Welcome to “What Even Is This?”, the deliciously unserious podcast where I, try to make sense of life, love, chaos, healing, and every random thought that jumps into my head at 3 a.m. If you’ve ever looked at your life and said “what is this nonsense??”, you’re home. This is a space for laughing, venting, reflecting, oversharing, and figuring things out one chaotic chapter at a time. New episodes every week — or whenever life stops life-ing enough for me to talk about it.
Send us Fan Mail What Even Is This… Anyways? What this season is: This season introduces a recurring short-story segment where I share spontaneous, real-life moments with no structure, no lessons, and no healing agenda—just stories as they happen, told voice-note style. Why it exists: To keep the podcast light and funTo capture life’s random, unhinged momentsTo embrace ADHD storytelling as a feature, not a flawWhen it appears: This segment pops up anytime when something random happens and nee...
25 Feb 2026
Letting Go — Why Was That So Hard?
Send us Fan Mail EP 10: The Aftermath (Season Finale) In this season finale, I talk about what happens after the chaos. Moving out before eviction. Couch surfing with strangers. Security jobs in winter. Job hunting like my life depended on it — because it did. This episode is about rebuilding from zero, finding stability again, and the humbling lessons that come after you think the worst is over. And just when life starts to look up… the past knocks — loudly. Forgiveness. Relapse. Two unused ...
18 Feb 2026
Locks Changed on Me — Who Authorized This?
Send us Fan Mail Locks Changed on Me — Who Authorized This? Four months into relocating, moving in together, and building what I thought was a life… the locks were changed on me. In this episode, I talk about the day I came home and couldn’t get in. No warning. No conversation. No keys. What followed was panic, police, property managers, betrayal, power plays, eviction notices, money disappearing, depression, and realizing—very loudly—that I was being erased in real time. This is what it look...
13 Feb 2026
The Relationship Had Terms & Conditions — Who’s?
Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I sit in the uncomfortable space between knowing and leaving. This isn’t the episode where I pack my bags — it’s the one where I pack my thoughts. I talk about what it feels like to be self-aware but still stuck. About recognizing imbalance, power shifts, and emotional conditions… yet not having the courage (or capacity) to walk away — not yet. We unpack how love slowly became conditional, how my body reacted before my mind caught up, and how awareness withou...
5 Feb 2026
When Love Became a Bill — Who Set Me Up?
Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I unpack how love quietly turned into obligation — when “we’re in this together” became a one-sided financial burden. From going half on bills that were never really half, to carrying emotional and monetary weight that wasn’t mine to hold, this is the story of how support slowly became exploitation. This episode explores the guilt economy, shrinking your needs for the sake of peace, and the moment you realize you’re no longer a partner — you’re a resource. Be...
30 Jan 2026
Messing My Bed… Who else was in my bed?
Send us Fan Mail EP6: Who Else Was in My Bed? This episode was hard to say out loud. Let’s talk about the infidelity that unfolded right inside my home — the kind of betrayal that doesn’t just hurt your heart, but rewires your sense of safety. From discovering multiple women early into living together, to strangers being invited into my space while I was away working, to the moment I walked into a betrayal I couldn’t unsee — this episode is about the quiet ways disrespect shows up before it i...
22 Jan 2026
I Betrayed my intuition; What For?
Send us Fan Mail I turn the mirror inward in this Ep This episode isn’t about what he did — it’s about what I allowed. I unpack the moment I realized I was silencing my intuition, renaming red flags as green, romanticizing instability, and confusing intensity for intimacy. From emotional unpredictability and secrecy to the night I packed up everything and left — again — this episode is about accountability, self-betrayal, and the quiet ways we abandon ourselves while calling it love. It’s mes...
15 Jan 2026
He Enters the Chat: Who Introduced Me to This Man?
Send us Fan Mail I didn’t plan for him. He just showed up — loud, confident, magnetic — and somehow became part of my story before I realized what was happening. In this episode, I take you through the slow burn that turned into a fast, fiery romance: a chance meeting, a long virtual friendship, emotional dependence disguised as safety, and the kind of connection that feels cinematic… until the cracks start to show. This isn’t a love story — it’s the beginning of one unraveling. From roma...
8 Jan 2026
Diaspora Dynamics & Loneliness: Who Signed Me Up for This?
Send us Fan Mail Moving across the world teaches you a lot — but nothing prepared me for navigating people. In this episode, I unpack the loneliness that comes with diaspora life, the quiet politics of immigrant circles, and the unexpected reality of being the new girl among people who already have their cliques, history, and unspoken rules. I talk about learning that shared backgrounds don’t always mean shared support, why protecting your peace becomes essential, and how community isn’t ...
1 Jan 2026
Starting Over at 40: Who Approved This?
Send us Fan Mail Starting over looks cute on Instagram until the loneliness hits like a brick at midnight. No friends, no familiar faces, no familiar streets… just me trying to rebuild at an age where making new circles feels like auditioning. Here’s the truth about reinventing yourself when the world thinks you’re “too old to start again.” Blueband.
25 Dec 2025
Relocating to a New Continent: Who Sent me?
Send us Fan Mail This year dragged me, humbled me, spit me out, then asked if I was done crying. I wasn’t — but I survived anyway. In this episode, I look back at the chaos I didn’t sign up for, the depression that tried me, and the tiny inner voice that whispered, “We’re not done.” This is the story of the move that broke me open… and quietly saved me. Blueband
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