- 14
- Episodes
- 2026
- First episode
About Sunny Haas is Gigantic
Join host Sunny Haas on a journey of radical authenticity and transparency, as she weaves the story of being adopted before birth, diagnosed at age 5 with Autism, ADHD at age 6 and was told she would likely never amount to more than an unproductive vegetable or a genius. In this podcast she will weave the true tales of surviving and succeeding by navigating multiple concurrent false realities, completing two highly ambitious bucket lists before reaching age 50, all while nearly everyone in her life insisted that following her dreams was an impossible feat. Artist, performer, chef, interior designer and more, Sunny shares it all with empathy, compassion and hope that her story will benefit others.
- Publisher
- Seraphina “Sunny” Haas
- Category
- society & culture
- Language
- en
- Explicit
- No
- First episode
- 23 Apr 2026
- Latest episode
- 3 Aug 2026
Latest episodes
14 episodes in the feed.
3 Aug 2026
Episode 14 : Punch A Higher Floor
*Explicit warning is for salty language. Some mention of self harm is mentioned but not extensively or in any great detail.* We made it listener! Episode 14 and the season finale has finally arrived and Sunny’s digging in deep on her Sophomore year of high school. Still devoted to the marching band she committed her attention and loyalty to, our host stumbles across the modern day version of village wise women and begins fighting her way to being her most authentic self… an unmasked neurodivergent. Join Sunny on this special extended episode, where she introduces you to the women who were stand-in sister, maternal surrogate, valiant adviser and best friend and how each of them offered her paths to explore which brought expansion, growth, excitement and eventual independence. Don’t forget to subscribe so you don’t miss any bonus episodes posted between now and the season two premiere on October 31st (or thereabouts 🥴). Audio Clips are of these TikTok creators: NeuroSpicyWitchyGroomer (https://www.tiktok.com/@neurospicywitchygroomer?_r=1&_t=ZP-98arzA93OBT) (of pets, not people) Serenity Wolf via Toren_Wolf (https://www.tiktok.com/@toren_wolf?_r=1&_t=ZP-98asDsBwBIt) Neurobelonging (https://www.tiktok.com/@neurobelonging?_r=1&_t=ZP-98asH9U9KCl) (aka Pasha Marlowe MFT) DexterFrankentein (https://www.tiktok.com/@dexterfrankenstein?_r=1&_t=ZP-98asOTfTUdi) Better_Sol (https://www.tiktok.com/@better_sol?_r=1&_t=ZP-98asTpqNOQA)( Aka Professor Sol Smith - *note he does not have a PhD in neuroscience or psychology but is considered an effective life coach in this professional capacity as a community leader for neurodivergents lacking robust knowledge in the psychological field for these individuals to seek affirming care) …………………………………………….. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. EMAIL me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@GMAIL.COM @spillitwithsunny on TikTok (https://www.tiktok.com/@spill_it_with_sunny?_r=1&_t=ZP-98Zz1TFVn9L) More links coming soon! Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 MORE INFORMATION ON NEURODIVERSITY ADHD_LOVE on TikTok (https://www.tiktok.com/@adhd_love?_r=1&_t=ZP-98ZyoqPoRuY) ADHD_LOVE on YouTube (https://youtube.com/@adhd_love?si=B4_nEICUEuhOvMfO) Professor Sol on TikTok (https://www.tiktok.com/@better_sol?_r=1&_t=ZP-98ZyygzZKM3)
29 Jul 2026
Episode 13 : This One Time at Band Camp
*Explicit for salty language* It’s Freshman year of high school and Blanche has pushed Sunny into certain academic failure by demanding she take Algebra when our host barely scraped thru remedial middle school math. One of them knew Sunny had mild dyscalculia and it wasn’t Sunny, but the job was to make her adoptive mother look like she was an amazing parent and failure was not an option. Luckily joining the tiny marching band of her new high school was exactly the stroke of good fortune our host needed, and in more ways than she ever could have imagined. As she desperately trues to keep up with social expectations the neurodivergence adds layers of isolation and anxiety beyond what her system could bear. Soon, ableism will begin exacting its hefty toll on her body. But for now… she marched in step with an incredible, intrepid but tiny crew of band geeks, theater kids and smoking section lurkers. Quick clarification: I make a comment about all Autistics having had the exact same experience of feeling like living in an alternate universe, then go on to say our experiences are not the same. I left out an important nuance. Each of our experiences are shockingly similar but never exactly the same. Some of us had support and resources that shaped a more solid sense of security in a neuro-normative, hierarchically structured social order. …………………………………………….. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. EMAIL me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@GMAIL.COM @spillitwithsunny on TikTok More links coming soon! Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988
20 Jul 2026
Episode 12 : Mama Told Me Not To Come
* marked EXPLICIT for salty language * In the continuing struggle to find a more palatable social mask, Sunny finds herself baffled at the growing tensions of her fellow tweens in middle school. Between the lines of all the typical pressures of growing up, the marginalized Gen Xers start fighting back… and also with each other. Danger mounts from more adventurous friends pushing our host ever harder into an premature rebellion and potentially harmful social situations, all while sexual energy begins impose it’s presence amongst her peers at the same time the all-consuming pressure to be normal and couple up swells to a fever pitch. “Open up the window, let some air into this room I think I'm almost chokin' from the smell of stale perfume And that cigarette you're smokin’ ‘bout scare me half to death Open up the window, sucker, let me catch my breath Mama told me not to come Mama told me not to come That ain't the way to have fun…” Mama Told Me Not To Come ~ Three Dog Night Emotionally Free: Letting Go of the Past to Live in the Moment by Dr. David Viscott (https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1228315.Emotionally_Free) …………… Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 EMAIL me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@GMAIL.COM
12 Jul 2026
Episode 11 : For Those About to Rock
In this installment we find Sunny scaling the exponentially rocky terrain of a post-legal-separation household ran with an iron fist by a narcissistic sociopath matriarch, while a checked out chain-smoking grandmother who hated her treated her the way people do when forced to share space with an animal they find repugnant, all while narrowly escaping regular beatings by an angry adoptive brother who wrestling with his own hormones, demons and insecurities over feeling abandoned and being under-parented. How did she pivot this time? Tune in to find out, listener, because in episode 11 we’re just getting started with telling the story of one of the most powerful women in your host’s life. QUICK CORRECTION: this episode was published on July 12, not June of 2026. Time is… slippery. 🤣 *This episode has been marked explicit for occasional salty language. A People’s History of the United States: 1492 - Present by Howard Zinn (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/2767.A_People_s_History_of_the_United_States) Even if you don’t read the whole book, the first chapters, alone, should get the point across that we’ve been sold a lot of far fetched, sugary lies. Propaganda by Edward L. Bernays (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/493212.Propaganda)My current reading Horace Mann's Troubling Legacy: The Education of Democratic Citizens by Bob Pepperman Taylor (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8371481-horace-mann-s-troubling-legacy) - If you were educated in America, a good start in understanding our education system. ………………………. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 EMAIL me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@GMAIL.COM
7 Jul 2026
Episode 10 : Hopelessly Devoted
In Episode ten, we rejoin Sunny as she’s passed through the gauntlet of Elementary School and is preparing herself Junior High (Middle School) and young adulthood. New friendships are forming and old ones are seeing signs of wear, but your host has a plan to level up with the new kids her classmates and she will integrate with from other feeder schools in the area. Somewhere among them is a test of her mettle, an inspiration, and a life-long beloved spirit sister. Join your host as she weaves you away from the gritty playground of sixth grade and a disgruntled, nose-flicking teacher into a world that forever changed the trajectory of the woman she was choosing to shape herself into being. *This episode has been marked explicit for occasional salty language. ………………………. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988
29 Jun 2026
Episode Nine : That’s Interesting?
In this episode, host Sunny discovers there’s a fine line between lies and education, lies and entertainment and that some folks aren’t even aware that they’re lying. Delving deeper into questions around why her experience differed so wildly from her peers, she decides that if being a sad sack is so repugnant, then becoming an interesting person was the focus for the foreseeable future. *This episode has been marked explicit for occasional salty language. ………………………. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 All music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
20 Jun 2026
Episode Eight : Ten Years of the Bastard
**ATTENTION: possible triggers included in this episode include thoughts of self harm, child abuse, sexual assault and child endangerment. Listen responsibly. Adult language is also used. Join Sunny for part two of her tumultuous tenth year, as she tries to escape the unending upheaval of a chaotic home life with a sociopathic narcissist mother a ghost of a father and a brother who longs to be an only child again. In this episode Seraphina talks about discovering, at last, why she felt so foreign to the people who gaslit her for a decade into accepting that she was the blood relative of a disperate family and learns more uncomfortable truths that will add yet another layer of social marginalization and illegitimacy, continues to be malnourished, overworked and punished for being *other*, all while being expected to perform at peak performance to ensure her place in the family home. Soon, the fight for sovereignty well and truly begins… ………………………. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 All music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com ⭐️A quick note from the host⭐️ Dearest Listener, It is constantly in my thoughts that I am exposing you to a lot of heavy content this season. Know that things do start to take a slight upswing in the next few episodes as a new school, with new people and more deeply dangerous Gen X adventures are afoot. It was mostly awful until I was able to leave my adoptive home, but it wasn’t *all* awful and I am now safe from the pain of carrying this story in my body and my spirit. That is the joyful power of doing the work to heal one’s trauma and talking about it is how I’ve healed most. I know it’s isn’t what our culture has taught us, and has instead chosen to fill us with fear and dread at the idea of being vulnerable with another, but if you cannot afford professional counseling, please contact me to discuss to alternative options to get you on your way if you have a back log of struggles on up to CPTSD, and I’ll do my best to point you in some possible directions of healing. For those of my listeners who grew up with me during the periods I’m discussing. I’m aware that I might be getting timing a little off. Believe me, though, I’m grateful that these stories aren’t as fresh as they’ve been for many decades. That’s the downside to healing trauma when you’re afraid to write things down (with good reason in my case). But know that I have done and will continue to do my best to reflect you in the most loving and truthful light and I’m here if you want to talk about any of it. Thank you 🙏🏻 so very much for holding this space. It gets a bit easier from here and I look forward to bringing all of this into the present with you. I love you. I mean it. Seraphina “Sunny” Haas June 20, 2026
10 Jun 2026
Episode Seven : Tripping
**ATTENTION: possible triggers included in this episode include thoughts of self harm, child abuse, sexual assault and child endangerment. Listen responsibly. In this installment of Sunny’s origin story, we follow her through navigating the Girl Scouts’ answer to “Far Camp” and how neurodivergents may react to being separated from their caregivers even when they aren’t safe or kind. She’ll also set the stage for how she cemented her place as a social pariah, continued with weigh struggles and added new layers of home instability to an already heavy load on her not-yet-ten-year-old body and spirit. Join your host for part one of her fifth grade year, as she delves into the treacherous waters of burgeoning hormones, school yard bullies and puzzling physical problems that all had answers she still struggles to have validated by the medical community. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 Intro music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
31 May 2026
Episode Six : Disordered
**TRIGGER WARNING** This episode contains depiction of developing an eating disorder, child neglect / abuse and an admission of a love of Disco (truly, some people in my life are apt to become quite apoplectic when it comes to the lifestyle choice of embracing Disco 🤷🏼). A little over halfway through the linear storytelling season of Sunny Haas is Gigantic, Seraphina weaves through her early competition failures, shares some of the astonishing comedic talents who further shaped her character (in multiple senses of the word), and opens up about why and how she began an eating disorder at 8 years old. Listen as she sets the stage for one of the most impactful, and terrible years of her young life which threw her so far off her true path, it would take nearly two decades to get back on track. If you or someone you love may be suffering from an eating disorder, suspect you or someone you care for may be a victim of abuse, or are considering suicidal thoughts, please contact one of the following resources to guide you to help and / or safety. PLEASE… Stay with us, friend. You are wanted and you are loved. ~ S Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline / Immediate Eating Disorder Assistance: 988 To find a mental health provider that may be right for your specific needs: GrowTherapy.com (https://growtherapy.com/) Contact Seraphina at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@GMAIL.COM
23 May 2026
Episode Five : A New Hope
*TRIGGER WARNING : Explicit for adult language, mention of suicidal ideation and various abuses of an adopted child with Autism and ADHD.* What did Sunny do to give herself a fresh lease on hope and decided, at age 7, that she was going to stick it out and do her damnedest to survive long enough to escape a highly volatile, dangerously abusive home life with her adoptive family who keeps trying to re-home or abandon her like she’s a damaged blender? She embraced her creativity and persevered thanks to a boost from some of the most powerful, paradigm shifting franchises the propaganda machine has produced in the last half of a century. While her privacy and personal space continued to shrink into next to nothing, her young mind was expanding into a vast universe where anything was possible… even a feisty girl and her intrepid droid saving the universe. Join Seraphina (“Sunny”) as she takes you through more of her childhood adventures and offers a few tiny spoilers as to how unsuccessful her adoptive mom and brother were at destroying her will to go on. ##Quick correction, my first talent show entry was in 1977 (3rd grade) and the second was in 1978 (4th grade). ## Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 Intro music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
16 May 2026
Episode Four : But My Panties!
In this Episode, Sunny delves further into the challenges of navigating a treacherous home life, sketchy vacations and the pitfalls of panty purchases in 1975 San Jose, California. A tiny taste of Gen X insight tucked into the continuing tale of being a pre-birth adoptee who was being lied to by everyone but her new best friend, about her origin, her learning disabilities and the health issues that often go hand in hand with Autism (verbiage not used at the time) and ADHD diagnoses. Join our host as she weaves the true, cautionary tale of what happened to just one unplanned child and how hard she had to claw her way out of danger while being systemically hobbled in the process. Listen responsibly. Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved. Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 Intro music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
9 May 2026
Episode Three : How Did This Happen?!
*Explicit rating is for curse words only* If you’ve not listened to episodes one and two, best to start there as we are in serial mode while she establishes her bonafides of why her, why now and just how gigantic? In this week’s episode, Sunny details even more of the tools she formed in order to navigate the tricky terrain of her earliest foundational years and how she cultivated her creativity while holding ground with a narcissist sociopath adoptive mother. She then asks us to consider how impactful our presence is on the people we interact with and the importance of reconnecting with the version of ourselves we left behind (and, in some cases, utterly betrayed) in service to an uncaring system which lured so many of us from our rightful place in the world. Intro music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
3 May 2026
Episode Two : Diverging
**ATTENTION: please be sure to listen to the trigger warning in the beginning of this episode all the way through. While I have turned on the explicit content warning for the public, it’s not the language but some of the graphic elements of this episode that may be a concern . Death, sexual assault, child abuses are some of the themes you will encounter. I have deliberately formulated the way I’m speaking about these topics that in effort to mitigate as many triggering elements as I possibly can, but there are some graphic details that you may find too disturbing to endure. If you wish to hear the rest of the episode while avoiding the graphic aspects please skip starting at the 35:38 mark and come on back at 38:45. Please use your best discretion and discernment when engaging with this episode. If you or someone you know may be experiencing abuses, please seek out qualified professionals to aid you. Here are a few: Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673 Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988 The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma (https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/the-body-keeps-the-score-brain-mind-and-body-in-the-healing-of-trauma_bessel-a-van-der-kolk/8899394/?resultid=b5262ac2-8cb0-4734-a96e-5a963cb41eb1#edition=8946322&idiq=10395899%20) Childhood Disrupted: How Your Biography Becomes Your Biology, and How You Can Heal (https://www.thriftbooks.com/browse/?b.search=Childhood%20Disrupted%3A%20How%20Your%20Biography%20Becomes%20Your%20Biology%2C%20and%20How%20You%20Can%20Heal#b.s=mostPopular-desc&b.p=1&b.pp=50&b.oos) The Myth of Normal: Trauma, Illness, and Healing in a Toxic Culture (https://www.thriftbooks.com/browse/?b.search=The%20Myth%20of%20Normal%3A%20Trauma%2C%20Illness%2C%20and%20Healing%20in%20a%20Toxic%20Culture#b.s=mostPopular-desc&b.p=1&b.pp=50&b.oos) Unmasking Autism: Discovering the New Faces of Neurodiversity (https://www.thriftbooks.com/browse/?b.search=Unmasking%20Autism%3A%20Discovering%20the%20New%20Faces%20of%20Neurodiversity#b.s=mostPopular-desc&b.p=1&b.pp=50&b.oos) Respectfully and lovingly, Sunny In this installment of Sunny’s Gigantic journey, we delve into the most formative time of a human life… the first five years. As was the case for a good many Gen X babies, those years were marked by a cacophony of “fly by the seat of your pants” / narcissistic parenting, disturbing lack of supervision or engagement and of course… it wouldn’t be a Gen X childhood without hose water. But for Sunny, she had to navigate the additional crises of surviving horrific events all while being gaslit about her adoption and birth origin, lied to about her connection to the strange people she was forced to serve and to call “family” and find hope in the incredible good fortune she had meeting some of the most powerful, loving and inspiring influences on the incredible woman she is today. Please… Listen responsibly. Intro music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
23 Apr 2026
Episode One : Introduction
Join Seraphina Haas as she introduces her podcast where she discusses her experiences growing up a Gen X, neurodivergent woman who didn’t know she was living with strangers for the first decade of her life in the 1970s to 2001 eras of Northern California. Here she dips her toe into the story of how she navigated living several realities that were not hers, while unaware that her neurological processing was only a fraction of the resistance to achieving hard-earned success. With radical authenticity and an empathic approach to herself and all the players of her life, “Sunny” knows it’s time to tell this story because she lived a life knowing it was her role on Earth to tell it. She’s hoping to bridge knowledge, dispel stereotypes, break trauma cycles and foster a community that embraces the value that everyone who wants to live a peaceful life of community, connection and accomplishments should be free to do exactly that. Intro music by MarvelousMadamMegenta Books referenced: The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk M.D. (Whose name I think I botched rather badly😥) The Myth of Normal by Gabor Maté and Daniel Maté (https://amzn.to/3OoPPYd) Contact me at SERAPHINAUNSCRIPTED@gmail.com
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