Testimony Through Tears (Grieving Christian Mothers)

About Testimony Through Tears (Grieving Christian Mothers)

This podcast is for Christian moms who are grieving the loss of a child to suicide. It’s a space created from lived experience, deep sorrow, and a faith that has been tested—and held—by God. Here, we don’t rush grief, we don’t pretend away the pain, and we don’t offer easy answers. We bring our tears honestly before God and learn, slowly and gently, how this loss becomes part of our testimony—not the end of it. Each episode is here to meet you where you are. You don’t have to listen in order. From one mom who has walked this road to another—let’s lean on God together.

Publisher

Janet Miller

Category

religion & spirituality

Language

en

Explicit

No

First episode

18 Jan 2026

Latest episode

3 Oct 2026

Latest episodes

24 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   3 Oct 2026

   Is it okay to be angry at God?

   After losing a child to suicide, many Christian moms feel something they're afraid to say out loud: anger at God. In this episode, Janet talks honestly about why that anger shows up, what Scripture actually says about it — from David's raw psalms to Jesus weeping with Martha — and how to bring it to God instead of carrying it alone. "Pour out your heart before him" (Psalm 62:8, ESV). You are not a bad Christian, and you are not alone.

2. 

   15 Jul 2026

   When the Accuser gets loud

   This episode is different. Today, I'm not teaching from the mountaintop. I'm inviting you into one of the darkest valleys I've walked through since Samantha left us. In this honest and raw conversation, I share how Satan has been accusing me with lies like, "You couldn't even keep your daughter alive," "Nobody needs you anymore," and "Your purpose is over." I talk about the loneliness that followed, the weight of carrying the grief of so many moms, missing this year's Costa Rica mission trip, and the simple truth God used through my Sunday school teacher, Jordan, to remind me that my purpose has never been found in being a perfect wife, mom, or ministry leader. We were created to worship. If you've been struggling with guilt, loneliness, spiritual warfare, or wondering if your life still has purpose after the loss of your child, I pray this episode reminds you that the accuser does not get the final word. You are not alone. ⚠️ Sensitive Topic Notice This episode contains an honest discussion about depression, loneliness, and not wanting to be alive. My prayer is that this conversation helps remove shame and reminds you that even strong Christians can face dark seasons while still clinging to Christ. If you are struggling with thoughts of suicide or feel that you may be in immediate danger, please tell someone you trust right away—a family member, pastor, trusted friend, counselor, or healthcare provider. If you are in the United States or Canada, you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline. If you are in immediate danger, call 911 or your local emergency services. There is hope, and you do not have to walk this road alone. Scripture: Romans 8:1 • John 8:44 • Hebrews 12:2 Resources: If this episode encouraged you, visit Testimony Through Tears for additional podcast episodes, devotionals, and biblical resources created specifically for Christian moms grieving the loss of a child to suicide.

3. 

   14 May 2026

   The anger no one talks about after suicide loss

   In this episode of Testimony Through Tears, Janet talks honestly about the anger that often comes with deep grief after losing a child to suicide. Anger at the situation, at people, at yourself, and sometimes even at God can feel frightening and isolating—but God is not afraid of your honest emotions. Through scripture and gentle encouragement, this episode reminds grieving moms that they can bring every part of their pain to the Lord without shame.

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Apple Podcasts (US)

5.0 / 5

1 ratings

Spotify

5.0 / 5

3 ratings

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