Why Am I Here, and He Is Not? A Father’s Journey to Make Sense of Loss, Love, and Hope

About Why Am I Here, and He Is Not? A Father’s Journey to Make Sense of Loss, Love, and Hope

After the devastating and sudden death of his son, Larry began to write about his innermost thoughts and emotions that are part of his and his family’s lifelong journey of grief. During this podcast series, Larry reads selected excerpts from the journal he has been keeping since that terrible day in May of 2024. You will hear his emotions coming through as he chronicles his life without his son. He has dedicated this podcast to his son, with the hope that anyone listening who has experienced the death of a loved one will be partially comforted by knowing that they are not alone, that gr

Publisher

Larry

Category

kids & family

Language

en

Explicit

No

First episode

16 Jun 2025

Latest episode

19 Jun 2025

Latest episodes

6 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   19 Jun 2025

   Episode 6: Love, Loss and Hope Live Together

   Larry shares journal entries expressing love, loss, and hope as he navigates life after the death of his son Alex, reflecting on family milestones and the challenge of moving forward.

2. 

   19 Jun 2025

   Episode 5: Memories Are Everywhere

   Larry shares how he connects with his son through bittersweet memories of his childhood, sports achievements, and everyday sights, reflecting on his life by viewing hundreds of pictures.

3. 

   19 Jun 2025

   Episode 4: A Letter To My Boy

   Larry reflects on the intense memory flashbacks and new stresses in his life since his son Alex died, expressing sorrow and love in a letter to his boy.

4. 

   19 Jun 2025

   Episode 3: Confusion, Adjustments, and “What Ifs”

   Larry reflects on his ongoing journey through grief, grappling with doubt and sadness while honoring his son's memory by sharing his belongings with loved ones.

5. 

   19 Jun 2025

   Episode 2: Everything Changes

   Larry reflects on the emerging reality of life after loss, grappling with simultaneous joy and sadness during his granddaughter's first birthday celebration.

6. 

   16 Jun 2025

   Episode 1: The Journey Begins

   Larry describes the immediate aftermath of his son's death, including delivering the eulogy and grappling with intense grief, as he begins to chronicle his family's journey.

Reach and audience

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Spotify

5.0 / 5

1 ratings

Podcast Authority Score: 22 / 100

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43

Social presence

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YouTube

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