Still Here: My Lymphoma Story & More is my raw, honest and occasionally inappropriate story about cancer, family, mateship and getting another crack at life.
What began with testicular lymphoma led to CNS lymphoma in my brain, CAR-T therapy and a journey Nikki, the kids and I never imagined.
This isn’t a medical podcast. It’s my story, told as it happened—raw, unfiltered and without too much bullshit. Nikki joins me to piece together what I remember and the parts she remembers more clearly.
Hopefully, it’ll make you laugh, think and maybe help someone.
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Cancer Didn't Stop for our Anniversary - Car T Cell, Stem Cell Begins
Two collections, one massive hospital journey—and one very different wedding anniversary.
I explain the difference between my CAR-T cell collection and the backup stem-cell collection completed on our third anniversary. I also remember four difficult attempts to gain access and Lauren’s beautiful surprise for Nikki and me the following day.
Watch the raw anniversary journal:
[https://youtu.be/8NiXRHZI6YM]
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27 Oct 2026
Watch my raw anniversary hospital journal here:https://youtu.be/UlRm3B4swXE
This episode covers the preparation before my CAR-T infusion.
On 8 July 2025, my T cells were collected and sent overseas to be modified to recognise and attack my lymphoma. Then, on 23 July—our third wedding anniversary—I underwent a completely separate backup stem-cell collection at Townsville University Hospital.
What should have been a special day became a massive hospital shift involving four attempts to gain access, hours connected to the collection machine and an anniversary unlike anything Nikki and I had imagined.
I also share the beautiful gesture Lauren from the oncology team made for us the following day—a surprise anniversary cake that brought us both to tears.
Watch the raw journal I recorded that night:
[https://youtu.be/UlRm3B4swXE]
The next episode begins with my CAR-T infusion on 11 August 2025.
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3 Oct 2026
The Journals #1 – My First Journal | Still Here
These are the recordings I made while I was actually living through it.
During my cancer journey in 2025, I started recording little video journals from hospital.
Some are updates about what was happening to me. Some are messages to Nikki, my kids, my brother, family and mates. Some are serious. Some are funny. Some are completely random.
There are even moments where nurses walk into the room while I'm recording and life just carries on around me.
I wasn't making a podcast. I wasn't creating content. I wasn't thinking about views or followers.
I was simply recording what was happening in my life at that moment.
Watching them back now is strange, because I know what happened next.
The bloke in these videos didn't.
I've decided to start sharing them through Still Here exactly as they happened.
No re-recording. No polishing them up. No trying to make myself sound better.
Some will only be short. Some will be emotional. Some will probably make you laugh. And some may be difficult for me and my family to watch again.
This is The Journals.
Real footage. Real moments. From right in the middle of it.
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Still Here – My Lymphoma Story & More with Brad Lindsay
28 Sept 2026
Cancer in My Brain | CNS Lymphoma: The Fight Was Back On.
Friday, 30 May 2025. Brad wakes in Townsville University Hospital, confused and waiting for Nikki to arrive.
What follows is a week of lumbar punctures, MRI, PET and CT scans as doctors try to confirm whether Brad’s testicular lymphoma has returned in his brain. Dr Birchley discusses the possible treatments, while a neurosurgeon explains that a brain biopsy may be the last resort—and that the risks could be life-threatening.
Before the diagnosis is even confirmed, Brad and Nikki are forced to discuss his will, enduring power of attorney, their children and the possibility that he may not come home.
Nikki fills in the gaps Brad can’t remember as they revisit the moment the diagnosis was confirmed: the lymphoma had returned in his central nervous system.
Mentally, Brad’s fight had already reignited. Now the physical battle—and chemotherapy—was beginning again.
This is our personal experience, not medical advice.
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13 Sept 2026
The Day it all started again: Blackwater to Townsville
After surviving testicular lymphoma, Finding Remission and returning to work, I suffered a seizure behind the wheel and crashed near Blackwater.
My wife Nikki joins me to reconstruct the parts that brain fog erased—from Blackwater Hospital and the transfer to Emerald, to waking up in Townsville University Hospital waiting for Nikki.
We tell the same frightening day from two very different sides: the patient who remembers fragments and the partner taking the calls, trying to understand what was happening and wondering whether I would be okay.
Raw, honest and unfiltered, this is where our second cancer battle begins.
Content note: This episode discusses a seizure, a vehicle accident, cancer and medical trauma.
25 Aug 2026
Through Her Eyes - The Parts I Couldn't remember
For the Season 1 finale, Nikki joins me to share our cancer journey through her eyes. She wasn’t keen to come onto the podcast, knowing how difficult it would be to revisit everything—but she found the courage to sit beside me and tell her side of our story.
What followed was an emotional rollercoaster. There were tears, laughter, painful memories and moments of complete honesty as we revisited the diagnosis, treatment, remission and the pressure it placed on our entire family.
Nikki remembered things differently from me, including moments I had misunderstood or simply couldn’t remember through the fog. Hearing what was really happening around me opened my eyes to everything she carried quietly while I was focused on surviving.
The emotions became overwhelming at times, but nothing was rehearsed and nothing was held back. This is a very raw conversation between a husband and wife who lived through the same experience—but saw it from two completely different sides.
This is not only my story. It is ours.
24 Aug 2026
You’ve Heard My Side… Now Hear Hers
For the Season 1 finale, Nikki joins me to share our cancer journey through her eyes. She wasn’t keen to come onto the podcast, knowing how difficult it would be to revisit everything—but she found the courage to sit beside me and tell her side of our story.
What followed was an emotional rollercoaster. There were tears, laughter, painful memories and moments of complete honesty as we revisited the diagnosis, treatment, remission and the pressure it placed on our entire family.
Nikki remembered things differently from me, including moments I had misunderstood or simply couldn’t remember through the fog. Hearing what was really happening around me opened my eyes to everything she carried quietly while I was focused on surviving.
The emotions became overwhelming at times, but nothing was rehearsed and nothing was held back. This is a very raw conversation between a husband and wife who lived through the same experience—but saw it from two completely different sides.
This is not only my story. It is ours.
18 Aug 2026
The Weekend Away — I Needed to Switch Off.
Something didn’t feel right. I couldn’t really explain it — I just needed to get away and switch off.
We were supposed to be camping with friends, but instead I hooked up the van and headed off alone. One night at Rollingstone, then two nights at Mission Beach — walking the beach, clearing my head and trying to reset.
Nikki, the kids and my mates were worried. Nathan even rang to check on me, but I kept telling everyone the same thing: I’m fine. Don’t stress.
Looking back now, that weekend feels different.
Was I simply exhausted after everything we’d been through? Was my mind playing tricks on me? Or was there something else going on that none of us understood?
At the time, I had no idea what was coming.
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18 Aug 2026
If in Doubt, Get Checked Out | A Message from Brad
This is the message at the heart of Still Here.
If something doesn’t feel right, don’t put it off. Don’t be embarrassed and don’t assume it’ll sort itself out.
I trusted my gut and got checked earlier than planned. That decision changed everything.
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11 Aug 2026
Finding my way back.
Treatment was over. Now came something I hadn’t really prepared for — getting my life back.
In this episode, I talk about returning to work, trying to find some sort of normal again and learning to trust my mind and body after everything they’d been through.
I also reflect on Nikki, the kids, family and mates — the people who were there when I needed them most — and how differently I started looking at life.
Some days were easy. Some definitely weren’t. And, as usual, I may digress a little along the way.
Just when I thought life was finally moving forward, though… something happened that I never saw coming.
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4 Aug 2026
The Words I'd been waiting for.
After months of surgery, chemo, high-dose methotrexate and radiation, treatment was finally behind me. Now came the waiting.
Waiting for the scans. Waiting for the results. Waiting to find out whether everything we’d been through had actually worked.
In this episode, I talk about that strange period between finishing treatment and getting the answer Nikki, the kids and I desperately wanted to hear.
When those words finally came, you’d think I’d simply be jumping for joy. But my reaction wasn’t quite what I expected.
Relief, uncertainty, gratitude and the thought that maybe — just maybe — we could finally start living normally again.
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28 Jul 2026
The Final Step — 3 Weeks of Radiation
After surgery, chemo and high-dose methotrexate, there was one final hurdle — three weeks of radiation.
In this episode, I talk about what radiation was actually like, the daily routine, the incredible people looking after me and what was going through my head as I finally approached the end of treatment.
There’s also a bit of golf thrown into the mix — although that didn’t quite go physically or mentally the way I expected.
After months of hospitals and treatment, I could finally see the finish line.
Was normal life waiting for me on the other side?
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21 Jul 2026
The Treatment i never understood.
Eight rounds of chemo were behind me, but treatment wasn’t finished yet.
Next came Townsville and two rounds of high-dose methotrexate — something I’d never heard of and, if I’m being fair, didn’t completely understand.
In this episode, I talk about the long days in hospital, the constant IV fluids, dragging the bloody trolley everywhere I went, the endless toilet trips and waiting for my levels to finally come down so I could go home.
The second round was different, though. I was discharged earlier than I’d expected, and it’s something I’ve questioned since.
At the time, I didn’t know what the future held. Looking back now, it’s a part of my story that leaves me with questions.
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15 Jul 2026
Poison & Hope
Surgery was behind me. Now it was time for chemo.
In this episode, I talk about recovering from the operation, meeting my oncology team and finding out what the next stage of this journey was going to look like.
Then came the first chemo day — walking into the ward, sitting in that chair with Nikki beside me and watching the drugs start flowing.
You’re basically putting poison into your body and hoping like hell it’s doing exactly what it’s there to do. Poison and hope.
I didn’t really know how my body was going to react or what the weeks ahead would bring. I just knew we had to get on with it.
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8 Jul 2026
No More Waiting
After getting the diagnosis, it was time to tell the kids exactly what we were dealing with and head to Mackay for surgery.
In this episode, I talk about Nikki being beside me, having our good friend Sharon there at the hospital, the laughs and nerves before surgery, and the strange reality of waking up one testicle lighter.
There’s fear, emotion and even a bit of humour in a situation I never imagined I’d find myself in.
Surgery was done. Next up — chemotherapy.
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29 Jun 2026
The Gut Feeling That Changed Everything
It started with a gut feeling that something wasn’t quite right.
I had an appointment on the 2nd February booked for the 28th of February, but Nikki and I decided we weren’t going to sit around and wait. We took matters into our own hands and got it checked earlier.
What followed over the next 26 days changed my life completely.
In this episode, I talk about trusting your instincts, the tests and scans that followed, and how quickly life can change when you least expect it.
26 . Remember that number.
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1 Jun 2026
Who am I and why am I doing this?
Before I tell you what happened, you probably need to know who the hell I am.
In this first episode of Still Here, I introduce myself, where I’ve come from, what life looked like before everything changed, and why I’ve decided to sit down, hit record and tell this story.
No scripts, no polished production and no pretending I’ve got all the answers. Just me telling it as I remember it — the good, the bad and probably a bit of bullshit along the way.
This is where Still Here begins.
I’m Brad Lindsay — and I’m Still Here.
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