by Jackie Faber
This podcast is me showing up and speaking in real time. No scripts. No teaching. No performance. Just my lived experience as it unfolds — thoughts, realizations, identity shifts, and whatever wants to be spoken. These conversations explore healing, trauma, personal sovereignty, perception, energy, and what it means to stop performing growth and start living in alignment. Listen at your own pace.
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June 5, 2026
<p>For years, I deeply identified with anxious attachment.</p><p>I believed distance meant danger.<br>Space meant rejection.<br>Uncertainty meant abandonment.</p><p>And because of that, every relationship became organized around securing connection, preserving closeness, and preventing people from leaving.</p><p>But what if anxious attachment isn't actually about love?</p><p>What if it's a nervous system safety-seeking pattern?</p><p>In this episode, I share how my perspective on attachment styles completely changed after understanding nervous system orientation, self-referencing, and recognition.</p><p>We'll explore:</p><p>• Why avoidant people no longer trigger me<br>• The difference between self-referencing and other-referencing<br>• How anxious attachment becomes organized around safety<br>• Why managing triggers is different from dissolving patterns<br>• The moment I stopped relating to people through the lens of abandonment</p><p>I didn't heal by finding people who wouldn't trigger me.</p><p>I healed by recognizing the pattern that was creating the trigger in the first place.</p><p>Resources mentioned in this episode:</p><p>📘 <a href="https://www.amazon.ca/dp/1068830328?ref=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cp_ud_dp_JGQVT9EQAE5RHYAMNZH5&ref_=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cp_ud_dp_JGQVT9EQAE5RHYAMNZH5&social_share=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cp_ud_dp_JGQVT9EQAE5RHYAMNZH5&bestFormat=true" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer">Permission to Be</a><br>A book about trauma, identity, spirituality, and returning to your authentic self.</p><p>📖 <a href="https://stan.store/jackiefaber/p/-i-understand-my-patternsbut-nothing-is-changing" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer">Recognition Manual</a><br>Learn how to identify nervous system patterns in real time instead of after they've already taken over.</p><p>🔄 <a href="https://stan.store/jackiefaber/p/the-orientation-shift" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer">Orientation Shift</a><br>A deeper dive into how your nervous system organizes around safety, relationships, and self-abandonment.</p><p>If this episode resonates, subscribe, share it with someone who is tired of repeating the same relationship patterns, and leave a review. It helps more people discover the show.</p><p><br></p><p>anxious attachment, avoidant attachment, attachment styles, attachment theory, nervous system healing, self safety, self referencing, abandonment wounds, fear of abandonment, relationship anxiety, healing attachment wounds, nervous system regulation, trauma healing, emotional healing, codependency, anxious attachment recovery, relationship patterns, emotional triggers, recognition work, orientation shift, self abandonment, personal growth, spirituality and healing, nervous system patterns, attachment trauma, secure attachment, emotional regulation, inner child healing, healing journey, Jackie Faber</p><p><br></p><p></p>
May 29, 2026
<p>Today is a really big day for me because my book, Permission to Be, is officially out on Amazon.</p><p>But this episode isn’t just about the release of the book.<br>It’s about the evolution behind it.</p><p>What started as a book about loving an addict slowly transformed into something much deeper as I moved through divorce, emotional abuse, spirituality, nervous system healing, and ultimately — embodiment.</p><p>Every single time I tried to finish this book before I had fully lived the lesson, the book stopped.</p><p>In this episode, I talk about:</p><ul><li>why the original book never got written</li><li>the abusive relationship that changed everything</li><li>realizing I was still self-abandoning in real time</li><li>the shift from abuse content into spirituality</li><li>how the chakra system became a mirror for my own fragmentation</li><li>why I couldn’t fully write about the higher chakras yet</li><li>the difference between understanding healing and embodying it</li><li>what finally allowed me to complete Permission to Be</li></ul><p>This episode is less of a teaching episode and more of an honest reflection on the last few years of my life and the journey that shaped this book.</p><p>Permission to Be is now available on Amazon in paperback and ebook format. Signed copies are also available in limited quantities through my Stan Store.</p><p><br></p><p><a href="https://stan.store/jackiefaber" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer">Jackie Faber Stan Store</a></p><p><br></p><p>permission to be, self abandonment, self trust, spirituality podcast, healing journey, emotional abuse recovery, chakra healing, embodiment, nervous system healing, spiritual awakening, codependency recovery, self healing, trauma healing, people pleasing, authenticity, personal growth podcast, healing podcast, spiritual growth, conscious relationships, shadow work, self worth, finding authenticity, inner healing, emotional healing, reiki, self responsibility, spiritual transformation, healing after abuse, chakra system, nervous system regulation</p><p><br></p><p></p>
May 22, 2026
<p>There was a time when I viewed harmful behavior almost entirely through the lens of unconscious survival.</p><p>Then I entered online abuse discourse… and suddenly everything became intentional, calculated, toxic, narcissistic, manipulative.</p><p>In this episode, I talk about my own experience moving between those two extremes — from over-humanizing harmful behavior to briefly dehumanizing human behavior altogether — and how understanding the nervous system changed the way I see relationships, trauma, manipulation, healing, and consciousness itself.</p><p>This conversation explores:</p><ul><li>black-and-white thinking</li><li>nervous system organization</li><li>trauma and unconscious behavior</li><li>certainty as emotional regulation</li><li>polarity in healing spaces</li><li>self-reference and relational dynamics</li><li>why nuance feels threatening online</li><li>and why human behavior is often far more complex than “good vs evil”</li></ul><p>This is not a conversation about excusing harm.<br />It’s a conversation about moving beyond simplistic frameworks and understanding what actually drives human behavior.</p><p><br /></p><p><a href="https://stan.store/jackiefaber" target="_blank" rel="ugc noopener noreferrer">Explore my work</a></p><p><br /></p><p>#healing #trauma #nervoussystem #selfawareness #relationships #consciousness #attachmentstyles #selftrust #personalgrowth #psychology</p><p></p>
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This podcast is me showing up and speaking in real time.
No scripts. No teaching. No performance.
Just my lived experience as it unfolds — thoughts, realizations, identity shifts, and whatever wants to be spoken.
These conversations explore healing, trauma, personal sovereignty, perception, energy, and what it means to stop performing growth and start living in alignment.
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