Seeking to uplift, strengthen, and encourage as I fight against despair and fear while living with a life altering brain injury. Sharing the innermost part of my heart amidst my journey through faith challenges and physical challenges. My prayer is that my words will reach someone who is also struggling and fighting for faith. I strive for Christ-centered thoughts and inspirations, while sharing personal experiences and lessons learned.
Feel free to visit my blog, "Pondering of A Mother's Heart."
One day before I fell, I wrote a blogpost titled, "Go as Fast as You Should." I now see that this was the Lord's message to me before my world would permanently change. He reminded me to go at His speed instead of my own. I didn't realize just how important that message would be when everything else fell apart. Learning to stay focused on what matters most regardless of my circumstances has been critical to my day to day life--especially through suffering . You can find the text of this podcast on my blog: Simplicity Through Christ. (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/2026/08/simplicity-through-christ.html)
30 Dec 2025
Be Not Afraid, Only Believe
This is not how I anticipated spending Christmas day! But I awoke from a nap with the most PRESSING feeling I had to get this done. My gift to my Savior this year is sharing my imperfect witness of Him. My witness of Him has changed with my trials, and I hope what I share reaches people like me who at times struggle to find hope and faith through enduring suffering. Merry Christmas my friends! You can find the text of this episode on my blog using this link: Be Not Afraid, Only Believe (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/2025/12/be-not-afraid-only-believe.html?)
27 Sept 2025
Compensating Blessings
"I hadn’t heard the phrase, “compensating blessings” until this year while listening to a message given by Bishop Gerald Causse. His words were like salve to a stinging wound in my soul. Never had I heard God’s mercy described in such a way. Bishop Causse explained how “…when circumstances beyond our control prevent us from fulfilling the righteous desire of our hearts, the Lord will compensate in ways that allow us to receive His promised blessings.” He also quoted Elder Maxwell who taught, “God…takes into merciful account not only our desires and performance, but also the degrees of difficulty which our varied circumstances impose upon us.”
The transcript of this episode can be found on my blog (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/). Additionally, here are the links to resources I refer to:
"Compensating Blessings" (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2025/04/44causse?lang=eng) by Bishop Gerald Causse (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2025/04/44causse?lang=eng)
The widow's mite (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/nt/mark/12?lang=eng&id=p42#p42) (Mark 12:41-44)
Lehi's Vision (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/1-ne/8?lang=eng) (1 Nephi 8:21-23)
9 Dec 2024
To Those Who Feel Weak
"To be honest, I’ve often felt ashamed with how weak I feel in this trial (admittedly I still battle with this at times). For years I wondered why I couldn’t be tougher, stronger—like the old Erica. Even when I was doing all I could to turn to God and follow Him, I still felt embarrassingly weak. I didn’t feel as capable as a mother, as a friend, in my church calling, in daily tasks, in my hobbies, in running my home, and in my spiritual well-being. Every part of me felt weak. EVERY PART. And it drove me mad. I couldn’t stand it. I couldn’t stand me."
In this episode, I explore the argument that it is okay to feel weak, because God is strong. The transcript of this episode can be found on my blog (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/). Additionally, here are the links to resources I refer to:
"Abide in Me and I in You; Therefore, Walk with Me" (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2023/04/57bednar?lang=eng)
Original Blog Post about weakness in 2017 (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/2017/09/it-is-okay-to-feel-weak.html) (written 2 months prior to my accident)
Account of Christ visiting the America's (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/3-ne/17?lang=eng) (3 Nephi 17)
20 Jun 2024
When All Darkness Gathers In
Today marks 12 years since my 16-year-old brother Kj passed away. In honor of him, I feel it would be meaningful for me to share via podcast the article I wrote years ago entitled, “When All Darkness Gathers In.” (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/2017/04/when-all-darkness-gathers-in.html) I know it will bless me to have a recorded version of it, and I pray it can also help others who may be facing their own suffering. As I’ve mentioned before, ironically I wrote this blog post only 7 months before I fell down the stairs (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/2023/01/a-crisis-of-faith-my-story.html). In hindsight, I see how the Lord was helping me to prepare for the upcoming darkest moments of my life.
Published Article: LDSLiving
(https://www.ldsliving.com/when-all-darkness-gathers-in/s/85210)
13 May 2024
Finding the Way Forward
There are times in our lives when moving forward feels impossible. Many days I struggle with such feelings--especially since 2017. Thankfully, there are ways for all of us to overcome and rise above.
15 Oct 2023
Grief & Hope
"I often think of myself as house that was hit by a hurricane and then restored. The concussion destroyed portions of the house. The years of rehabilitation were like adding new lumber and materials onto the original design. To all appearances, the restored house is the same, but it is not. It is a composite of the old and new. I look and sound similar to my old self, but I'm really a blend of the old and the new. In the years after my concussion, I did a lot of grieving, and I learned to accept who I am now." -Dr. Diane Roberts Stoler
References:
"Coping with Concussion and Mild Traumatic Brain Injury", Dr. Diane Roberts Stoler and Barbara Albers Hill
"The Refiner's Fire," by James E. Faust (https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/1979/04/the-refiners-fire?lang=eng#p11)
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27 Jun 2023
After my brother died, I was given a message
This is a continuation of my story of lessons learned since I suffered my brain injury.
12 Jan 2023
A Crisis of Faith: My Story
Five years ago, I fell down the stairs, sustaining a brain injury that would change my life forever. This is my story of darkness, faith crisis, and lessons learned. Although I feel vulnerable sharing this, I know God has asked me to share! Also, less than a year before my accident, I started a blog entitled, "Pondering of a Mother's Heart." (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com) The script of this podcast is posted on my blog (https://ponderingofamothersheart.blogspot.com/2023/01/a-crisis-of-faith-my-story.html) for those interested (including references). Thanks!
Feel free to check out my instagram page @ponderingofamothersheart (https://www.instagram.com/ponderingofamothersheart/) for similar content. For those interested, here is the link to my article, "When All Darkness Gathers In." (https://www.ldsliving.com/when-all-darkness-gathers-in/s/85210) Thanks for listening!
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11 Jan 2023
Pondering of a Mother's Heart (Trailer)
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