The journey to self love is never easy; especially for us BPD and Bipolar girlies. For me? It was almost unheard of. I struggled with eating disorders, self harm, sexual promiscuity, celibacy, sexual confusion, and self worth from the ripe age of 9 years old. To struggle so long without understanding why or what made me this way I learned to lie and lie a lot to save myself from being judged or put away. But today I share my story from the very beginning as a way to hopefully help a young girl who is struggling as I was; Hell as I still am.
xoxo, The Borderline Bipolar Butterfly 🦋
This episode of "The Borderline Bipolar Butterfly" explores the feeling of hitting rock bottom.
14 Apr 2025
Chapter 8-My Almost Maybe
Most situationships leave you with a broken heart or the question of what if. Mine left me destroyed...mentally and emotionally. This episode is dedicated to the Leo who broke my heart in the worst way
8 Apr 2025
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8 Mar 2025
Chapter 7- Is This Love?
Falling in love with a Borderline is either going to make you feel like the best version of yourself or it's going to kill you. In my experiences I usually end up wanting to kill myself. In this episode I dive into my 4 relationships that helped build me and break me.
Will I ever find love ?
12 Feb 2025
Chapter 6- My Favorite Person
The term Favorite Person sounds like a compliment; but when a borderline chooses you to be their FP it can be anything but.
My journey of self awareness and healing showed me that my FP should be the woman who has never left my side.
25 Jan 2025
Chapter 5-Am I Gay?
Sexuality & Mental Health are often compared and in this episode I recall my coming out story & the trauma that followed.
20 Jan 2025
Chapter 4-My First Heartbreak
As a recovering borderline, acknowledging the start of your mental decline as well as triggers that may arise is the first step in making better choices. For me, the person who remains my biggest trigger and ultimately my biggest obstacle is my father.
This is the story of the summer he broke my heart before any man or woman could.
12 Jan 2025
Chapter 3-The Fab 5
Attachment is NO JOKE and for me my first real experience with attachment came in the form of my 4 best friends.
When I lost them my emotional hurt was so serious you would have thought they died.
This is my love letter to them.
4 Jan 2025
Chapter 2-The Stage
Finding an escape to find peace is a great tool for someone who struggles with their mental health. This week I revisit my passion and my true escape from the bullying I experienced as a kid.
Theatre was my home and my heart for 9 years. From lonely 10 year old girl wanting to be someone new for a few hours to a 19 year old with a desire to be a star one day; this episode reminds all of us to find quiet in the noise and a voice in the silence.
28 Dec 2024
Chapter 1- The Unraveling
In this first official episode I take you all back to 2005 where my mental health journey started and where I had my first therapy session, heard BPD for the first time, was labeled a SLUT and a THIEF (two words that would haunt me for the rest of my life), and where I first learned that some girls don't get to be Prom Queen.
21 Dec 2024
Meeting The Butterfly Herself
Welcome to The Borderline Bipolar Butterfly a PodsByErin Podcast
This is my audio diary sharing my journey through the battle grounds of mental health from the age of 10 to 30. How misdiagnosis’s, toxic relationships, negative self image, and years of suppressed sexual trauma, and a major death in my life led me to finally seek help and get answers about my mental health.
Tune in Friday's at 10pm for weekly episodes of hope, resilience, and honesty.
xoxo,
The Borderline Bipolar Butterfly 🦋
20 Dec 2024
The Borderline Bipolar Butterfly
Tune in every Friday night at 10 for The Borderline Bipolar Butterfly a PodsByErin Podcast.
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