Two longtime friends. One black, one white. One learning to love himself, the other learning to stop hating himself. Honest, unfiltered conversations about identity, mental health, relationships, and the messy middle of trying to grow up without losing who you are. Vulnerable, sometimes funny, sometimes heavy - always real.
Are we really in control of our lives, or are we just eight and a half billion people making decisions and stumbling through each other's stories?
Bad luck, our choices, other's choices, unintended consequences, and the illusion that each of us is the main character of everything that is happening.
From car accidents and missed opportunities to traffic jams, parenting, and a simple piece of furniture, I explore how our choices affect other people, how their choices affect us, and why even the best intentions don't guarantee good outcomes.
No grand revelations. No promises that everything happens for a reason. Just one guy trying to make sense of how interconnected we really are.
Don't yell so much. Shit happens.
28 Sept 2026
Waking Up From the Wrong Dream
What did you want to be when you grew up? What life did you imagine? And it turned out exactly like that right?
What did you think being a grown up would feel like? Money, trips, fast cars, and big houses? How about lonely? Anxious? Stressful? Hell, even scary as times?
Does the dream of a 7- or 18-year-old still hold weight over the life of a 41-year-old man? Ehhh, maybe more than I realized... Maybe the problem isn't that I'm not living the dream I thought of as a child, maybe the problem is I'm still asleep.
Instead of forcing my life into the blueprint a kid made, it's time for Allan to live the life that is right in front of him.
So, wake up and join me as we navigate little Allan's dream life 35 years later.
14 Sept 2026
Pity Party for One
I ain't afraid of no ghost.
Pity Party for One is about being sad without running from it or building a home inside it. I talk about my tendency to move on to quickly through distractions like booze and sex or hang around too long and make phantoms to haunt me.
Maybe the answer isn't "move on" but sometimes it's just to feel some shit for a while and miss what you miss and keep moving anyway. Shit can suck and still be ok.
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