Let's shake things up and dive into something completely different. Forget everything you thought you knew and join us on an exciting adventure. We'll explore the twists and turns of emotions, desires, and vulnerabilities that shape our romantic and intimate lives. This journey isn't just about discovering new perspectives; it's about challenging old ones. As we delve into the complexities of love, sex, and relationships, expect to be captivated by stories that are as enlightening as they are thought-provoking.
My Vicious Love
Claim This Podcastby Draden Cruz
4.5(31 reviews)
24 episodes
Updated Bi-weekly
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Let's shake things up and dive into something completely different. Forget everything you thought you knew and join us on an exciting adventure. We'll explore the twists and turns of emotions, desires, and vulnerabilities that shape our romantic and intimate lives. This journey isn't just about discovering new perspectives; it's about challenging old ones. As we delve into the complexities of love, sex, and relationships, expect to be captivated by stories that are as enlightening as they are thought-provoking.
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Publishing Since
6/18/2023
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Recent Episodes
May 8, 2026
LOVE PURG
<p>This week on My Vicious Love, we step into the in-between. The gray area. The emotional waiting room that happens after heartbreak, trauma, loss, addiction, failed relationships, family wounds, and the moments in life where you’re no longer who you were… but not quite who you’re becoming yet. This episode, Love Purgatory, features my dear friend Ryan Carrillo, someone I’ve shared over a decade of friendship, chaos, growth, healing, and life lessons with.</p><p>Together, Ryan and I unpack what it means to live in emotional limbo — those moments where you’re questioning everything. Do you stay? Do you leave? Do you forgive? Do you start over? Do you keep loving people who hurt you? Do you finally choose yourself? We talk openly about trauma in relationships, trauma within our families, addiction, self-worth, survival, and the complicated process of rebuilding your life while still carrying pieces of your past.</p><p>Ryan speaks candidly about his personal journey with the realities of overcoming destructive cycles, and how fatherhood completely transformed the way he views purpose, accountability, and love. We also dive into his evolution as a professional athlete and entrepreneur — from professional roller skating to building a beautiful life and business for himself out in Joshua Tree. We discuss what it really looks like to pursue growth while still navigating personal dilemmas, emotional baggage, and the pressure of adulthood.</p><p>What makes this episode special is that it doesn’t pretend healing is linear. It’s honest. Sometimes hilarious. Sometimes heavy. Sometimes uncomfortable. There are moments where we laugh until we can’t breathe, and moments where we sit in truths that a lot of people are too afraid to say out loud. But underneath all of it is a conversation about resilience — about learning that the “middle ground” in life is not weakness. Sometimes it’s actually where your greatest strength is built.</p><p>Love Purgatory is for anyone who feels emotionally stuck between chapters. For the people healing while still hurting. For the people trying to become softer without becoming weak. For the people learning that survival and healing are two completely different things.</p><p><br /></p>
April 20, 2026
RELATIONSHIP-ITIS
<p>This week on My Vicious Love, we’re talking about something I like to call Relationship-itis—that messy, in-between space where you want love… but you’re not exactly ready to act like you do. You’re craving connection, intimacy, consistency—all the things that come with a real relationship—but at the same time, you’re still holding onto your freedom, your options, your… chaos. And yeah, we’re gonna say it plainly: you want the relationship, but you’re not ready to stop being outside.</p><p>I’m joined by Amy and Eden, and we really get into it—from every angle. Male perspective, female perspective, gay, straight—no boundaries, no filters. We talk about what it actually feels like to be single right now, the emotional rollercoaster of dating, and that constant push and pull between wanting something real and not wanting to give up your independence. Because let’s be honest, it’s not just about other people—it’s about the battle happening inside you.</p><p>We get into the ugly parts too. The ghosting, the mixed signals, the almost-relationships, the “what are we?” conversations that go nowhere. All of it starts to stack up until you hit that point where you’re just exhausted. You’re like, “I’m done. I don’t want this anymore.” So you lean into being single, you get a little jaded, a little colder… but then that feeling creeps back in. The one that still wants love, still wants partnership, still wants something deeper.</p><p>And that’s really what this episode is about—the gray area. That space where you’re torn between two versions of yourself. The one that wants to be free, and the one that wants to be chosen. The one that’s tired of the game, but still somehow playing it. It’s messy, it’s honest, and it’s probably a little too real. So if you’ve ever felt stuck between “fuck this” and “I want forever,” this one’s for you.</p>
March 25, 2026
The Aftermath: Peace Feels Weird When You’re Used to War
<p>The Aftermath: Peace Feels Weird When You’re Used to War is about what happens when everything finally stops. Not the breakdown, not the conflict—but what comes after it. When the noise dies, the tension disappears, and the people who once filled every emotional corner are no longer there. It’s that moment where life isn’t falling apart anymore… but it also doesn’t feel the way you expected it to.</p><p>This conversation with Eden Bookman grounds that reality. As someone who was present through some of the most defining, chaotic chapters, Eden brings a perspective that isn’t just supportive—it’s honest. Together, this episode reflects on the journey across these past 21 episodes, not to rehash the drama, but to understand what it all meant, what actually changed, and what growth really looks like when it’s no longer loud or performative.</p><p>Because the truth is, the aftermath isn’t dramatic—it’s quiet, and sometimes that quiet feels uncomfortable. Forgiveness happens. Boundaries get solidified. Certain bridges stay burned, others just fade. And what’s left is a version of life that’s more stable, more grounded… but unfamiliar at first. This episode sits in that space—the adjustment, the clarity, and the realization that peace can feel strange when you’ve spent so long learning how to survive chaos.</p>
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