ZILLION TRILLION

About ZILLION TRILLION

Motherhood is chaos, and let’s be real—none of us actually know what we’re doing. Hosted by Victoria de la Fuente, a mom, fashion expert, and pro at winging it, Zillion Trillion is where you’ll find real talk about parenting without the sanctimommy nonsense. Each episode, Victoria chats with authors, friends, and other brilliant humans who also happen to be parents about the joys, the meltdowns, and the "is this normal?" moments of raising tiny humans. Think of it as a convo with the mom friend who keeps it brutally honest, slightly sarcastic, and 100% on your side. Because if we’re all just making it up as we go, we might as well do it together. zilliontrillion.substack.com (https://zilliontrillion.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast)

Publisher

Victoria de la Fuente

Category

arts · kids & family

Language

en

Explicit

No

First episode

8 Dec 2024

Latest episode

20 May 2026

Latest episodes

24 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   20 May 2026

   Your Brain Is Not Supposed To Live Like This

   There’s something deeply dystopian about the fact that even journaling has become aspirational content. Somewhere along the way, writing down your thoughts turned into another optimization ritual. Another thing women are supposed to do perfectly. Beautiful notebook. Perfect handwriting. Peaceful morning routine. No children screaming in the background. No notifications. No real life. Which is why this conversation with Laura Rubin (https://substack.com/profile/337745177-laura-rubin) genuinely changed the way I think about journaling. Not because she romanticizes it, but because she completely strips the performance out of it. We talk about overthinking, anxiety, emotional spirals, indecision, nervous system overwhelm, and why most of us are no longer cognitively capable of the wellness routines we keep trying to force ourselves into. She explains why journaling is less about “dear diary” introspection and more about organizing thought before your brain organizes chaos for you instead. Laura also shares the exact prompts she uses when you feel reactive, stuck, emotionally flooded, disconnected from yourself, or unable to figure out what you actually want anymore beneath all the noise. But honestly, the moment that stayed with me most was when she described asking a room full of successful women to simply write down things they liked and one of them realizing she genuinely no longer knew. Not loved, liked.And I think that says something pretty devastating about the moment we’re living in. This episode felt less like productivity advice and more like permission. Permission to stop trying to do wellness perfectly. Permission to slow your brain down long enough to actually hear yourself think again. If your brain has felt loud lately, I think you’ll love this one. When was the last time you sat quietly long enough to hear what you actually think? BUY THE BOOK HERE (https://go.shopmy.us/p-55687565) Connect with LAURA: INSTAGRAM (https://www.instagram.com/lauralrubin/) SUBSTACK (https://lauralivingstonrubin.substack.com/) * if this hit, restack it, heart, comment( that’s how new people actually find me here) paid subs are what keep this thing going. if you’ve been thinking about it, here’s your sign 💛 * Get full access to Zillion Trillion at zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe (https://zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4)

2. 

   29 Apr 2026

   I Booked a Spirit Baby Medium. I Was Not Prepared.

   The babies you can almost feel before they get here. The ones you swear you knew before any positive test. The little one you’ve been quietly carrying around in your body for years that nobody else can see. That feeling we’ve all been trained to dismiss as wishful thinking, hormones, projection: anything but what it actually might be. This week, I’m sitting down with Kelly Meehan Brown, the woman who literally invented the term spirit baby medium. For over a decade she has been speaking to babies before they come, in conception, in miscarriage, in IVF, in pregnancy, and in all the in-between spaces we don’t have a real language for yet. We talk about miscarriage as embodied death, why over-intervention is a real thing nobody warns you about, what babies actually look like in spirit form, soul personalities, birth imprints, why 43 isn’t the cliff we’ve been sold, the difference emotional support statistically makes on a fertility journey, and how grief lives in the body when we refuse to tend to it. She also reads me on the podcast. About the daughter I’ve been feeling for years. I have not fully recovered. It’s wild, it’s grounding, it’s a little disorienting in the best possible way, and exactly the kind of conversation I needed right now. If you’ve ever felt a child before they came, lost one, been told to “just relax,” or been quietly waiting for a soul that hasn’t shown up yet, this one is for you. BUY THE BOOK HER (https://go.shopmy.us/p-55310282)E Connect with Kelly on Instagram at @spiritbabymedium (https://www.instagram.com/spiritbabymedium/) Listen to her podcast Spirit Baby Radio (https://www.newearthchildren.com/spirit-baby-radio) Visit her website HERE (https://newearthchildren.com) *Tap the heart (it helps more people find this) — and send it to a friend who’d get it.* Get full access to Zillion Trillion at zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe (https://zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4)

3. 

   18 Mar 2026

   The Girlboss Hangover

   We need to talk about ambition. Not the clean, empowering, girlboss version we were sold. The shinier, more socially acceptable kind. The one that got dressed up as freedom, identity, feminism, self-worth, and proof that we were doing life correctly. The one so many of us built ourselves around, only to wake up one day exhausted, underwhelmed, and quietly wondering why getting everything we thought we wanted still didn’t feel like enough. This week, I’m talking to Amil about motherhood, work, burnout, feminism, identity, and the very unsettling possibility that a lot of what we were taught to want was never actually designed to make us happy in the first place. We talk about the ambition trap, the guilt of wanting a slower life, the impossible standard of being fully present at work and fully present at home, and why so many women still feel like they are failing inside systems that were built to make them fail. We also get into social media, IVF, the politics of modern motherhood, and the strange cultural moment we are in where women are constantly being asked to defend whatever choice they make. It’s honest, nuanced, a little existential, and exactly the kind of conversation that makes you look at your life differently after it’s over. If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re burnt out, disillusioned, ungrateful, or just finally seeing the game for what it is, this one is for you. BUY THE BOOK HERE (https://go.shopmy.us/p-41036489) Connect with Amil on Instagram at Amil Niazi (https://www.instagram.com/amilniazi/) Read her columns for the cut HERE (https://www.thecut.com/author/amil-niazi/) *Tap the heart (it helps more people find this) — and send it to a friend who’d get it.* Get full access to Zillion Trillion at zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe (https://zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_4)

Who has been a guest on ZILLION TRILLION

Names identified in recent episode analyses. Showing up to five guests.

• Margherita Missoni
• Khirma Eliazov
• Laurel Pantin
• Joanna Schroeder
• Christopher Pepper

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Apple Podcasts (US)

5.0 / 5

1 ratings

Podcast Authority Score: 24 / 100

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Quality

30

Social presence

97

YouTube

0

Engagement

0

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