May 13, 2026
Episode 41: I Wrote a Eulogy for the Man Who Tried to Kill Me
<p><strong>GO SUBSCRIBE</strong> to The Illuminating Wisdom Podcast on All Streaming Platforms!!</p> <p class="p1">👉🏽 <strong>Join The Podcast Community</strong>: <a href= "https://www.illuminatingwisdom.com/forms/2148272767"><span class= "s1">https://www.illuminatingwisdom.com/forms/2148272767</span></a></p> <p class="p1"><strong>YouTube:</strong> <a href= "https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCbvXMghexdlMj1bk6XEyocg">https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCbvXMghexdlMj1bk6XEyocg</a></p> <p class="p1"><strong>Apple:</strong> <a href= "https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/illuminating-wisdom-lessons-on-life-livelihood-and-the-law/id1689917400">https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/illuminating-wisdom-lessons-on-life-livelihood-and-the-law/id1689917400</a></p> <p class="p1"><strong>Spotify:</strong> <a href= "https://open.spotify.com/show/4ca636t0DfAxagrqj13XID?si=0c5c81e6045b4110">https://open.spotify.com/show/4ca636t0DfAxagrqj13XID?si=0c5c81e6045b4110</a></p> <p class="p1"><strong>Website</strong>: <span class= "s1"><a href= "https://www.illuminatingwisdom.com">www.illuminatingwisdom.com</a></span></p> <p class="p1"> </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">I wrote a eulogy for the man who tried to kill me.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">That sentence is the title of a book chapter I wrote, and it is the starting point for this episode. This conversation is about forgiveness after real harm, but it is also about leadership, power, apology, accountability, and what happens when old survival patterns keep shaping present-day decisions.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">This episode continues the recent thread on bullying, power, and silence. Bullying thrives when people with power refuse accountability, and the people around them learn to work around the behavior. At home, that can look like intimidation and control. At work, it can look like a leader who never admits fault, a partner who humiliates people and calls it standards, or a founder whose mood becomes everyone else's problem.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">This is a deeply personal episode, but it is not only a personal story. I talk about domestic violence, fear, shame, forgiveness, leadership, the cost of resentment, and the updated FORGIVE framework from my forthcoming Illuminated Wisdom Toolkit.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">I also discuss why forgiveness should never be confused with reconciliation, silence, lack of accountability, legal waiver, or returning to danger.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Content Note and Domestic Violence Support</span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">This episode includes discussion of domestic violence, abuse, threats, trauma, and forgiveness after serious harm.</span><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">If you are in immediate danger, call emergency services where you are. If you are in the United States and need support related to domestic violence, the National Domestic Violence Hotline provides free, confidential support 24/7/365. You can call 1-800-799-SAFE, chat with an advocate, or text START to 88788. The hotline also warns that internet use can be monitored and may be impossible to erase completely.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">What You'll Hear in This Episode</span></strong></p> <ul> <li class="MsoNormal"><!-- [if !supportLists]--><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">How bullying, domestic violence, workplace harm, and failed accountability can share patterns around power.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Why forgiveness after serious harm requires careful language.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">How old survival patterns can influence leadership, trust, judgment, apology, and control.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">What leader-expressed forgiveness research suggests about teams, psychological safety, helping behavior, creativity, and performance.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">What the Global Flourishing Study found about dispositional forgivingness and later well-being across 23 countries and more than 207,000 participants.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Why anger can be accurate and still become expensive when the body keeps living inside the case.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">How forgiveness can coexist with safety, documentation, boundaries, legal advice, and protection.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Why a leader can apologize with humanity while still protecting legal questions that need professional review.</span></li> <li class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">T</span><span lang= "EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">he updated FORGIVE framework: Find safety first, Own the truth, Release the requirement that they understand, Guard the boundary, Interrupt the inner trial, View yourself with compassion, and Exit with support.</span></li> </ul> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Chapters</span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">00:00 — Forgiveness after harm and the leadership problem</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">03:58 — Why old survival patterns shape leadership</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">09:13 — Research on forgiveness, well-being, and teams</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">13:08 — The cost of resentment and the need for release</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">16:45 — The Legal Blind Spot: forgiveness without losing protection</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">20:32 — The updated FORGIVE framework</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Resources Mentioned</span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">National Domestic Violence Hotline</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Free, confidential support is available 24/7/365. If you are in immediate danger, call emergency services where you are. The Hotline can be reached by phone at 1-800-799-SAFE, by chat, or by texting START to 88788.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Global Flourishing Study and Forgiveness Research </span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">The <a href= "https://www.nature.com/articles/s44184-026-00187-5" target= "_blank" rel="noopener">2026 npj Mental Health Research paper</a> studied dispositional forgivingness and multidimensional well-being in nationally representative samples across 23 countries, with 207,919 participants. The study found evidence linking forgivingness with later well-being, with stronger and more consistent associations in areas such as psychological and social well-being.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Leader-Expressed Forgiveness and Team Performance</span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">A <a href= "https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/08959285.2025.2544260" target="_blank" rel="noopener">2025 Human Performance</a> study found that leader-expressed forgiveness predicts team performance through team forgiveness climate and helping behavior, as well as psychological safety and creativity. The research included a multi-source field study of 227 teams and a vignette-based experiment involving 101 teams.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><strong><a href= "https://www.illuminatingwisdom.com/" target="_blank" rel= "noopener"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Illuminating Wisdom</span></a></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">This episode talks about trauma, forgiveness, leadership, and the body. Nothing here replaces therapy, medical care, crisis support, legal advice, or a safety plan. If you are dealing with trauma, abuse, depression, anxiety, or anything that feels too big to hold alone, please work with a qualified mental health professional.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">For leaders who are safe, supported, and ready to examine how old stress, old wounds, and old survival patterns may be affecting judgment and leadership, that is part of the work I do through Illuminating Wisdom. I am a trauma-informed and certified coach, and I work with high-responsibility professionals who want to lead with more self-awareness, steadiness, and integrity.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU"><a href= "https://www.illuminatingwisdom.com/legally_lucid" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Legally Lucid</a> </span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">The Legal Blind Spot is general legal education. It does not provide legal advice and does not create an attorney-client relationship. If you are dealing with a specific situation, talk to a lawyer in your jurisdiction who can advise you based on your facts.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><a href= "https://www.amazon.com/Called-Speak-Lead-Impact-Business/dp/B0BD2CQFW4" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Called to Speak, Lead, and Impact </span></a></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Legal and Well-Being Notes</span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">This episode is not legal advice and does not create an attorney-client relationship. If you are dealing with a specific legal situation, talk to a lawyer in your jurisdiction who can advise you based on your facts.</span><span lang="EN-AU" style= "mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">This episode also does not replace therapy, medical care, crisis support, or a safety plan. If you are dealing with trauma, abuse, depression, anxiety, or anything that feels too big to hold alone, please work with a qualified mental health professional or crisis resource.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang= "EN-AU"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"> <strong><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Connect</span></strong></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Email: marcia@illuminatingwisdom.com</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Illuminating Wisdom: see the link in the show notes</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0cm;"><span lang="EN-AU" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-AU;" xml:lang="EN-AU">Legally Lucid: see the link in the show notes</span></p>