Egoectomy: Until I Reflect Him

About Egoectomy: Until I Reflect Him

This is a place for honest conversations with myself and with you. I’m not here as a teacher or someone who has it all figured out. I’m still searching — just like you. I talk about the real tensions we carry: the gap between what we pray for and how we actually live, the weight of financial pressure, health struggles, emotional silence, and the everyday fire that refines us. I’m learning to care for the whole of who I am — mind, body, and spirit — with grace instead of shame. Learning to name what rises without running from it. Learning to trust that God sees the whole messy me and still wants to refine me so I reflect more of Him. You’ll hear me wrestle out loud with Scripture as a companion, not as a rulebook. No neat answers. No five-step formulas. Just one honest moment at a time, sitting with the heat, the dross, and the quiet hope that something real is being formed. If you’re tired of pretending, carrying silent emotional weight, or feeling the disconnect between faith and daily life… you’re not alone.

Publisher

MK

Category

religion & spirituality · society & culture

Language

en

Explicit

No

First episode

6 Apr 2026

Latest episode

18 Aug 2026

Latest episodes

18 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   18 Aug 2026

   Ep. 18 I Don't Understand Everything I Believe

   I’ve been watching how confidently we’re filling in the gaps around these elections… and it got me thinking about something completely different. God. The Trinity. And our discomfort with saying, “I don’t know yet.” Not knowing everything doesn’t mean we know nothing. And incomplete understanding isn’t automatically contradiction. Anyway… this one took me somewhere. 😅

2. 

   10 Aug 2026

   Ep 17. Who Loves You Like That?

   🌅 Have you ever felt overwhelmed by how much God loves you? 💖 Tag someone who needs to hear this today! This morning, I was struck by the beauty of the sunrise and it reminded me of God's intense love for us. Think about it: Who loves you like that? We often love deeply, but even our best love can falter. We disappoint each other and sometimes even betray one another. Yet, God remains faithful. While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Not when we finally got it right, but while we were still a mess. As Christians, we’re called to love others as Christ loved us. But that love is costly. It’s patient, it’s faithful, and it doesn’t shy away from sacrifice. So, if Christ loved us like that, how should we love others? Remember, you are deeply loved. God bless you! #GodsLove #Faith #ChristianCommunity #LoveOneAnother #Inspiration

3. 

   20 Jul 2026

   Ep 16: I Didn’t Feel Worthy to Make This Episode | The Spirit: The Silent Altar

   Some things don’t collapse dramatically, they disappear through quiet neglect. In this episode, I reflect on Elijah repairing the broken altar before calling down fire, and what that might teach us about returning to God. I also share why this episode took me so long to make: I wasn’t sure I had the right to speak about God while wrestling with my own inconsistency. This isn’t about turning every silent season into guilt. Sometimes we’re simply tired or grieving. But sometimes silence grows because we’ve stopped bringing our real selves to God. Maybe your altar isn’t dead. Maybe it’s waiting for honesty. Scriptures 1 Kings 18:21, 30–39 — Elijah repairs the altar 1 Kings 19:4–8 — Elijah’s exhaustion Psalm 51:10–17 — David’s honest repentance Isaiah 6:1–7 — Isaiah’s cleansing John 21:15–19 — Peter’s restoration Hebrews 9:11–14 — Christ fulfils what the altar pointed towards Timestamps 00:00 — The quiet work of erosion 01:17 — When something sacred becomes silent 01:40 — Elijah repairs the altar 02:50 — Not every quiet season is abandonment 03:20 — When prayer becomes performance 03:41 — Why this episode took so long 04:56 — Surrender, not perfection 05:26 — The altar points towards Christ 06:16 — Your altar may be waiting for honesty 06:42 — The invitation to return Egoectomy: Until I Reflect Him

4. 

   22 May 2026

   The Mind: The Invisible Battlefield

   The Mind: The Invisible Battlefield Have you ever been exhausted by a crisis that has not even happened yet? This is the first episode in The Whole House series: a journey through the mind, spirit, and body, and how God meets us in all three. In this heartfelt opening episode, I step into the hidden war many of us fight silently: the racing thoughts, the 3 a.m. mental storms, the pressure to look okay, and the quiet exhaustion of being strong for everyone else. This episode is not about pretending faith makes us untouchable. It is about telling the truth. Sometimes the mind becomes an invisible battlefield. Sometimes the strongest people are carrying private storms behind calm faces. Sometimes exhaustion does not come after failure. Sometimes it comes after survival. Sometimes even after victory. Through personal reflection, the story of Elijah, and the word raphah, which means to be still, let go, and drop your weapons, this episode invites us to stop treating the mind, body, and spirit like separate rooms. They were always one house. And maybe healing begins when we stop fighting ourselves and finally surrender what we were never meant to carry alone. Key Themes The hidden exhaustion of overthinking and phantom crises Why a calm face does not always mean a quiet mind The danger of confusing emotional heaviness with spiritual failure Why exhaustion can come after victory, not only after defeat Elijah’s collapse, rest, nourishment, and encounter with God Why God sometimes gives rest before revelation The meaning of raphah: be still, let go, drop your weapons The whole house metaphor: mind, body, and spirit as one connected life How judgment labels people while compassion asks deeper questions The burden of being “the strong one” for everybody else Honest prayer as the beginning of healing Practical ways to pause, breathe, and surrender during mental storms The mercy of God for tired minds and weary hearts TimeStamps: 00:00 - Have you ever been exhausted by a crisis that has not happened yet? 00:29 - When the mind becomes a boardroom of frantic thoughts 01:27 - Mind, body, and spirit: one house, not separate rooms 01:54 - Why emotional overwhelm is not always spiritual failure 02:25 - The hidden weight of carrying private storms silently 03:25 - When people label what they do not understand 03:54 - Judgment says “mad”; compassion asks what happened 04:23 - When internal pressure starts looking like chaos 04:51 - The pressure to be strong, spiritual, dependable, and okay 05:19 - Where does the strong one put a tired mind? 06:17 - Elijah: when collapse comes after victory 06:47 - God gives Elijah sleep and food before instruction 07:16 - Why caring for the body can also be spiritual wisdom 07:45 - Stillness as honesty before God 08:15 - When “weak faith” may actually be exhaustion 08:44 - Raphah: be still, let go, drop your weapons 09:14 - What surrender looks like in a racing mind 09:43 - Honest prayer instead of impressive prayer 10:13 - Admitting overload and asking for help 10:41 - Releasing what we were never meant to carry alone 11:09 - What is my mind, body, and spirit truly asking for? 11:39 - God meets people on battlefields 12:06 - The invitation to surrender instead of striving 12:35 - Rest, honesty, mercy, and the whole house 13:05 - Closing prayer #Egoectomy #ChristianMentalHealth #Overthinking #SpiritualGrowth #BeStill #MentalHealth #TheMind

5. 

   5 May 2026

   I Knew. And Still Did It

   MK shares a raw and honest reflection on spiritual struggles, temptation, and the importance of honesty and surrender in faith. This episode explores how moments of weakness can be met with grace, practical steps for honesty, and trusting God's faithfulness. Keywords #faith, #honesty, #temptation, #surrender, #spiritualgrowth, #grace, #prayer, #vulnerability, #Christianlife Key Topics The struggle with honesty and temptation Biblical encouragement for weakness and failure Practical steps for honest prayer and surrender Takeaways Honesty in our struggles opens the door for God's grace. Small, honest steps can lead to spiritual progress. God is faithful even when we are weak and unfaithful. Surrender is a process, not just a one-time act. Honest Moments with God: Facing Temptation and Weakness The Power of Surrender: A Personal Reflection on Faith "I just need to say it as it is." "I felt so empty after letting it in." "God is faithful even when we are not." Chapters 00:00 Facing Inner Struggles 01:30 The Weight of Temptation 03:37 The Journey of Surrender 05:23 A Moment of Reflection

6. 

   29 Apr 2026

   When You Feel Off (And Can't Explain It)

   MK shares a personal reflection on feeling off despite everything appearing fine, exploring the importance of understanding misalignment within ourselves and the power of surrender and stillness in reconnecting with our true selves. #mentalhealth, #selfawareness, #spiritualgrowth, #mindfulness, #misalignment, #surrender, #innerpeace key topics The subtle signs of feeling off despite external stability The importance of understanding internal misalignment The role of surrender and stillness in healing and growth Titles The Hidden Struggle: Recognizing Misalignment Within Why Fixing Isn't the Answer: Embracing Stillness and Surrender Sound Bites "The more I tried to fix it, the less clear anything became." "Nothing is obviously broken, but something is out of place." "You're not broken. You're misaligned." Chapters 00:00 Feeling Off: The Subtle Struggle 02:59 Understanding Misalignment: The Path to Clarity 05:53 Surrendering Control: The Power of Stillness

7. 

   21 Apr 2026

   Grieving The Future That Never Happened

   Mwila Kangwa explores the profound experience of grief over unmet expectations and how to find peace amidst life's uncertainties. Drawing from personal stories, scripture, and spiritual insights, this talk offers comfort and guidance for those mourning future plans that didn't unfold as hoped. Keywords: #grief, #faith, #disappointment, #spiritual #growth, #hope, #scripture, #healing, #patience, #trust, #future Key Topics Disenfranchised grief and its impact Biblical stories of hope and disappointment Practical steps to process grief and surrender The role of the Holy Spirit in healing Takeaways Grief over unmet expectations is real, even if invisible to others. Disappointment is a part of life, but depression doesn't have to be our default. Surrendering our plans to God can bring peace and strength. The Holy Spirit meets us in our grief and heals from within. Dancing in the Mud: Finding Joy After Disappointment The Quiet Grief: Embracing Unmet Expectations with Faith Sound Bites "Life doesn't follow the scripts we envision." "Process grief declares war on what we believe." "The Holy Spirit meets us in our grief." Chapters 00:00The Weight of Unmet Expectations 03:09Understanding Disenfranchised Grief 06:02The Journey of Faith and Doubt 08:53Finding Peace in Grief

8. 

   14 Apr 2026

   The Silent Handover When Screens Raise Our Kids (and Us)

   What happens when we hand our kids over to screens — not just on holidays, but in the everyday moments when we’re tired or busy? In this raw and honest first episode of Egoectomy: Until I Reflect Him, I share how a simple message from my mom stopped me in my tracks, and how a father’s heartbreaking story about his daughter Jerry took the conviction even deeper. We talk about the silent handover happening in so many homes: the snowball effect of quick distractions, the loud voices of the internet that can quietly become triggers, and the real mental health battles our kids are facing that many of us still don’t fully understand. Through Scripture and personal reflection, we explore what it looks like to cut away the “me show” of autopilot parenting and start showing up with presence and listening — so we can reflect Him more clearly. This isn’t about shame. It’s about grace, small imperfect steps, and learning to hear the still small voice in the middle of the noise. If you’ve ever felt the tension between screens and real connection with your kids, this episode is for you.

9. 

   10 Apr 2026

   What You Avoid, Grows: The Photo That Caught Me Avoiding Too

   The conversation explores the theme of avoidance and its impact on personal growth and relationships. It delves into the consequences of avoidance, the cracks it creates, and the process of addressing and overcoming avoidance. The egoectomy process is highlighted as a slow but ongoing journey towards personal growth and transformation. Takeaways Avoidance leads to growth Egoectomy is a slow but ongoing process

10. 

    9 Apr 2026

    You Can Be Raised Around Truth… And Still Miss It

    You can grow up surrounded by truth… and still miss it. In this episode, I get honest about scrolling past verses and Christian content every day while my heart stayed stuck. We explore Caiaphas and Barnabas — two men from the same priestly line with the same exposure but completely opposite responses to Jesus. Same truth. Different hearts. What have you been around for so long that you’ve never really responded to?

11. 

    6 Apr 2026

    Egoectomy: Until I Reflect Him

    What’s your why? A simple question… but one that’s harder to answer than it sounds. After Easter, I found myself sitting with that question—and reflecting on a picture from Malachi about God as a refiner. The kind that doesn’t rush… but sits, watches, and allows the process to unfold. In this episode, I wrestle with what it means to stay in the “fire” when things feel uncomfortable, repetitive, or unclear.

12. 

    6 Apr 2026

    Easter Special: Sunday, When It Moves Without Me

    This episode sits with the quiet surprise of Sunday — the moment resurrection happens, not because I forced it, not because I figured it out, but simply because God moves. I’m learning that sometimes hope rises even when I’m still tired, still doubting, still sitting in the ache. The stone rolls away without my help. New life begins without my permission. If you’ve been waiting for things to change, praying for breakthrough, or wondering if anything will ever move again… this is for you.

13. 

    6 Apr 2026

    Easter Special: Saturday, What if I'm Still On Saturday?

    This episode sits in the long, quiet space of Saturday — that in-between day where the cross has happened, but resurrection hasn’t arrived yet. I’m learning that much of life feels like Saturday: the waiting, the uncertainty, the ache of “what now?” when something has died but nothing new has risen. If you’re carrying disappointment, unanswered prayers, or a season that feels stuck in limbo… this is for you.

14. 

    6 Apr 2026

    Easter Special: Friday, The Cross I Didn't See Coming

    This episode sits with the heavy stillness of Good Friday — that moment when something you poured real hope into suddenly felt like it was ending. I’m not coming with answers. I’m just being honest about the ache of unexpected endings, the feeling of being forsaken, and the quiet questions we carry when life doesn’t turn out the way we prayed. If you’re walking through a cross you didn’t see coming — a loss, a disappointment, a season that feels like it’s dying — you’re not alone.

15. 

    6 Apr 2026

    God fix me (but don't change anything about me)

    I wanted God to fix my life… without touching the parts of me that needed to go. And I’m starting to see the problem with that. In this episode, I sit with the tension between comfort and transformation—and what it really means when God starts changing you from the inside out. Not self-improvement. Something deeper.

16. 

    6 Apr 2026

    My Circle Got Smaller, And That Was The Point

    My circle didn’t get smaller because I wanted it to… it just did. Some relationships didn’t end with conflict. They just… didn’t come with me. In this episode, I reflect on distance, growth, and what it means when your life starts shifting… and not everyone moves with you. No bitterness. Just trying to understand what God might be doing in the quiet changes.

17. 

    6 Apr 2026

    If God Hears Me, Why Didn't He Answer?

    If God hears me… why didn’t He answer? I’ve prayed and seen things change. And I’ve prayed… and nothing happened. Same God. Same faith. Different outcomes. In this episode, I reflect on unanswered prayer, loss, and the tension of trusting God when things don’t go the way you expected. I don’t have all the answers. I’m just trying to understand what it means to keep praying… and not walk away.

18. 

    6 Apr 2026

    Fasting and Obedience

    Sometimes we think the issue is discipline… so we fast more, pray more, try harder. But what if the issue isn’t effort… what if it’s alignment? In this episode, I reflect on fasting, obedience, and the tension between doing more for God… and actually listening to Him. This isn’t a sermon. Just an honest attempt to understand what it means to walk with God… not just work for Him.

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