It’s what we chased.
More escape. More numbness. More validation. More noise.
Until more took everything.
This is More - a podcast hosted by people who’ve lived addiction, mental illness,trauma, and neurodiversity from the inside out. We’ve hit rock bottom. We’ve burned things down. And we’ve rebuilt ourselves in ways no textbook could teach.
These aren’t polished success stories or borrowed wisdom.
This is real conversation from people who’ve walked through chaos and come back with scars, insight, and hard-earned clarity.
We talk about what happens when coping mechanisms become cages.
When survival becomes identity.
When you realise the life you’re living is killing you.
And then, what comes next.
More is about recovery without clichés. Healing without shame. Growth without gurus.
It’s about finding alternative ways to live when the old ones stop working.
If you’ve ever felt broken, different, addicted, overwhelmed, misunderstood...or simply hungry for something deeper, this space is for you.
No more stuff.
No more distraction.
More truth.
More connection.
More life.
Welcome to More.
Somewhere Else: Dissociation, Autopilot and the Years We Spent Watching Our Own Lives
There's a version of being gone that nobody can see. You're in the room. You're answering the questions. You're driving the car, making the dinner, having the conversation. But you're not there. You're watching it happen from somewhere behind your own eyes. In episode 13 of More, Toby and Rudy get into dissociation. What it actually is, where it comes from, and what it's like to spend most of your life watching yourself from a distance. This is one they both have deep lived experience of, and...
13 Jun 2026
We're Back: Life on Life's Terms, Sleep, Suicidal Thoughts and Why We Went Quiet
We've been gone for eight weeks. This is what happened. In this episode Toby and Rudy get back in the seats and do what they always promised to do on More. Tell the truth about what's actually been going on. No polished comeback. No neat narrative. Just two blokes in recovery catching up honestly about one of the hardest stretches either of them has had since the podcast began. Toby opens up about what happened in the weeks following the sleep episode. The not sleeping that continued regardle...
1 Apr 2026
No Rest for the Wired: Sleep, Trauma, CPTSD and the Exhaustion Nobody Talks About
Everyone tells you to get more sleep. Nobody tells you what to do when your nervous system treats sleep like a threat. In this episode of More, Toby and Rudy get honest about something that touches almost every person living with trauma, CPTSD, addiction or neurodivergence. And something that almost never gets a proper conversation. Not the tired version of sleep advice you've heard a hundred times. The real version. What it actually feels like when rest itself becomes the thing you can't hav...
25 Mar 2026
Stuck on the inside: The Freeze Response
Everyone talks about fight or flight. Nobody talks about freeze. The trauma response that shuts you down completely, makes you look checked out, and gets mistaken for laziness, indifference or not trying hard enough. In this episode of More, Toby and Rudy get honest about the freeze response from lived experience. Both are recovering addicts, CPTSD and Big T trauma survivors, neurodivergent, and living with chronic pain. Both have spent years being misread as disengaged when their nervo...
23 Mar 2026
'Tinnies, Tabs & Boys' - Charlotte's Story Part One
This episode we welcome our very first guest, Charlotte. Charlotte discussed her life, her journey and how she found recovery. We touch on boarding school, addiction, neurodivergence and mental health issues. A powerful and inspiring listen. Show notes; - Gabor Mate talks - Life and Crime 1984-2020 (HBO Documentary) - Recovery Capital As always we would love to here from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Send us Fan Mail
23 Mar 2026
'Tinnies, Tabs & Boys' - Charlotte's Story Part Two
This is the second instalment from our very first guest, Charlotte. Charlotte discussed her life, her journey and how she found recovery. We touch on boarding school, addiction, neurodivergence and mental health issues. A powerful and inspiring listen. Show notes; - Gabor Mate talks - Life and Crime 1984-2020 (HBO Documentary) - Recovery Capital As always we would love to here from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Send us Fan Mail
12 Mar 2026
Diagnosis - 'Liberated or Labelled?"
Does a diagnosis liberate you - or just give you a new label to carry? Toby and Rudy get into their own late diagnoses, the years of masking that came before, and the complicated mix of relief, grief and anger that follows when someone finally tells you why life felt so much harder than it looked for everyone else. A honest conversation about what not knowing costs you. Connect with us here, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com. Please reach out if you are interested in comi...
4 Mar 2026
What is Recovery?
Recovery? What’s that? In today’s episode we talk through what recovery means to us, the stigma around it and how we deal with the process. Links - Waking up App - https://www.wakingup.com/ Balance App - https://themindcompany.com/apps/balance Trataka Meditation - Candle Flame Gazing Hello@tobyandrudy.com - Say Hello. Send us Fan Mail
11 Feb 2026
Rudy's Story - "Smalltown Boy" Part One
Rudy is one of your hosts, in this episode you will get to hear his lived experience and how he came to be with you today. Send us Fan Mail
11 Feb 2026
Rudy's Story - "Smalltown Boy" Part Two
This is part two of your host, Rudys story let’s jump straight back in - thanks for listening along. If this story has touched you in anyway we would love to hear from you. Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Send us Fan Mail
6 Feb 2026
Toby's Story - Part Two
This is part two of your host, Tobys story, let’s get straight back into it! Thanks for listening along. If this story has touched you in any way we would like to hear from you. Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Send us Fan Mail
5 Feb 2026
Toby's Story - Part One
Toby is one of your hosts, in this episode you will hear about him and his life experiences, from childhood to present day. Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Of waves and war - netflix Send us Fan Mail
28 Jan 2026
The Beginning
This is More, a podcast hosted by people with lived experience of addiction, mental health issues, trauma, and neurodiversity. Where the pursuit of more led us to rock bottom and has since led us to finding alternative ways to live. - Join us in our first episode, listen to a brief intro of us, the concept of more and how/why we started this podcast. Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Send us Fan Mail
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