweekly entries from my Phoenix Diary: https://www.gervasekolmos.com/subscribe Work with Gervase: Explore the Tulum Retreat (March 18–22, 2026) and step out of the capitalism hamster wheel and into a jungle oasis of healing, play, and sisterhood. - Tulum Retreat Book an Inner Knowing Immersion to start building an inner sense of enoughness that cannot be taken from you - The Inner Knowing Immersion (https://www.gervasekolmos.com/immersion) 1:1 coaching - learn more about it here Follow Gervase: Instagram: www.instagram.com/gervasekolmos.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/GervaseKolmosCoaching YouTube: www.youtube.com/@themodernphoenix

2. 

   1 Dec 2025

   I Choreograph My Whole Life Around Joy

   What if you planned your day around what lights you up—on purpose? In this raw solo, Gervase shares how a rooftop birthday party became a masterclass in scheduling for joy instead of obligation. From proactively blocking her calendar and rescheduling a client to delegating kid pickup and coaching a friend out of "show face" energy, she models what it looks like to let inner knowing lead. Expect grounded coaching on permission, partnership, mom‑guilt, entrepreneurship, and why your ecosystem thrives when you bloom. Feeling good isn't frivolous—it's functional. Listen to this episode to discover: How to use your calendar as a subconscious signal ("this matters") Why modeling aliveness is real leadership (at work and at home) The mindset reframe for rescheduling without guilt How to delegate life‑load (kid pickup, anyone?) so joy has space The litmus test: feeling good feels easy when the inner work is landing This episode is for you if: You're over "show face" energy and want to lead from aliveness; you're a mom who keeps crunching joy between pickup and meetings; you're an entrepreneur who built freedom but still plays by invisible rules; or you're simply ready to block the joy first and let the rest of life rearrange. Pull Quotes "Add it to the calendar. Tell your subconscious: this matters." "Leadership through aliveness beats leadership through obligation." "You don't have to earn sunshine—you lean toward it." "You'll know the work is working when feeling good is easy." Resources Mentioned Inner Knowing Immersion — two 90‑minute sessions + custom hypnosis (21‑day anchoring) Nuuly clothing rental—G's referral code: https://share.nuuly.com/gervase7 (https://share.nuuly.com/gervase7) Find Andrea Serrano (birthday muse + rooftop magic) on IG: https://www.instagram.com/andreaserranocurates/ Join Us: Be part of the Phoenix community—circles, retreats, and offerings that honor endings, beginnings, and everything in between. Join to receive biweekly entries from my Phoenix Diary: https://www.gervasekolmos.com/subscribe Work with Gervase: Inner Knowing Immersion (2× 90‑min 1:1 + custom hypnosis). Limited to two per month: gervasekolmos.com/immersion 1:1 coaching - learn more about it here Inner Knowing Immersion (2× 90‑min 1:1 + custom hypnosis). Limited to two per month: The Inner Knowing Immersion Follow Gervase: Instagram: www.instagram.com/gervasekolmos.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/GervaseKolmosCoaching YouTube: www.youtube.com/@themodernphoenix

3. 

   17 Nov 2025

   When I Don't Know What to Do, I Return to Me

   When I Don't Know What to Do, I Return to Me is a raw solo where Gervase shares two real-life vignettes—a Zoom with a master lawyer taken from a Costco aisle and a mama-bear moment about her child's bully—to show exactly how she moves from rumination to inner knowing. You'll hear her NPR framework (Notice–Pause–Resource), the shift from outside eyes to inside eyes, and the embodied practice of taking your seat so your next right-for-you move becomes obvious. She also introduces The Inner Knowing Immersion: two 90‑minute sessions + a custom hypnosis track to anchor this practice for 21 days and beyond. Listen to this episode to discover: The NPR micro‑framework to move from spin to center Inside eyes vs. outside eyes (and how to switch) What it means to take your seat—even in public How to spot self‑gaslighting and people‑pleasing Why clean energy = clean communication How a custom hypnosis can anchor self‑trust for 21 days This episode is for you if: You're looping on a decision, performing to be palatable, or afraid of getting it "wrong." You want practical, embodied tools to choose the truest thing—at school pickup, in a boardroom, or in a Costco aisle. Pull Quotes: "When I don't know what to do, I return to me." "Outside eyes look for rules. Inside eyes look for truth." "I took my seat—in a Costco aisle." "You've already won when you don't abandon yourself." "Perfection is a performance. Truth is a frequency." Resources Mentioned: Inner Knowing Immersion — two 90‑minute sessions + custom hypnosis (21‑day anchoring) NPR = Notice • Pause • Resource (simple nervous-system reset) Join Us: Craving consistent circles and retreats? Join the newsletter for upcoming circles, retreats, and special offerings: https://www.gervasekolmos.com/subscribe Work with Gervase: 1:1 coaching - learn more about it here The Inner Knowing Immersion is now open! Follow Gervase: Instagram: www.instagram.com/gervasekolmos.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/GervaseKolmosCoaching YouTube: www.youtube.com/@themodernphoenix

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YouTube views

14,908

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Apple Podcasts (US)

5.0 / 5

1 ratings

Podcast Authority Score: 71 / 100

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Quality

84

Social presence

94

YouTube

72

Engagement

27