A Story of Survival and Strength
Growing up as a middle child in a large, deeply religious household, I learned to survive in the space between, unseen, unheard, and absorbing more than my share of chaos. THIS is a personal storytelling podcast about childhood trauma, family dynamics, faith, resilience, and reclaiming a voice that was never meant to stay quiet. I was a textbook middle child, the observer and peacemaker , and also the one who asked questions, talked too much.
Through honest, real-life stories, I share my journey of surviving, healing, & finding my voice, one episode at a time.
A conversation with my sister brought up emotions and realizations I wasn't expecting. In this episode, I reflect on feeling heard and believed, the fears I still carry around rejection and being unwanted, and what it means to finally use my voice.
I also revisit stories from my childhood and look at them through a different lens—from the circumstances surrounding my birth to a time when I stopped speaking completely. Sometimes healing isn't about changing the past. It's about finally understanding how the pieces fit together and realizing just how far you've come.
6 Oct 2026
22 — The Road to Somewhere New (part 2)
The road trip continues, and this time you're riding along with me through a little bit of everything. I share an update on becoming a Clarity Breathwork practitioner, the story of my battle with Lyme disease and blood clots, a recent car accident, and some of the unexpected moments that happen when you're traveling across the country alone. There are caverns, Cadillac Ranch, a night sleeping in my car, a few memorable roadside stops, and finally—the beautiful landscapes of Arizona. Sometimes the journey isn't just about where you're going. It's about everything you discover along the way.
30 Sept 2026
Episode 21: Finding Faith, Losing Myself
This episode is a little different—you’re coming along with me on a road trip across the country. As the miles pass, I look back at a time when I was ready to give up on church altogether, only to find a place that felt like the family and community I had been searching for. I became deeply involved, gave everything I could, and somewhere along the way, I lost parts of myself. Looking back now, I can see how that church helped me, shaped me, and, in some ways, held me back.
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