When I Die, Let Me Live
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Podcast Overview
<p><strong>When I Die, Let Me Live</strong> explores the deeply human and often hidden conversations surrounding death, dying, and meaning in the face of serious illness. Created in 2017 by a medical student—now a physician in Palliative Care, Geriatrics, and Addiction Medicine—the show honors real moments shared in some of life’s most vulnerable times. Each episode features personal stories from patients, caregivers, and clinicians navigating illness, loss, and what it means to live fully. This is an independent, self-funded project, and listener support helps keep it going. See the website for more information about the show, photos and blogs, and resources for those living with and caring for people with serious illness.</p> <p>Views expressed on this show are solely those of its creator and guests. The content is not affiliated with, nor does it represent, the views of any employer, institution, or organization.</p>
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1/1/2017
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Recent Episodes
November 18, 2025
The Stranger Who Stayed: Matthew Finds Love
In part four of our series, we meet Matthew Congdon again—designer, sharp-tongued truth-teller, and stage-four cancer patient—still trying to make sense of a life that keeps blindsiding him. This chapter brings an unexpected turn: a new love that arrived just days after his diagnosis, in the form of a tall Dutchman in white pants named Ludo. Matthew reflects on allowing himself to be cared for, trusting life’s sudden shifts, stepping away from his work, finding joy in the small stuff, and the fears and imaginings that shape the way he’s approaching the end of life.
October 30, 2025
The Fog that Comes After: Matthew Adjusts to His Illness
In part three of this series, designer Matthew Congdon, who is living with metastatic prostate cancer, reflects on what life feels like after the rush of tests and treatments fades. The fog begins to set in as he navigates the uncertain space between moving through treatment and finding acceptance in this new way of living. With his signature candor and dark humor, Matthew talks about how palliative care reshaped his idea of hope and the small rituals that help him feel in control—like freezing his bottle of morphine in a block of ice, saving it for when the time is right.
October 22, 2025
The Shape of Control: Matthew Designs His Death
In part two of this series, designer Matthew Congdon shares the phone notification that changed everything for him. In this darkly funny conversation, Matthew recounts the chaos that followed: the shock, the breakup, the black moths, the medical missteps. But amid the turmoil, he begins to reclaim control–through design. From choosing his gravesite to curating the outfit he’ll be buried in, Matthew transforms fear into authorship and finds solace in beauty, ritual, and precision.
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- What is When I Die, Let Me Live?
<p><strong>When I Die, Let Me Live</strong> explores the deeply human and often hidden conversations surrounding death, dying, and meaning in the face of serious illness. Created in 2017 by a medical student—now a physician in Palliative Care, Geriatrics, and Addiction Medicine—the show honors real moments shared in some of life’s most vulnerable times. Each episode features personal stories from patients, caregivers, and clinicians navigating illness, loss, and what it means to live fully. This is an independent, self-funded project, and listener support helps keep it going. See the website for more information about the show, photos and blogs, and resources for those living with and caring for people with serious illness.</p> <p>Views expressed on this show are solely those of its creator and guests. The content is not affiliated with, nor does it represent, the views of any employer, institution, or organization.</p> - How often does this podcast release new episodes?
This podcast updates daily.
- Where can I listen to this podcast?
This podcast is available on 4 platforms including Apple Podcasts, Spotify, and more. You can also use the RSS feed directly.
- Does this podcast accept guests?
Yes, this podcast regularly features guests.
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