Garden of Becoming

About Garden of Becoming

A podcast about becoming more whole, integrated, and alive. Through conversations with somatic practitioners, scientists, and artists, we explore how your nervous system holds trauma, how your sense of self shapes what you allow yourself to want, how your relationship to language and voice shapes your reality, and how your relationships to sex, money, and self-worth shape your capacity to live, love, express, and receive more fully. Each episode offers practices that bring you back into relationship with yourself. Come as you are. Emerge more fully you.

Publisher

Nallieli Santamaria

Category

education

Language

en

Explicit

Yes

First episode

6 Sept 2025

Latest episode

1 Oct 2026

Latest episodes

40 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   1 Oct 2026

   The Father Wound: Why Men Struggle to Feel, Receive, and Be Vulnerable | Darragh Stewart, PhD

   What happens when the voice of the man who raised you becomes the voice you carry inside yourself? Maybe you learned early on that mistakes weren't safe. Maybe you became the one who never asks for help, never lets your guard down, or feels like you always have something to prove. Maybe anger feels easier than sadness, receiving feels uncomfortable, or vulnerability feels like weakness. In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with Dr. Darragh Stewart, men's work facilitator, to explore the father wound and how our early experiences with fathers—or the absence of a consistent male figure—can continue to shape the way we see ourselves, relate to others, and move through life. We explore how these experiences can become patterns of perfectionism, hyper-independence, emotional suppression, anger, and difficulty receiving—and what it means to begin meeting those patterns differently. At the heart of our conversation is the idea of the inner father: learning to become the steady, compassionate presence for ourselves that may not have been available to us before. What You'll Explore How the father wound can shape self-worth, relationships, emotional expression, and vulnerability Why anger can sometimes be a doorway into deeper grief, fear, and unmet needs What men's spaces can offer through brotherhood, witnessing, and emotional support What it means to develop an inner father and become a source of guidance and compassion for yourself How becoming a father can bring your own childhood patterns and wounds into sharper focus What healing can look like when your father is unable or unwilling to participate in the repair Darragh's perspective on men's work, psychedelics, and bringing unconscious material into awareness About Darragh Stewart, PhD Darragh Stewart is the co-founder of Inwardbound, a men's work facilitator, scientist, and practitioner working at the intersection of emotional healing, embodiment, and psychedelic-assisted work. He holds a PhD in Plant Developmental Genetics from Trinity College Dublin and has trained in psychotherapy and counseling, transpersonal therapy, trauma-release modalities, and holistic bodywork. He facilitates men's groups, workshops, retreats, and psychedelic integration work, supporting men through periods of struggle, change, and transformation. Darragh is also the host of the Inner Insights Podcast. Connect with Darragh: Website: innerwork.ie Website: inwardbound.nl Instagram: @DarStewy Podcast: Inner Insights Connect with The Garden of Becoming: Instagram: @gardenofbecomingpodcast Email: hello@gardenofbecoming.com (mailto:hello@gardenofbecoming.com) If this conversation resonated with you, share it with a man in your life who might be carrying more than he lets people see.

2. 

   21 Sept 2026

   Making Love with Life: The 13 Kali Practice for Savoring Beginnings, Endings, and Everything Between | Crystal Dawn

   What if you could make love with life—even when life isn't going the way you want it to? What would it mean to meet change, uncertainty, endings, and even suffering with curiosity instead of resistance? In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with Crystal Dawn, a non-dual shamanic tantra teacher, to explore the 13 Kali practice from the Krama tradition—a contemplative practice that traces the cycles of life from creation and sustaining, through dissolution and savoring, into the deeper layers of our beliefs, identity, awareness, and freedom. At the heart of our conversation is a simple question: How do we make love with life when life is hard? Crystal shares how curiosity and surrender can change the way we meet difficult moments. Instead of immediately trying to fix what's happening, what becomes possible when we pause, notice where we're contracting, take a breath, and ask, What's here for me now? What can I learn from this? From there, we enter the world of the 13 Kalis. The first four Kalis reveal the cycles of creation, sustaining, dissolution, and savoring. Crystal offers a powerful perspective on endings: rather than rushing toward whatever comes next, what if we learned to rest in completion—to let something fully dissolve before reaching for the new? We explore how this practice applies not only to spiritual practice, but to relationships, work, identity, grief, and the ordinary transitions of being human. Crystal also shares the deeply personal story of losing her mother and the unexpected grief that followed. What emerged through that experience was a new understanding of vulnerability—and the discovery that allowing ourselves to be held by others can be part of the surrender life is asking of us. From there, the 13 Kalis move inward, into thought, belief, conditioning, and identity. We explore what happens when the innocence and awe of childhood become obscured by the stories we learn about who we are, whether we're good enough, and whether we're safe. Crystal describes these mental patterns as a kind of cage—and shares what happened when she recognized that the cage was no longer there. Eventually, the practice moves beyond the mind toward awareness, stillness, the void, timelessness, and a deeper freedom that doesn't depend on circumstances being a certain way. This is a conversation about endings, beginnings, grief, conditioning, surrender, and the possibility of meeting all of life with greater curiosity, compassion, and presence. What You'll Explore Making love with life: Meeting difficult experiences with curiosity and surrender rather than resistance The cycle of life: Creation, sustaining, dissolution, and savoring—and how these cycles are constantly unfolding around us The wisdom of endings: What becomes possible when we slow down and rest in completion Savoring life: Becoming present to the flow of experience rather than resisting it Working with resistance: How noticing contraction and taking a breath can interrupt habitual reactions Grief and vulnerability: Crystal's experience of losing her mother and what grief taught her about surrender and allowing herself to be vulnerable Innocence and awe: Reconnecting with the sense of wonder and openness we naturally experience as children The stories that become our cage: How conditioning, identity, fear, doubt, and beliefs about ourselves can obscure our deeper nature Moments of grace: What happens when the mind suddenly becomes quiet and we experience peace, freedom, or pure presence Working with the Kalis in daily life: How Crystal approaches the practice through meditation, imagery, and self-inquiry About Crystal Dawn Crystal Dawn is a non-dual shamanic tantra teacher whose work draws from the Krama tradition and the wider traditions of Kashmir Shaivism and non-dual tantra. Connect with Crystal Dawn Website: https://tantraversity.com/ (https://tantraversity.com/) Instagram: @crystaldawnmorris Connect with Us IG: @gardenofbecomingpodcast Email: hello@gardenofbecoming.com (mailto:hello@gardenofbecoming.com)

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   27 Aug 2026

   How to Stay Grounded When Love Makes You Anxious | Jannaé Rice

   Do you ever abandon yourself in relationships? Maybe you overthink every text. Maybe you ignore the knot in your stomach because you don't want to seem "too much." Maybe you keep chasing after someone even though you know you don't feel emotionally safe with them. And the worst part… maybe you can recognize exactly what's happening as it's happening, and yet you still can't seem to change it. In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with Jannaé Rice, licensed somatic psychotherapist and founder of Date Him Honey, to explore why real change in love doesn't come from the mind alone. Jannaé works across what she calls the four bodies — physical, emotional, mental, and energetic — because she believes lasting transformation in love requires connecting with all four, not just shifting your mindset. In one of the most powerful moments of our conversation, Jannaé guides me through a live embodiment practice — tracking a belief about love through my body in real time, watching it move, and learning to be with it rather than push it away. This is a conversation about remembering that we are more than our minds, and about coming home to the body as the place where real, lasting love begins. What You'll Explore Why fear of rejection is really a fear of not being chosen, and where that fear lives in the body What it means to be "whole enough" before entering a relationship, rather than waiting to be fully healed How to tell the difference between a passionate, chemical pull and true alignment Why toxic or painful relationships can still serve as a doorway to healing, if we're willing to look How each of the four bodies holds a different piece of a relationship pattern How to preserve your sense of self in the early, exciting stages of dating without snuffing out the passion Why safety and passion aren't opposites, and how to cultivate both over the life of a relationship What it takes to keep growing together instead of apart, especially through the major relationship inflection points (six months, a year, three years, seven years in) About Jannaé Rice Women come to Jannaé after years of therapy, dating apps, books, and heartbreak, when they're ready to stop working so hard for love and finally experience the kind that feels effortless. As The Lasting Love Architect and a licensed somatic psychotherapist with more than fifteen years of experience, Jannaé helps women break the invisible patterns in their body that keep them chasing, settling, and second-guessing themselves. The result is love that feels calm, deeply chosen, and built to last. Experience her signature work through her 21-day program BLOOM: Save Your Love Life, Reset Your Body, Get the Love You Want, or through her private coaching experiences. Connect with Jannaé: Instagram:@jannaeondating (formerly @datehimhoney) Website: datehimhoney.com Connect with The Garden of Becoming: Instagram: @gardenofbecomingpodcast Email: hello@gardenofbecoming.com (mailto:hello@gardenofbecoming.com) If this conversation resonated with you, please share it with someone learning to trust love again — and follow the show for new episodes each week.

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4.6 / 5

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