About Sunflowers: Grow through what you Go through
Sunflowers: Grow Through What You Go Through is a heartfelt, honest journey through the trauma I faced in childhood and carried into adulthood. Each episode opens a window into the experiences that shaped me, the challenges I had to confront, and the moments that pushed me toward healing. By sharing my story, I hope to show that growth is possible even in the darkest seasons. This podcast explores the tools, support, and inner strength that helped me through my hardest times, offering encouragement to anyone navigating their own path toward healing.
In this bridge episode between Season One and Season Two, I reflect on what it means to grow through major life changes while learning how to stay grounded in the middle of them. From divorce, single parenting, going no contact, moving into my first home, and choosing myself again and again, this episode explores the quiet strength that comes from healing.
We talk about nervous system regulation, the fog lifting, and the clarity that comes when you are no longer living only from old trauma responses. Healing makes room for grounding, and grounding makes room for better thinking, deeper self-trust, and the confidence to know that you are capable of handling what is in front of you.
As Season One closes, we honor the roots we have grown. And as Season Two begins, we start looking at the gloves we wear: the roles, armor, protections, and survival patterns we picked up along the way.
This episode is an invitation to pause, reflect, and recognize the ways you have already succeeded — even in the moments no one else saw.
25 May 2026
Every ending has a beginning
🌻 Season Finale: Sunflowers Grow Through What We Go Through
This episode is a soft landing — a reflection, a threshold, a moment to honor everything this season held. A season about roots, weather, becoming, and the quiet work that happens underground long before anything blooms.
This space has always been for honesty, for metaphor, for the slow and sacred work of becoming. As the episode says, “Sometimes survival is the seed. Sometimes endurance is the root.”
We looked back at what grew, what hurt, what healed, and what kept reaching even in the dark. We named the grief, the resilience, the surrender, the hope with dirt under its nails. We honored the parts of us that stayed alive when life felt cold.
And now, we turn toward what’s next.
Toward the new season — The Gloves We Wear — a deeper exploration of the protections we learned, the roles we carried, the armor that once kept us safe and may now be keeping us from touch.
As the episode reminds us, “You are allowed to outgrow what once kept you alive.”
Thank you for walking this field with me.
For listening with your whole self.
For honoring not just the bloom, but the buried parts too.
Here’s to what’s still alive in you.
Here’s to what’s still reaching.
Here’s to the next beginning. 🌻✨
18 May 2026
It's not a crisis, it's a tower falling
Sometimes what looks like a midlife crisis is actually a tower moment — a season where something in your life falls apart, but really it’s falling away because it can’t come with you anymore.
These moments are not just about the breaking.
They’re about the grief that comes with it.
Grief for who you used to be.
Grief for who you hoped they were.
Grief for the life you thought you were building.
But there is something else there too: proof.
Not loud fireworks.
Quiet proof.
Stillness.
Safety.
Color coming back.
Laughter returning.
The quiet knowing that you made the right choice.
Sometimes choosing yourself feels like loss before it feels like freedom.
But that doesn’t make it wrong.
It might just mean you’re finally becoming.
What in your life is falling apart… and what if it’s actually falling away?
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11 May 2026
Mother’s Day, My Shifting Perspective.
Mother’s Day can be beautiful—and it can also be complicated. For many, it isn’t a celebration at all: it can bring grief, estrangement, infertility or loss, and the ache of a mother relationship that was never safe. If this season feels tender for you, I just want to say: I see you, and you’re allowed to protect your peace.
In my newest Sunflowers episode, I share how my relationship with Mother’s Day has shifted in phases: from obligation and duty, to becoming a mom and building the warmth and symbolism I didn’t grow up with, to the season I’m in now—wanting to be celebrated and fully seen, not only as a mother, but as a woman who has done brave, legacy-changing work. It’s a reminder that gratitude and grief can live in the same hand.
If you’re not sure what to say today, try something gentler than “Happy Mother’s Day”: “I’m thinking of you,” “I’m holding space for you,” or “I hope today is gentle.” And if you’re a mom who’s doing the work—showing up, repairing, breaking cycles—please name three brave things you’ve done this year and let them count. If this resonates, I’d love to hear: what’s one small way you’re honoring your truth this week?
4 May 2026
No One Is Coming—Until You Do
Some of us don’t need another “just be positive” pep talk—we need a way out of the cycle.
In this episode, I talk about the moment I realized I was the one I was waiting for—and how self-rescue is built in tiny proofs: boundaries, mental space, and keeping small commitments to yourself. I share how trauma can wire us to catastrophize, turn one mistake into a verdict, and self-sabotage when we feel like we’re the only one we have—plus what changed when I let a safe friend in and we problem-solved together.
We also unpack the “waiting” pattern:
waiting to be saved
waiting to be seen
waiting for clarity from people who don’t want to change
waiting for permission to rest, say no, and take up space
waiting for the moment you can finally breathe
And I leave you with practical tools you can actually use this week: a rescue ladder, loop-breaker questions, and 5 ways to stop waiting and start moving.
If you’re ready to stop loving potential and start choosing yourself—this one’s for you.
27 Apr 2026
My silent wins
Some victories are private on purpose. In this raw, memoir-based episode, I talk about what it means to celebrate wins in silence when you’ve lived in dynamics where every good choice was either taken from you—or you were shamed, blamed, and made to feel like you weren’t enough, then reminded to “be responsible” even in the middle of your joy.
I also share how this shows up around birthdays—when a day that should feel simple and personal ends up feeling complicated, unsupported, or like something you have to manage on your own just to feel special.
This episode is for anyone learning that privacy can be a boundary, peace can be a win, and your first witness can be you.
Listen if you’re healing and protecting what’s tender while it’s still growing.
20 Apr 2026
Triggers, and the Body That Remembers
In Triggers, and the Body That Remembers, we unpack what triggers really are: your nervous system sounding the alarm, even when you’re safe now. We talk about how trauma shows up in the body, the core trigger themes (abandonment, being overridden, emotional invalidation), and how those patterns can shape adult relationships and parenting. You’ll also hear the tools that helped me grow through it—boundaries, perspective shifts, regulation, and the “sunflower practice” of acknowledging the shadow and turning back toward the light. Healing isn’t perfection—it’s peace.
13 Apr 2026
What about me?
For most of my life, I was taught that my needs came last.
This episode explores the moment I finally asked, “What about me?”—and what happened when no one had an answer. Choosing myself wasn’t selfish; it was survival. Like a sunflower, I stopped growing toward approval and started growing toward the light. 🌻
6 Apr 2026
You’re so controlling
Dedication or control?
I’ve been called “controlling.” The translation? “I can’t manipulate you anymore.”
With CPTSD, you learn to read between the lines. And when you’ve been controlled for a long time, healthy boundaries get labeled as “mean,” “controlling,” or “no fun.”
Right now, my dedication looks like structure I can control: the gym, eating right, and taking my health seriously—because I’m a parent and my kids deserve a stable, present version of me.
I wasn’t taught how to care for my body growing up. My health wasn’t taken seriously. So now that’s a boundary. A discipline. A standard.
I’m also unlearning a soul-deep urge to please people—one that came from abuse—and raising my standards back to something simple: I’m human, and basic decency isn’t complicated.
Question for you: Where in your life is “discipline” actually you protecting yourself?
30 Mar 2026
Being Family is a Team Sport
This episode is about redefining family.
About leaving systems that demand silence and building something better in their place.
I talk about family as a team—where belonging comes before obedience, mistakes become information, and difference is the strength.
It’s about growing, learning, and building something new together—and how that’s what truly brings families closer.
23 Mar 2026
My Female Voice
This episode explores how early beliefs about femininity shape girls long before they have language to question them—and how many women learn to survive inside definitions of womanhood that were never built to include them.
It’s a reflection on voice, truth‑speaking, and why the feminine has so often been silenced—not because it’s dangerous, but because it’s accurate.
This isn’t about becoming a woman.
It’s about remembering we always were—and reclaiming womanhood on our own terms.
16 Mar 2026
The Cost of Being the One Who Sees
Being the one who sees comes with a cost.
In this episode, I talk about moving from why did this happen to who am I becoming—and how truth, boundaries, and grief shape a life that no longer requires self‑betrayal.
A reflection on clarity, loneliness, healing, and learning to use fire to illuminate instead of burn.
9 Mar 2026
How I do it.
In this episode, I share the real story behind my strength—how layers of childhood trauma shaped my hyper‑responsibility, vigilance, and fierce independence. I talk about how “help” with conditions taught me to rely on myself, and how I’ve transformed those survival skills into my superpower. This is the truth behind how I move through the world, and the healing it took to get here.
2 Mar 2026
The memories we don't remember
I unpack the invisible roles we inherit before birth and the weight of growing up without loving memories reflected back to me. I share what it was like to be raised in generational trauma, never hearing warm or affectionate stories about my childhood unless I asked—and how that silence shaped my sense of self. Through motherhood, I’m beginning to understand the memories my body kept, the cycles I refuse to pass on, and the healing that comes from creating the love I never received. This episode explores inner‑child healing, breaking generational patterns, and reclaiming innocence for ourselves and the children growing up now.
23 Feb 2026
The Calling
A reflection on the global grief so many of us are carrying, this episode explores how truth breaks us open, how love becomes the antidote to harm, and how reclaiming our individual power helps us come together as one human family.
16 Feb 2026
Freedom and Inner Child Healing
A conversation about inner‑child healing and self‑liberation, this episode invites you to honor your story, trust your voice, and embrace the freedom that comes from showing up as your full, authentic self.
9 Feb 2026
Your Testimony
A reflection on how your voice can transform your life, this episode dives into the freedom that comes from telling your truth and letting go of limiting beliefs, reminding listeners that every story carries value and every honest word creates connection.
2 Feb 2026
Grow through what you Go through
In this episode I'll talk a little about who I am and my background. I'll touch upon some of the things that have helped me recover and heal from my own childhood trauma. I'll talk about my family dynamics and how that has affected me as a person. How growing up with a narcissistic mother has also affected me as a person as how healing from that looks.
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