Untamed Lives

About Untamed Lives

Untamed Lives: The Unfiltered Truth We all have the version of our lives we share over coffee or on social media. But then… there’s the rest of it. I’m Chris, and I’ve always been obsessed with the "hidden chapters" we’re told to keep tame. In my podcast, Untamed Lives, I’m pulling back the curtain on the choices we make in private and the unconventional relationships we build. This isn't your typical interview show. It’s a raw, provocative, and deeply intimate exploration of what it actually looks like to live outside the lines.  We’re diving into: Untraditional Relationships: Exploring the diverse ways we choose to love. Varied Expressions of Sexuality: Positive, informative, and "spicy" dialogues that challenge what’s "normal." The Power of Choice: The nuanced decisions and sacrifices that define a life truly our own. Every season, I sit down with one person to trace their journey from the very beginning to the present day—shifting from serious to sexy to fun as the story unfolds. If you’re curious, open-minded, and tired of superficial narratives, join me. Let's see what happens when we stop holding back.

Publisher

Chris

Category

health & fitness · society & culture

Language

en

Explicit

Yes

First episode

20 Feb 2026

Latest episode

31 Aug 2026

Latest episodes

17 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   31 Aug 2026

   Season 2 - Alex | Episode 6: The Town Character

   In this final episode of Season 2, we finish the forensic reconstruction of Alex's life — a life shaped by secrecy, survival, and a conservative script that never fit. We trace the slow, stubborn work of unwinding a person from the cage they were forced into: the masks that once protected them, the pain that drove them toward dangerous comforts, and the ragged, hopeful community that helped them claw back a sense of self.Alex takes us through the small, gritty victories — their first real bedroom, the bartender gigs that rebuilt confidence, the fragile re-entry of their children into their life — and the darker tethers that still pull: addiction used as numbing, a body that remembers trauma long after the mind says it’s safe, and the gut-wrenching decisions about honesty, exposure, and the risks of being seen. We listen as Alex names boundaries and rules that keep them afloat and as they map out the hard, authentic work of reclaiming desire, intimacy, and self-trust.Clinician Erin returns to help unpack what it means to 'unfold' — to take off the costume the world made you wear and learn, step by careful step, how to become the person you were always meant to be. This episode is both a reckoning and a benediction: the lamp held high at the cave mouth, signaling the climb is hard but worth it. Whether you came for the raw confessions, the social critique, or the quiet, stubborn hope, the season closes as an invitation — to stop performing, to honor the messy, human work of becoming, and to celebrate the town characters who finally dare to be themselves.

2. 

   24 Aug 2026

   Season 2 - Alex | Episode 5: The Physical Space

   The bar is quiet. It is that middle hour where people aren’t ready to go home — neither who they were at work nor who they’re expected to be at the dinner table. Alex has lived inside that hour for years: a second marriage, a house in the suburbs, a stepfamily that looked photo-ready but never felt like home. Behind the neat lawn and steady rhythms there is a locked place, a vault where the real self hides, and where late nights and secret experiments kept a fragile life intact. This episode follows the slow, painful arithmetic of living as a guest in your own life. We trace the margins where Alex learned to shrink — staying late at work, waiting for everyone to leave town, tucking true desires into the edges. There are the double lives and the chemical buffers: mushrooms and poppers that unmasked manipulations, meth that promised to restore what illness and grief had eroded. We sit with the bewilderment of a body that recoils from touch, with the eerie clarity that comes when a mask slips and the performance finally falters. Along the way we meet the people who shape — and sometimes help unravel — a life: exes and stepchildren, partners who care and partners who manipulate, a polycule that offered sanctuary when one life became unbearable. Alex’s story threads through the pandemic, through repeated illnesses, through caretaking that carried emotional strings. It is also a family story: daughters exploring identity, a middle child who came out as trans, and the strange, tender parallels between parent and child that make questions of nature and nurture feel urgent and intimate. The narrative turns visceral in the basement: two weeks of sobbing, video games as refuge, and the slow assembling of an escape plan. A mushroom-fueled fight becomes a Keyser Söze moment; the realization that the person you’re living with has been playing everyone for their own comfort snaps something loose. That snap opens a longer reckoning — the recognition that you cannot unpack the vault while you are still a survival guest in someone else’s home. There are no tidy moral judgments here, only the human details: the relief of a friend offering a couch, the shame and gratitude of being cared for, the terrible trade-off of needing help and feeling indebted. The episode names what so many of us avoid naming — that physical space matters. You can be in a supportive house and still be too afraid to fall apart, because falling apart might mean losing the roof over your head. Alex’s solution is simple and radical: he must have a place that is his, a room where he can scream, cry on the kitchen floor, and be unstable without fearing exile. We end this chapter not with complete resolution, but with the raw, hopeful work of reclamation. Therapy, honest acknowledgments of addiction and avoidance, and the slow building of a life chosen rather than endured all point toward the next move: from guest to host. The season’s finale asks what it takes to stop performing, to unlock the vault, and to stay when the walls come down. Tune in to witness a life wrestled back into being — messy, unvarnished, and finally, fiercely claimed.

3. 

   17 Aug 2026

   Season 2 - Alex | Episode 4: The Permanent Responsibility

   The night opens with the smell of flour, the ordinary clatter of a pizza shift, and then a silence so loud it rewrites a life. At 18, Alex is working at Little Caesars when a pregnancy test turns a future of study and small freedoms into an urgent, permanent responsibility. In the space of a breath, adolescence ends and an unchosen adult life begins. This episode tracks that snap decision—the hurried promise, the forced wedding, the surrender to a family script that equates worth with flawless performance. Without sexual education, without options, Alex chooses the path expected of them: husband, provider, steady hand. But beneath the tidy exterior, a different story brews—one of curiosity, contradiction, and a longing that will not stay buried. We move from the kitchen’s harsh fluorescent light to the late-night refuge of early internet chatrooms and monthly cross-dressing meetings. The scenes shift: stolen wig shops, rented community rooms, furtive affairs, and a therapist who explains identity with clumsy, dated theories. Each vignette reveals a slow-burning shame cycle—desire, secrecy, guilt, and the brittle choices that follow. Alex’s journey becomes a case study in collision: the pull of theatrical young adulthood and the pressurized role of father and husband; the search for self against a culture that makes queerness dangerous. Codependency, performance, and the constant work of keeping a family image intact shape two decades of decisions—some tender, many flawed, all human. This is also a story about survival tactics: the chemical buffers, the digital escapes, the small communities that offer a glimpse of difference when society offers none. It’s about how representation—or the lack of it—matters, how a theater kid learns who they are between callbacks and closet doors, and how the dominant culture weaponizes fear to keep people in line. And then a surprising, messy, beautiful turn: adult children returning not for the perfect parent but for the real one. Years of guilt and hiding give way to late-night conversations, camping trips, and a fragile reclamation of relationship. The reward isn’t a tidy redemption; it’s the quiet miracle of being known—and liked—by the people you love. We close on a bittersweet note: a hint at the next chapter, when Alex will confront the high cost of being a guest in their own life and the physical space required to finally breathe. This episode is an intimate, unfiltered narrative about choices made under pressure, the price of silence, and the unexpected courage it takes to keep showing up as yourself.

4. 

   10 Aug 2026

   Season 2 - Alex | Episode 3: The Forensic Autopsy

   When the lights go up, a picture-perfect life looks like proof of success: toys under the tree, Scouts, family camping trips—the American dream in high definition. But this episode pulls the stage curtains back and descends, scene by scene, into the basement of one family's history to perform a forensic autopsy on the roots of shame.Host and guest Alex trace how Depression-era ghosts and the material hunger of the ’80s built a hollow foundation of high-interest debt and moral judgments. The generosity that once paid for extracurriculars and holiday presents becomes a performance; children are cast as co-stars in a play that teaches them their worth is tied to production and perfection. Through intimate recollections—being uprooted mid-production of a school play, the loneliness of a home just outside city limits, and the raw ache of friendships that fracture after coming out—we feel the cost of keeping an image alive.Alex’s story threads through early, unmonitored internet curiosity and the discovery of sexual identity, into the bright yet isolating lights of theater rehearsals where a chosen family begins to form. We follow them through the impossible choices of late adolescence—student loans, full-time work, and becoming a young parent—and watch how pressure to ‘perform’ wire emotional survival strategies that shadow adult relationships.With a clinician’s voice weaving in the language of developmental trauma, the episode reframes failure as unsustainable expectation and vulnerability as a risk shaped by upbringing. Each memory is a specimen on the exam table: generational patterns, over-giving to mask emptiness, and the illusion that love can be bought. And yet, amid the autopsy’s clinical clarity, there is warmth—Alex’s discovery of a chosen family that likes them for who they are, not the costume they were made to wear.By the final return of the lights, the episode offers a quiet, fierce hope: once you see the mechanics of the injury, it loses its power. You can stop paying a bill you never signed for. This hour is a reckoning and an invitation—to put down weight you were never meant to carry, to reclaim self-worth, and to start rewriting the next scene.

5. 

   3 Aug 2026

   Season 2 - Alex | Episode 2: The Slippery Handshake

   They built a life for Alex like a cage: a script of perfection handed down at birth, an ultimatum disguised as expectation. For twenty years they learned to breathe inside a locked vault, hiding pieces of themselves until the oxygen ran low. This episode opens on that moment the lock cracks — not with a dramatic reveal, but with a quiet, dangerous reaching toward something new. We follow Alex through late nights and secret rooms where encounters become more than sex: they become a language of care, a slippery handshake that says, You belong here. What looks risky to outsiders — hookup apps, cruising spots, kink spaces — becomes a scaffold for safety. Alex narrates how physical intimacy, clear boundaries, and negotiated consent rewired their idea of trust, and turned strangers into a chosen family. To make sense of this unusual alchemy, a clinician named Erin unpacks the weight of developmental trauma: the slow accrual of invalidation and shame that makes emotional vulnerability feel impossible. Through her insight, the listener discovers why predictability, explicit communication, and carefully curated spaces can feel safer than the bland rituals of polite small talk. Interwoven with this clinical lens are intimate moments behind closed doors and across a bar counter: Alex cuddling grown men who have never been little spooned, teaching consent when no one else did, and serving as the guide they wished they’d had. The narrator — a bartender who knows what it means to hold a room of aching men — watches those walls crack and understands the quiet power of simply staying present. Alex’s sexuality becomes a tool of reclamation: not a static label but a practice that teaches negotiation, self-advocacy, and tenderness. They describe fetish and fantasy not as shameful secret, but as role and story — a performance they can choose to step into or refuse, all while insisting they will never misrepresent who they are. By the episode’s end Alex has become the Hermit with a lamp, standing on the ridge and illuminating a path others can follow. This is not a tidy redemption arc; it’s a lived, messy reclamation of desire and belonging. Listeners are invited into that room — to feel the hush when a voice finally breaks, to witness how consent and connection can heal long-buried wounds. Leave the episode carrying one unmistakable image: a lamp held steady in the dark. Next time the journey continues inward as we perform a forensic autopsy on the family script that kept Alex locked away. For now, the door has opened — and someone is waiting to show you the way out.

6. 

   27 Jul 2026

   Season 2 - Alex | Episode 1: Alex

   Season 2 opens with a slow, honest exhale. In this premiere episode of Untamed Lives Season 2, host Chris introduces Alex: a fiercely unique, resilient soul who has spent years making survival moves — sometimes messy, sometimes necessary — to keep going. The episode doesn’t map a neat timeline. Instead, it moves like memory itself, assembling fragments — a stray dog, a secretive ‘vault’ of memories, bartending behind a protective mask, and the warmth of a newly found family — into a portrait of a person learning to breathe again. We meet Erin, a licensed clinical social worker, who helps translate the language of survival — the vault that keeps pain locked away, the containers we build to function — and the slow, courageous work it takes to open them. Through Alex’s voice we feel the weight of housing instability, decades of bouncing between rooms and relationships, and the bittersweet relief of finally being seen by clinicians who listen. But this episode is not only about endurance; it’s about the sparks that keep someone alive: the sanctuary of the bar where Alex performs to survive, the grounding rituals of gardening and baking brownies for friends, late-night walks with a rescued dog, and the quiet joy of reconnecting with adult children. We trace how diagnosis and healthcare — ADHD, bipolar, BPD, and the medications and support that follow — become tools that grant Alex agency rather than shame. Filled with vivid scenes — from men’s roller derby to improvised baking lessons, from a decade of ‘turbo slut’ exploration to a tender moment escorting a middle child into their first HRT appointment — the episode balances the raw ache of past wounds with the hopeful tremor of new belonging. It’s a first chapter that leaves you wanting to open the vault, hold the fragile pieces, and step with Alex toward the keys they’re beginning to find.

7. 

   21 Jul 2026

   Season 2 Alex - Trailer

   Memory isn’t a straight line—it’s a mosaic of sharp edges, hidden rooms, and the smells of late-night pizza. In this episode we pry open a vault that’s been sealed since 1998 and follow Alex back to a single moment of sudden silence that reroutes an entire life. Through vivid scenes and intimate confession, the narrative traces the shame cycle: denial, self-erasure, and the aching cost of being a guest in someone else’s world. We go to a pizza place in the past and a kitchen floor at 3 a.m., and we sit with the messy, human stuff in between: chemical buffers used to survive suburban noise, the performance of perfection demanded by family and town, and the small, radical handshakes that stitch a person into a new community. Chris guides us with a voice that is equal parts forensic and tender, reconstructing not just events but the emotional logic that shaped them. By the end, this isn’t just an excavation of a cage—it’s a search for keys. Alex wants a space to scream, to grieve, to be known; more than that, they dream of becoming a town character—messy, loud, gloriously themselves. Pull up a chair and listen: Untamed Lives Season 2 premieres July 27, and this episode promises catharsis, revelation, and the beginning of a reclaimed life.

8. 

   20 Jul 2026

   Secrets on the Bar Top: Untamed Lives Returns

   He once chased the spotlight, convinced he was the protagonist of a grand epic. But when the applause faded, he found something truer behind a worn wooden counter: a gravity that drew people in to lay down the stories they could not carry alone. In this episode he admits the uncertainty of his first season and how that uncertainty became the doorway to a new purpose. Listen as the rush dies away and a particular stillness settles—dice clatter, glasses whisper, and the bar becomes a confessional. The narrator has traded center stage for the quiet work of tending shadows, pouring drinks, and listening. He is no hero; he is the chronicler, keeping careful watch so others can finally step into the light. Through intimate vignettes and honest confessionals you’ll meet lives folded into the margins and learn why people keep returning to the counter to leave their heaviest truths. Four seasons are already planned, and the lights are staying on—each episode a carefully recorded offering of raw, unvarnished truth made audible. If you have a story you’re ready to leave on the bar top, there’s always an open seat. Visit ontamedlives.com and pull up a chair. For the premium pour—every episode released immediately and uncensored—subscribe to the Supercast. The narrator does more than collect tales: he makes sure they are not forgotten. Season 2 is coming. The bar is open. Come, listen, and decide what these stories mean to you.

9. 

   20 Apr 2026

   Untamed Lives — Behind the Silence: Season Two Tease

   Welcome back to Untamed Lives — where every pause is purpose and every story is crafted with care. In this intimate update, your host opens with a raw, grateful thank-you to the community that propelled season one further than anyone expected. The episode begins like a letter to friends, full of warmth, humility, and a promise: the wait ahead exists because the work ahead matters. We step behind the curtain as production moves into the library — a slow, deliberate season of craft. There will be no new episodes for a few months, not out of silence but out of devotion to quality. The narrator reassures listeners that seasons have already been recorded through season four, so when the show returns, it will return with momentum: a year's worth of stories waiting to be heard. For the Supercast supporters who crave more, a small mystery hangs in the balance. Listeners are invited to help coax a special update from Addison — a long-awaited voice with much to share — by amplifying the show: leave questions in your podcast app, rate and review, and tell a friend. If the numbers climb, she’ll record an exclusive episode just for the dedicated few who made it possible. Community is the backbone of this project. Visit UntamedLives.com to join Discord and Reddit conversations, read behind-the-scenes blog posts, and track launch dates as they unfold. The host paints these spaces not as extras, but as living rooms where stories continue between episodes. Then comes a quiet, powerful teaser: Alex. In a clipped, honest voice, Alex arrives on the page — surviving in a tense political climate, living with found family after a mutual decision to separate from birth relatives, and slowly, cautiously settling into a life chosen rather than inherited. It’s a glimpse of the human work that awaits: repair, reinvention, and the small acts that make a person feel at home inside themselves. As the update closes, the tone is hopeful and resolute. The host thanks listeners again, promises that the pause is only temporary, and leaves you with the sense that what’s coming will be worth the wait. This episode is both a breather and a bridge — a way to keep the fire alive until the next chapter begins.

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    13 Apr 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Episode 6: A Better Life Chosen

    This podcast features deep-dive, unfiltered conversations that often include adult themes and strong opinions. Listener discretion is strongly advised. If you want the full uncensored experience, including ad-free episodes, you can support the show and find us over on Supercast. Hello listeners, and welcome back to Untamed Lives. This is the final episode of Addison's Story, Episode 6, A Better Life Chosen. In this chapter we cut straight into the chaos and the courage — the night she walked away and the long, stubborn path that followed. Imagine a blistering summer evening: a crowded side-by-side run, a man who will not respect boundaries, and a woman trying to keep the peace because peace felt like safety. When the ride ends, he forces his way into her life again, smashing the one lifeline she still clings to — her phone — and trapping her between beer cans and fury. She drives away, heart pounding, and for the first time the animals she loves become bargaining chips in his game. She gets them back. That act alone begins the unraveling of what he thinks he controls. Back at the house she thought would be sanctuary, she finally draws a line. He barges in, he throws a microwave and a vacuum at her, and with the slam of the locked door she makes the call that had been too hard to make before: the police. The scene that follows — statements taken, bar-side denials, a dismissed restraining order — shows how twisted the system can feel for someone in the middle of survival. Yet this is not the end of her story; it is the beginning of evidence taking its own slow, righteous course. Three days later the district attorney picks up the thread the court commissioner dropped. Charges are filed. In a courtroom charged with an almost cinematic contempt, the judge looks at the abuser and calls him out — a moment of validation so intense it feels like sunlight breaking through months of storm clouds. He is forced to face what he has done in front of a room that has heard the truth at last. But justice is messy. The initial restraining order was denied. He still walks among people who believe his false narrative. He finds ways to spin the story, to recruit allies, to silence the facts — until the court cannot ignore them. A later hearing yields a four-year domestic abuse restraining order, but not the full protections she wants, and she remains keenly aware of how easily safety can be incomplete. Through it all, Addison grapples with diagnosis and identity. The label of BPD was used against her, twisted into ammunition by someone who wanted her erased. She confronts the overlap between trauma and diagnosis, reclaiming the parts of herself she once thought broken and deciding which pieces to keep. She steps into a new life with a fierce devotion to her daughters, who bear witness, learn compassion, and help shape her recovery. By episode's end we do not find a fairy-tale resolution — we find something truer: a woman who chooses herself, who rebuilds her life marker by marker, promotion by promotion, house-hunting by house-hunting, determined that she will never again be trapped in a story that belongs to someone else. Her journey through betrayal, near-destruction, and the slow arc of justice becomes a testament to resilience, the messy bravery of survival, and the quiet ferocity of starting over. This final chapter of Addison's Story is raw and unfiltered, full of hard truths and small triumphs. It is an invitation to listen closely and witness a life reclaimed — because some stories don't end with darkness; they end with someone who refuses to stay there.

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    6 Apr 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Episode 5: Textbook Narcissist — Part 2

    Content warning: This episode contains discussions of emotional abuse, manipulation, self-harm, and other deeply sensitive topics. This podcast features deep-dive, unfiltered conversations that often include adult themes and strong opinions. Listener discretion is strongly advised. If you want the full uncensored experience, including ad-free episodes, you can support the show and find us on Supercast. In the middle of a relationship unraveling, Addison pulls us into the immediate chaos of heartbreak, betrayal, and the small brutalities that stack until they become unbearable. What begins as a night at a bar and a sudden breakup spirals into a relentless cycle of lies, infidelity, and retaliation — moments of furious defiance followed by the soft, private shame of a woman who still tries to protect the man who hurts her. Through raw, unfiltered recollection we follow Addison from smashed glass and sleepless drives to the edge of a decision she thought would end everything. She tells us how she researched survival and death with cold practicality, how the first attempt landed her in emergency rooms and behavioral units, and how the fog of medication, diagnosis, and quarantine blurred memory and made the everyday feel like a stranger’s life. Interwoven in the chaos are the people who refused to let her go: an anxious daughter who ran across a cul-de-sac to check on her mother, family members who sat through long nights in hospital waiting rooms, and the complicated, sometimes infuriating network of loved ones who both smothered and saved her. We see the surrealness of hallucinations, the indignity of being misread by professionals, and the crushing humiliation of a system that sometimes assumes the worst before it listens. But this is also a story about gaslighting and cunning manipulation. Addison reveals how she was convinced she was the problem, how he twisted her pain into proof of her instability, and how that lie kept her tethered. It isn’t until his hands cross an unforgivable boundary that she finally picks a side — hers — and begins the painful work of walking away. This episode leaves listeners in a heavy, honest place: witness to both the abyss and the first step back from it. It’s a portrait of survival that refuses simplification — of a woman who is broken and brilliant, harmed and heroic. Listen to the end for a sneak peek at Episode 6, A Better Life Chosen, where Addison takes the next steps toward healing and reclaiming the life she deserves.

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    30 Mar 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Episode 4: Textbook Narcissist — Part 1

    This podcast features deep-dive, unfiltered conversations that often include adult themes and strong opinions. Listener discretion is strongly advised. If you want the full uncensored experience, including ad-free episodes, you can support the show and find us over on Supercast.Welcome to Untamed Lives, Episode 4: Textbook Narcissist, Part 1. In this episode we follow Addison into the eye of a quiet storm — a relationship that starts with late-night laughs and travel, then accelerates into moving in together, tangled histories, and a love triangle that never felt like one. What begins as chemistry and convenience becomes a claustrophobic life where choices are reduced and the truth is hidden in the glow of a phone screen.We hear the slow, insidious unravelling: secret messages from exes, the discovery of two women with nearly identical names, and the gut-punch moment of realizing you have given up more than you ever intended. Addison’s attempts to protect herself become traps — therapy is weaponized, medication mocked, and caring friends flood in at the exact moment she needs space. Her coping becomes evidence in a relationship built on control, not care.There are intimate scenes you won’t forget: the parking-lot realization, a late-night confrontation, the quiet of a couch where two people cry and walk away, the small betrayals saved in text logs, and the chilling moment of finding an IUD missing and facing an unexpected pregnancy alone. Through each scene, we sit with the sharp ache of betrayal and the confusing mercy of the person she calls “Bridge” — the refuge who comforts but won’t claim responsibility when it matters most.Addison’s story is told with raw detail and professional perspective: Erin, our licensed clinical social worker, helps unpack the patterns — the fear of abandonment, the narcotic pull of approval, and the unique cruelty of psychological abuse that leaves no bruises but does lasting damage. This episode is a study in manipulation, the modern complications of smartphones and privacy, and the very human effort to reclaim agency.Listen if you want a deeply human narrative that doesn’t shy away from darkness. Part 1 leaves you standing on the edge — understanding how someone can be trained to believe they are the problem, and why leaving is never simple. Stay with us for Part 2 to watch Addison attempt to rebuild, confront the fallout, and find the truth beneath the playbook.

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    23 Mar 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Episode 3: Betrayal

    This podcast features deep-dive, unfiltered conversations that often include adult themes and strong opinions. Listener discretion is strongly advised. If you want the full uncensored experience, including ad-free episodes, you can support the show and find us over on Supercast. Episode 3 — "Betrayal" pulls you into a world where the ordinary rhythms of life—barn chores at dawn, late nights studying, and the accidental joys of young motherhood—are upended by secrets, lies, and a kind of love that corrodes from the inside out. Through Addison’s voice we move from the candid confessions of her youth to the fraught decisions of her adult life: who she trusted, who left, and how the youngest version of herself learned to navigate intimacy and independence. The episode unfolds like a slow-burning confession. We follow Addison through short-lived romance and the steady, comforting presence of Brian, a college-love she left and later missed. We live the turbulence of her marriage to Cooper—abandonment, a drawn-out divorce, and the heavy cost of a father’s absence on a child’s heart. Then comes the surprising light of a second pregnancy with Elliot: hope, excitement, and the terror of preeclampsia that threatens both mother and child before giving way to a tentative joy. But joy proves fragile. Small betrayals—texts, hidden accounts, the missing block of cheese—accumulate until trust unravels. Addison narrates the slow erosion of certainty as infidelity is uncovered not with a dramatic reveal, but in fragments and messages she watches in real time. What follows is a move into a relationship that begins with familiarity and ends with a darkness she could not have foreseen. Enter David: charming at first, then controlling, gaslighting, and ultimately violent. The episode does not shy from the shock of manipulation—how a person who seemed known and safe finds ways to worm past defenses and rewrite reality. We hear about the mental and physical assaults that pushed Addison to the brink, the hospital stays, the moments of shame and confusion, and the gutting realization that the cycle of abuse is both systematic and intimate. Interwoven with the personal narrative is clinical perspective, helping listeners understand how attachment wounds and personality disorders can make two fractured people collide in destructive patterns. Listeners are guided through the painful anatomy of narcissistic abuse—love-bombing, betrayal, gaslighting, and the cruel choreography of breaking someone down and building them up again—until escape becomes the only path to survival. By the episode’s close, Addison emerges not as a finished story, but as someone rebuilding: raw, honest, and telling the hard parts so others might recognize the signs sooner. "Betrayal" is a visceral, unflinching chapter in Untamed Lives—an intimate portrait of how trust is stolen, how mothers fight to protect their children, and how reclaiming oneself is both a messy and miraculous act. Listen through to the end for a preview of Episode 4, and if you haven’t yet, go back to Episodes 1 and 2 to catch the full arc—Addison’s journey only grows more revealing from here.

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    16 Mar 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Episode 2: The Early Years

    This podcast features deep-dive, unfiltered conversations that often include adult themes and strong opinions. Listener discretion is strongly advised. If you want the full uncensored experience, including ad-free episodes, you can support the show and find us over on Supercast. Welcome back to Untamed Lives.Before we jump into Episode 2 — The Early Years — we take a breath and look back: a girl who learned intimacy too soon, a young mother trying to hold a life together, and a voice named Olivia that surfaces when the world gets too heavy. In Episode 1 we met Addison — her work with animals, the strain and resilience of single parenthood, and the unfiltered edges of her sexuality. In Episode 2 we follow the thread back to where it all began.Hear Addison tell it in plain, sometimes raw detail — the backyard game of 'ditch' that blurred curiosity and coercion, the first secret nights at friends’ houses, and the slow dawning that those early encounters were not the normal magic she once thought. She remembers thinking you had to care about someone to want them physically, and how that belief cracked under the weight of repeated hurt. Those fractures became the map she would travel for years to come.We sit with the tenderness of first true love and the sting of leaving it: Brian, a safe place in a chaotic adolescence, and the difficult choices that led her to walk away. Then there is Cooper — the whirlwind that moved from college flings to marriage and a newborn, and the gutting moment when he chose a farm over a family. The day he packed and left, Carhartt the dog and a slammed door became symbols of a life split in two. Divorce dragged on, custody papers were vague, and a little girl learned to guard her heart from the man who should have protected it.Through legal fights, summer visits that felt like visits to a stranger’s house, and the emotional abandonment that followed her father’s new family, Addison describes the quiet erosion of trust — in men, in promises, and sometimes in herself. A moment that cuts deep: when her daughter, facing medical injections, worries more about going to Dad’s than about the diagnosis itself. That painful scene crystallizes what the early years left behind.But this episode is not only about scars. It is about reclamation. Addison opens up about exploring sex on her own terms in college, the pragmatic joy she found in release, and the complicated freedom of building identity while raising a child. She talks about open relationships, the lines she drew, and the walls she still carries — how early patterns become ruts in the road unless you fight to find a new path.Licensed clinical social worker Erin joins the conversation with compassionate clarity, helping us understand how premature sexual experiences and repeated betrayal can shape attachment, worthiness, and future choices. Together, they trace how validation-seeking became both a survival tool and a trap — and how becoming a mother, a student, and then an independent woman reshaped those instincts.Episode 2 is a raw, cinematic journey through adolescence, heartbreak, abandonment, and the small fierce decisions that build a life. It’s a story about what we inherit from the people who raised us, and what we choose to keep. Stay with us: in Episode 3 — Betrayal — the story darkens as new love, lies, and violence test everything Addison has fought to protect.I am Chris, and this is Untamed Lives. Thank you to Addison for her courage, to Erin for her expertise, to Sam for helping shape each episode, and to you, the listener, for coming along. If you want the uncensored, ad-free experience, find us on Supercast.

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    9 Mar 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Episode 1: Addison

    This podcast features deep-dive, unfiltered conversations that often include adult themes and strong opinions. Listener discretion is strongly advised. If you want the full uncensored experience, including ad-free episodes, you can support the show and find us over on Supercast. Welcome to Episode 1 of Untamed Lives, where Chris sits down with Addison — not her real name — a woman whose life reads like a study in contradiction: a mother who raises horses and advances human medicine in a lab, a caregiver who can be both wildly loyal and recklessly unfaithful, and a small-town daughter who learned how to survive by wearing more than one face. This is not a tidy redemption arc. It’s a raw, breathless plunge into the messy, human center of desire, grief, and survival. From the first moments Chris narrates, you feel the geography of Addison’s life: a town where graduation classes barely hit seventy, a streetlight that was once a landmark, and the hum of gossip that watches every move. We meet Addison as she juggles early mornings in a research lab, the unglamorous grind of pandemic-era veterinary work, and the fierce love of two daughters. Yet beneath the competent, sarcastic exterior lies a person who has learned to protect herself with a mask — and sometimes with another name. Enter Olivia: the persona that slips out in smoke-filled bars and late-night texts, the voice that says what Addison won’t, and the impulse that proves a point by taking what’s forbidden. Through vivid scenes — a torn-up week with no hot water, an EF2 tornado-lit night, a Crunchwrap Supreme in hand, and a litany of drinks where Amaretto becomes a calling card — the episode lets Olivia tell her own unapologetic stories. She brags, she beds married men, she wakes up to accusations at 5 a.m., and she goes back to sleep. It’s defiance, performance, and survival braided together. To help make sense of the switches between Addison and Olivia, Chris invites licensed clinical social worker Erin Roepcke to translate the lived experience into context. Erin explains how Addison’s diagnosed borderline personality disorder differs from dissociative identity disorder, grounding the listener in clinical clarity while never stripping away the human texture of the story. Their conversation gives the episode a rare balance: clinical insight that honors complexity, not reduction. We trace the roots of Addison’s behavior through the landscape of early attachments, betrayals, and the small brutalities of life: underpaid pandemic work, the weight of single parenthood, and the black-and-white thinking that can turn protection into punishment. We hear about sex as power, intimacy as a survival calculus, and the way her core values — accountability, loyalty, and family — clash with impulsive acts that hurt the people she loves. Addison admits to patterns she’s ashamed of and explains, in disarmingly plain terms, why she keeps returning to them. And yet, there are luminous moments: her love for animals that made her study animal science, the quiet mastery of horse training, the small joys of hunting and cabin nights, and the stubborn hope that someone might meet her without trying to fix her. This episode doesn’t ask you to forgive or judge — it asks you to listen. It presents a woman who is at once fierce and fragile, ashamed yet defiant, cruel and tender. By the end of Episode 1 you won’t have tidy answers — only the pull to keep listening. Heartbreak, rebellion, and the slow work of understanding are all on the table. Chris promises more: deeper digs into Addison’s early years, the traumas that shaped her, and the choices that followed. Buckle up: Untamed Lives has only just begun, and this first episode is a candid, unsettling invitation into the gray.

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    2 Mar 2026

    Season 1 - Addison | Untamed Lives Official Trailer

    We all have secrets. We all have those chapters we’d rather keep closed. But Addison? She’s opening the book wide. This season on Untamed Lives, we’re tracing the threads of a life woven with equal parts pain and pure, unadulterated pleasure. You’ll hear about the relationships that broke her, the growth that saved her, and the moments of light that flickered in the dark. It’s messy, it’s beautiful, and it’s a little bit dangerous. Are you ready to hear what it really means to live... untamed?

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    20 Feb 2026

    What We Keep Hidden | Untamed Lives Official Trailer

    Why do we choose the paths we do? Untamed Lives is a new seasonal podcast featuring intimate, candid conversations about the diverse ways we live, love, and express ourselves. In our debut season, we follow Addison’s incredible journey through love, discovery, and a fight for her own life. It’s raw, honest, and unapologetically human. Listen to the trailer and subscribe for Season 1.

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Apple Podcasts (US)

5.0 / 5

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Spotify

5.0 / 5

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