My Last Relapse is the addiction recovery podcast that says out loud what you’ve been secretly thinking about addiction, relapse, and recovery.<br /><br />Matt Handy-—who lived through two decades of heroin addiction, homelessness, and prison—cuts through the lies and fear-mongering that dominate traditional recovery programs. <br /><br />This isn’t about war stories or your worst relapse moments. It’s about the future—your future—without rigid rules, unrealistic expectations, or being told you don’t belong.<br /><br />This is real conversations about relapse, addiction, treatment, rehab, recovery programs, meetings, self-help, and the stigma that keeps people stuck. For anyone who feels burned out, left out, or cast out by traditional approaches, Matt and his guests offer radical honesty, practical insights about sobriety, and a new way forward.<br /><br />Whether you’re battling substance use, struggling with sobriety, navigating withdrawal, dealing with cravings, or just tired of going through the motions, My Last Relapse is here to remind you: <br /><br />You’re in addiction recovery when YOU say you are.<br /><br />For individuals, families, friends, and professionals who are done with the lies and ready for a future without using, this is your space.<br /><br />Today, Matt is one of the founders of <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Harmony Grove Behavioral Health</a>, an <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/intensive-outpatient-program/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">intensive outpatient rehab program in Houston, Texas</a>, created with his brothers after living the struggles of addiction and recovery firsthand. Their shared journey shaped who they are and inspired the creation of Harmony Grove, a place where authenticity and clinical excellence guide every step of the process. <br /><br />Together, they’ve built a program that feels real, meets people where they are, and provides tools for lasting success.<br /><br /><b>About Harmony Grove Behavioral Health </b><br /><b></b><br />Harmony Grove delivers <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">outpatient addiction recovery and mental health treatment </a>focused on wellness, creativity, and authentic human connection—providing a supportive space for healing that extends beyond traditional clinical care.<br /><br />Harmony Grove’s <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/intensive-outpatient-program/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">IOP in Houston, Texas</a>, is more than a program; it’s a lifeline for those ready to take the next step in their recovery. We are ready to meet you where you are and find your unique path to change. <br /><br />If you’re feeling overwhelmed or struggling, you don’t have to face it alone. Reaching out for support is a sign of strength, and help is always available. If you or anyone you know needs help, give us a call 24 hours a day at 844-430-3060.
My Last Relapse
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Podcast Overview
My Last Relapse is the addiction recovery podcast that says out loud what you’ve been secretly thinking about addiction, relapse, and recovery.<br /><br />Matt Handy-—who lived through two decades of heroin addiction, homelessness, and prison—cuts through the lies and fear-mongering that dominate traditional recovery programs. <br /><br />This isn’t about war stories or your worst relapse moments. It’s about the future—your future—without rigid rules, unrealistic expectations, or being told you don’t belong.<br /><br />This is real conversations about relapse, addiction, treatment, rehab, recovery programs, meetings, self-help, and the stigma that keeps people stuck. For anyone who feels burned out, left out, or cast out by traditional approaches, Matt and his guests offer radical honesty, practical insights about sobriety, and a new way forward.<br /><br />Whether you’re battling substance use, struggling with sobriety, navigating withdrawal, dealing with cravings, or just tired of going through the motions, My Last Relapse is here to remind you: <br /><br />You’re in addiction recovery when YOU say you are.<br /><br />For individuals, families, friends, and professionals who are done with the lies and ready for a future without using, this is your space.<br /><br />Today, Matt is one of the founders of <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Harmony Grove Behavioral Health</a>, an <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/intensive-outpatient-program/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">intensive outpatient rehab program in Houston, Texas</a>, created with his brothers after living the struggles of addiction and recovery firsthand. Their shared journey shaped who they are and inspired the creation of Harmony Grove, a place where authenticity and clinical excellence guide every step of the process. <br /><br />Together, they’ve built a program that feels real, meets people where they are, and provides tools for lasting success.<br /><br /><b>About Harmony Grove Behavioral Health </b><br /><b></b><br />Harmony Grove delivers <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">outpatient addiction recovery and mental health treatment </a>focused on wellness, creativity, and authentic human connection—providing a supportive space for healing that extends beyond traditional clinical care.<br /><br />Harmony Grove’s <a href="https://www.harmonygrovebh.com/intensive-outpatient-program/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">IOP in Houston, Texas</a>, is more than a program; it’s a lifeline for those ready to take the next step in their recovery. We are ready to meet you where you are and find your unique path to change. <br /><br />If you’re feeling overwhelmed or struggling, you don’t have to face it alone. Reaching out for support is a sign of strength, and help is always available. If you or anyone you know needs help, give us a call 24 hours a day at 844-430-3060.
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June 20, 2026
Life After Getting Cut Off by My Parents, Building a Pharmacy Empire & Battling the PBMs
Raised in a traditional Sri Lankan household, Tania’s education and achievement were everything. <br /><br />Originally on track for a career in medicine, Tania studied microbiology and completed hospital internships in Houston. But mentors encouraged her to explore sales and marketing, recognizing her strong people skills. Choosing to pivot away from medicine caused major conflict at home, and her family withdrew their support, forcing her to become fully independent and build her career from the ground up.<br /><br />She started in entry-level healthcare roles and worked her way up through pharmacy sales, eventually leading teams and managing multi-state operations. After more than a decade in the industry, she decided to buy her own independent pharmacy in Houston—both to continue her work and to test out a concept for supporting other independent pharmacies.<br /><br />Now, after several years of ownership, Tania has turned her focus to advocacy and innovation. Drawing on her medical background and firsthand experience in the pharmacy world, her mission is to help independent pharmacies survive and to expand access to essential medications for patients who need them most.<br /><br /><b>GUEST</b><br /><b></b><br /><b>Tania Kanga</b><br /><b></b><br />Tania is a Houston-based entrepreneur dedicated to protecting and empowering independent pharmacies. With a background in microbiology and over a decade in pharmaceutical sales, she’s seen firsthand how access gaps affect patients. Today, as the owner of TPS pharmacy and Founder of Prescribox, she’s on a mission to help independent pharmacies thrive and make medications more accessible for everyone.<br /><br />Connect with <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/taniakanga" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Tania on LinkedIn</a><br /><br />Learn more about <a href="https://www.tpspharmacy.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">TPS Pharmacy</a> and <a href="https://prescribox.io/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Prescribox</a><br /><br />Follow TPS Pharmacy on Instagram <a href="https://www.instagram.com/tps_pharmacy/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">@tps_pharmacy</a><br /><br />Follow Prescribox on Instagram <a href="https://www.instagram.com/prescribox/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">@prescribox</a><br /><br />Matt Handy is the founder of Harmony Grove Behavioral Health in Houston, Texas, where their mission is to provide compassionate, evidence-based care for anyone facing addiction, mental health challenges, and co-occurring disorders.<br /><br /><b>About Harmony Grove Behavioral Health </b><br /><b></b><br />Harmony Grove delivers outpatient addiction and mental health treatment focused on wellness, creativity, and authentic human connection—providing a supportive space for healing that extends beyond traditional clinical care.<br /><br />Harmony Grove’s IOP in Houston, Texas, is more than a program; it’s a lifeline for those ready to take the next step in their recovery. We are ready to meet you where you are and find your unique path to change. <br /><br />If you’re feeling overwhelmed or struggling, you don’t have to face it alone. Reaching out for support is a sign of strength, and help is always available. If you or anyone you know needs help, give us a call 24 hours a day at 844-430-3060.<br /><br />My Last Relapse explores what everyone is thinking but no one is saying about addiction and recovery through conversations with those whose lives have changed.<br /><br />For anyone disillusioned with traditional recovery and feeling left out, misunderstood, or weighed down by unrealistic expectations, this podcast looks ahead—rejecting the lies and dogma that keep people from imagining life without using.<br /><br />Got a question for us? Leave us a message or voicemail at <a href="http://mylastrelapse.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">mylastrelapse.com</a><br /><br />Find us on YouTube <a...
June 13, 2026
Life After Graduating High School at 16, Selling Coke in Strip Clubs, and 2 Dead Boyfriends
Apurva L. Vanguri-Weeks was the first American-born child in her family — raised by South Indian immigrant parents who didn't let her wear jeans, didn't let her date, and didn't let her cut her hair until senior year of high school. She was supposed to be a doctor.<br /><br />While at William & Mary on scholarship, she started drinking. The night she got drunk for real at a frat party, she came to with a 45-year-old recently-paroled man following her toward her dorm. Her RA got her to the hospital. Shortly after, she got kicked out of school for grades.<br /><br />Back in Houston, she met Ryan while working at Foley's, started smoking, started drinking heavily, then started doing — and selling — cocaine in strip clubs with him at night while working a pharmacy tech job by day and waiting tables at Pappacitos in between. <br /><br />At 22, she was used as a straw buyer for two properties worth $1.5 million in a Houston mortgage fraud scheme that totaled $13 million. <br /><br />The FBI came to her parents' house. She and Ryan lived out of hotels on Hillcroft to support an eight-ball-a-night habit. One night Ryan got paranoid on cocaine, ran onto the hotel roof, fell from the fourth floor, and died from a brain bleed. After the police searched the room, she finished what was left of the cocaine.<br /><br />She quit cocaine, but only because she'd moved on to drinking around the clock with Andy — a BMW finance director who was 20 years older, possessive, and married with two kids when they met. She got her second DWI driving his BMW drunk. <br /><br />On a family trip to India for her sister's wedding, she had four or five 25-minute alcohol withdrawal seizures at a cousin's wedding before anyone knew what was happening to her. She woke up in ICU strapped to a bed and started drinking again before she left the country — hiding Kingfisher beers under the bed in her dad's hotel room.<br /><br />Three rehabs followed, plus repeated weekends in Fort Bend County jail. She got sober the second time to stay out of prison, met a vet named Donnie with untreated PTSD at her second rehab, and watched him relapse over and over until he tried heroin for the first time and died at a motel. <br /><br />Four days after her one-year chip, she relapsed and spent the next two and a half months drinking in motel rooms, waiting to die. A 12-step call got her back into treatment for the third and final time.<br /><br />Today, Apurva is a nurse practitioner specializing in addiction medicine, runs her own clinic, and works alongside Dr. Shah at Harmony Grove Behavioral Health. She's been sober eleven years. She met her husband Richard — who has thirteen years sober — in AA, and they have a three-year-old son.<br /><br /><b>APURVA L. VANGURI-WEEKS</b><br /><br />Apurva L. Vanguri-Weeks is a nurse practitioner in Houston specializing in addiction medicine. She runs her own clinic and works alongside Dr. Shah at Harmony Grove Behavioral Health. The first American-born child in her family, she got sober at 31 after three rehabs, two DWIs, the deaths of two boyfriends, and seizures at a cousin's wedding in India. She lives in Sugar Land with her husband Richard — whom she met in AA — and their three-year-old son.<br /><br />Matt Handy is the founder of Harmony Grove Behavioral Health in Houston, Texas, where their mission is to provide compassionate, evidence-based care for anyone facing addiction, mental health challenges, and co-occurring disorders.<br /><br />My Last Relapse explores what everyone is thinking but no one is saying about addiction and recovery through conversations with those whose lives have changed.<br /><br />For anyone disillusioned with traditional recovery and feeling left out, misunderstood, or weighed down by unrealistic expectations, this podcast looks ahead—rejecting the lies and dogma that keep people from imagining life without using.<br /><br />Got a question for us? Leave us a message or voicemail at <a...
June 6, 2026
Life After Abu Ghraib, an HPD Officer's Knee on My Neck and Losing My Sheriff's Badge
Edwin Henderson is 45, an Army veteran with one Iraq deployment, and a former Harris County deputy who watched his law-enforcement career end on the ground outside a Houston club. He now works in business development at West Oaks Hospital's Patriot Support Program for veterans and runs Chefs in the City as an executive chef on the side.<br /><br />He grew up the latchkey son of a single mother in north Houston, helping look after an older brother who was born blind while his mom worked hourly jobs and played piano for Pastor John Osteen's Lakewood Church back before Joel took it over. His father was almost entirely absent — Edwin can count the encounters on one hand — but the men of the church stepped in and taught him trades, work ethic, and the bones of an entrepreneur.<br /><br />He enlisted at 19, was in AIT at Fort Lee, Virginia on September 11, 2001, and deployed in support of Operation Iraqi Freedom — a thirteen-month tour at Forward Operating Base Abu Ghraib in West Baghdad, the base taking rounds at 0300 on a routine. The unit's first translator turned out to be a spy. Edwin came home with night tremors and started drinking in Fayetteville before the deployment patches were unsewn.<br /><br />Back in Houston he spent two and a half years as a Harris County detention officer waiting for an academy seat, then five and a half years on patrol. The chapter that ended his law-enforcement career started outside a Houston club, off duty: he identified himself to two off-duty HPD officers working extra job, refused to be talked to with disrespect, and ended up cuffed in the gravel with his off-duty weapon pulled — a lieutenant who would later become HPD's Chief of Police standing over him saying "Deputy Henderson, I don't know what you did to be able to piss off my officers." The termination was overturned to a resignation. He never got back into law enforcement.<br /><br />What followed has been a long, still-unfinished stretch of unrecognized PTSD, drinking he didn't call addiction until he started sitting in on West Oaks treatment sessions and recognized himself in them, and recurring suicidal thoughts he is still actively working on with the VA. The trip that broke something open was a Heroes to Heroes pilgrimage to Israel shortly after — a baptism in the river Jordan that made the language he grew up in real for the first time.<br /><br />Edwin talks with Matt about being addicted without calling it that for over a decade, the destruction of the family unit and the inheritance left to men in this country, a generation of kids he sees making sober and chaste commitments their own parents never modeled, and why he keeps showing up to a service career that has fired him in every form it could.<br /><br /><b>EDWIN HENDERSON</b> is a U.S. Army veteran who deployed to Iraq in support of Operation Iraqi Freedom in 2003 and a former Harris County Sheriff's deputy. He serves as Veteran Business Development Representative for the Patriot Support Program at West Oaks Hospital in Houston, and is the executive chef and founder of Chefs in the City — Culinary Institute of America–trained through the Wounded Warrior Project. He is open about his ongoing work with the VA on PTSD and suicidal ideation, and about the long road of being a man trying to take his own advice.<br /><br />Follow Edwin on Instagram <a href="https://www.instagram.com/chefsinthecity713/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">@chefsinthecity713</a><br /><br />Connect with Edwin on <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/edwin-henderson-35a42b74" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">LinkedIn</a><br /><br />Learn more about West Oaks Hospital at <a href="https://westoakshospital.com/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">westoakshospital.com</a><br /><br />Matt Handy is the founder of Harmony Grove Behavioral Health in Houston, Texas, where their mission is to provide compassionate, evidence-based care for anyone facing addiction, mental health...
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