Pandemic Mama

About Pandemic Mama

Formerly "Parenting in Hard Mode," Unmasking Therapy is COMING SOON from journalist-turned-therapist-in-training Irina González. Come meet the version of you that deserved to be valued all along. irinagonzalez.substack.com (https://irinagonzalez.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast)

Publisher

Irina González, MSW Student

Language

en

Explicit

No

First episode

30 Sept 2020

Latest episode

22 May 2024

Latest episodes

29 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   22 May 2024

   How to Be a Unicorn in Suburbia

   Welcome! Parenting in Hard Mode is a community and safe space for BIPOC, LGBTQIA+, neurodivergent, and differently-abled parents who are raising Gen Alpha kids (born 2010-2024) and nurturing social justice-minded families—all while taking care of our mental health. Allies welcome, too. Please subscribe to connect with fellow parents through empathy and compassion. Let’s build our virtual village together. Growing up, I always felt like I was “different” than other kids. I don’t know if it’s because I’m an immigrant (my family came to the U.S. just after my 8th birthday), have a unique background (half Russian, half Cuban), or if even back then I had a subconscious understanding that I’m queer and neurodivergent. Or perhaps it’s just a little bit of childhood trauma due to being parented by a narcissist who early on called me “weird,” the “black sheep of the family,” and often wondered why I couldn’t be “normal.” As a teen, I rebelled against those labels thrown on me by the people who supposedly love me unconditionally (hint: not a possibility for narcissists) by instead embracing my weirdness, the things that made me unique, and constantly saying that normal doesn’t exist. I even came out as bisexual to my family and friends when I was 16 years old in 2002, something that my friends embraced and my parents got angry about and then pretty much ignored. (I wouldn’t know I’m neurodivergent until age 35.) Basically, all the positive things I said about the things that made me “different” fell on deaf ears at home, but I embraced them nonetheless. As soon as I could, I escaped my hometown of southwest Florida to go to college in New York City—and I found my people and myself there. Being different was a strength there, and finding community with other Latinx people, with other queer people, with other different people was easy. It’s where I felt most at home and still do. But life circumstances took me out of the city that I’ll always call home after 12 happy years, and it’s now been eight years since I truly felt like I belonged where I lived. Leaving New York was the right decision but one that still pains me—especially because living in another big city isn’t an option either. For a while, I lived in my suburb-without-an-urban-area-nearby hometown in Florida—where I met and fell in love with my husband and had our child—and now live outside of Denver. Close enough that it’s not difficult to visit but far enough that going to the city needs to be planned out and, well, I kinda need a good reason to do. “I’m stuck in the burbs” is something I’ve often said to my closest friends, most of whom still live in NYC. Or “I’m in suburban hell” when I’m having a particularly frustrating day feeling not quite like myself. My feelings about leaving New York are still complicated and there are still many things I grieve about my life there—many of which involve the diverse communities I was a part of while living there. Whether it was singing karaoke at Marie’s Crisis (https://www.mariescrisiscafe.com/) while spotting Danny Strong (https://www.imdb.com/name/nm0834960/) joining in nearby or attempting to try every single burger at Burger Bash during NYC Wine & Food Festival (https://corporate.nycwineandfoodfestival.com/burger/) back when it was hosted by Bobby Flay or taking the N train through three boroughs to visit Flushing Chinatown and my favorite panaderia in Sunset Park all in one day, there is just something about the city that I haven’t found anywhere else. And as I recently realized in therapy, NYC was probably a spectacular place to live in as someone with undiagnosed Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD). There are a million things I can think of off the top of my head that made my life in my 20s pretty perfect for my ADHD brain—and almost all of those things are not possible in my life today. I don’t regret where my life has taken me or the way my chosen family changed over the years, but I still miss the things that made me feel the most “me” back then. Even more so, I miss living in a place where I felt safe, loved, and understood for all of the things that made me “different.” It’s places like this where belonging feels like a part of the city’s DNA, and it seeps deep into your soul. Even for all of the hardships that come with living in one of the most expensive places in the world (and trust me, there are many), I left my heart in New York City. Parenting in Hard Mode is supported by readers like you. Become a paid subscriber to grow our community and nurture the connections we make in this virtual village. As I'm sure you can imagine, living in the suburbs in my 30s has been a completely different experience. It’s not like it has been a nightmare or anything. But the older I get, the more I realize that the reason life has been just fine for me in the ‘burbs is because I can easily pass. I can pass as straight since I am in a heterosexual relationship (https://irinagonzalez.substack.com/p/bisexual-mom). I can pass as white because I am a very light-skinned Latina. I can pass as neurotypical since I spent my entire life masking without knowing it. But after living so much of my life embracing all of my weirdness, passing as just another stereotypical white working mom living in the suburbs is just plainly killing my soul a little bit. I know that not everyone needs to live their truth, their identities, their life out loud, but I do. I didn't go to school for journalism, work my ass off for the last 18+ years as a storyteller, and leave the city of my heart in order to get (and stay) sober just to end up the black sheep of the family again. Which brings me to this shirt… I found this shirt a couple of weeks ago when I was browsing through funny Mother’s Day gifts (yes, really). Lately, I’ve been discussing in therapy some of these issues related to me being triple marginalized and invisible on all sides, and today I mentioned this shirt to my therapist. “Well, you’ll need to figure out if you want to work on adjusting to your current reality and where you live or if you want to work on integrating more of your unicorn self into your life in the suburbs,” they said. “Oh, I definitely want to be a unicorn in the suburbs,” I replied. I don’t yet know what this’ll mean or how I’ll accomplish it, but one of the reasons that I started Parenting in Hard Mode (https://irinagonzalez.substack.com/) is to connect with fellow parents who live “outside the norm,” those of us who are “different” (aka those of us who come from historically underrepresented communities) as we parent our kids—and especially as we help our kids grow into wonderful little human beings. Personally, I want to raise a little feminist who’s anti-racist, queer-friendly, embraces neurodiversity, and generally is loving, kind, and accepting of the wonderful differences in all of us. To do that, I need to remember to show myself that love, kindness, and acceptance. And to do that, I need to also remember who I am and be proud of these facets of my identity—and for me, I feel the most proud when I can visibly and loudly express who I am. So… I guess I’m ready to be a unicorn in suburbia. That shirt’s (https://amzn.to/4dSZC0g) already on the way. Everyone’s experience of living their identities out loud is different. How do you express yourself and your individuality/uniqueness at home, at work, in your community? I’d love to hear from all of you! Abrazos, Your friendly neighborhood bisexual Latina mom with ADHD raising a Gen Alpha kid Get full access to Parenting in Hard Mode at irinagonzalez.substack.com/subscribe (https://irinagonzalez.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4)

2. 

   16 Mar 2022

   Pandemic Mama, Episode 28: Navigating Postpartum Body Acceptance with Kelly Fitzgerald Junco

   Irina Gonzalez (http://irinagonzalez.com/), journalist, toddler mom, and the host talks with three-time return guest Kelly Fitzgerald Junco (https://www.instagram.com/thesobersenorita/). She is a writer and sobriety advocate. In her previous two episodes, she talked with us about pregnancy anxiety and postpartum grief. This time, she comes on to give us an update about what the past year of the pandemic has been like while living in Florida, the difficulty of finding a daycare that fits her family's safety requirements, and what it's like to work on accepting your postpartum body during a pandemic. Please take the Pandemic Parenting in 2022 survey (https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSf8HQtv5dIFI55EqSPunte70GfW7LQhdibzEl67O_CPbpSuvQ/viewform) to share what's been going on in your life and don't forget to sign up for the Pandemic Mama newsletter (https://msirinagonzalez.substack.com/) for more. Plus, make sure you follow us on Instagram at @pandemicmamapod (https://www.instagram.com/pandemicmamapod/) for updates, join the Pandemic Mama Podcast Facebook group (https://www.facebook.com/groups/pandemicmamapod) to connect with other parents who have had a baby in the past couple of years, and email your questions to pandemicmamapod@gmail.com (mailto:pandemicmamapod@gmail.com). Get full access to Parenting in Hard Mode at irinagonzalez.substack.com/subscribe (https://irinagonzalez.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4)

3. 

   26 Mar 2021

   Pandemic Mama, Episode 27: The Grief of Postpartum in the Pandemic with Kelly Fitzgerald Junco

   Our first return guest! Irina talks with Kelly Fitzgerald Junco (https://www.instagram.com/thesobersenorita/), a writer and blogger behind The Sober Señorita (https://sobersenorita.com/), and a new mom who first appeared in Episode 4 (http://irinagonzalez.com/pandemic-mama-episode-4/) of Pandemic Mama. They talked about her birth story, figuring out breastfeeding, and the many forms of grief she is dealing with today. Plus, how she is getting used to her postpartum body after being an athlete for the past several years. Join the Pandemic Mama Podcast Facebook group (https://www.facebook.com/groups/pandemicmamapod) to connect with other parents having babies in 2020 and 2021, follow us on Instagram at @pandemicmamapod (https://www.instagram.com/pandemicmamapod/) for updates, and email your questions to pandemicmamapod@gmail.com (mailto:pandemicmamapod@gmail.com). Get full access to Parenting in Hard Mode at irinagonzalez.substack.com/subscribe (https://irinagonzalez.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4)

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