SaturnVox

About SaturnVox

Feeling disconnected? Khimaira is for those grappling with being out of relation and the systemic forces that sever our ties to self, others, and the Earth. Through essays, intimate dialogues, and curated stories, we unpack the "unhealable wound" of alienation. This podcast focuses on collectively transforming, rather than erasing, this deep pain. Each episode acts as a container for shared grief, fostering understanding and radical rewilding of what we can imagine we are allowed to dream. If you crave communion, find vital sustenance here.

Publisher

V

Category

society & culture

Language

en

Explicit

Yes

First episode

23 Oct 2021

Latest episode

16 May 2026

Latest episodes

52 episodes in the feed.

1. 

   16 May 2026

   Voice and Vision - On The Alchemy of Self Expression with guest Nika Danilova

   In this episode of Khimaira, V speaks with singer, artist, and composer Nika Danilova (Zola Jesus) about voice, performance, alienation, discipline, noise, opera, and the unstable process of becoming visible through sound. Together they move through questions of self-expression as a process shaped by fear, training, contradiction, embodiment, and transformation. The conversation lingers in the tension between control and surrender, refinement and ferality, mediation and raw expression, asking what it means to build a voice capable of carrying an inner life into the world. Tune in for an episode that approaches the voice as something forged through discipline, exposure, and the ongoing process of becoming audible—the grief and transformation of learning how to inhabit the self through craft, attention, and care over time. Featuring the song OTKUDA written, produced, and performed by Zola Jesus ------ There is a way a voice can cut through the fascia of reality, cleaving through habit into the raw nerve of experience. Zola Jesus wields a voice that does that. ------ Support Nika --> www.zolajesus.com Support V --> www.saturnvox.com Support the Show --> https://ko-fi.com/saturnvox156

2. 

   23 Mar 2026

   Experiments in Form 1 - Is Love Badness?

   Is Love Badness? An experiment in form: a work of sound composed through field recordings, voice messages, and an essay written from lived experience. Fragments of speech, ambient noise, and lived memory move together here. Composed from lived experience, the piece turns toward harm, desire, rage, and repair as forces felt in the body. Voices, weather, static, and thought sit beside each other as components of intra-action—where no sound stands alone and each is felt in the body of the listener through its relation to others. Therefore, this experiment challenges the listener to stay attentive within a post-essay structure, attuning themselves to new possibilities in listening and relation. This episode asks for patience with overlap and the willingness to stay in discomfort without avoiding it. Best heard with time, through speakers or headphones, without rushing to a conclusion ____ Collected sounds from this episode come from; Field recordings of woodland sounds and by highway fields during my Volcano Road Trip after my father's funeral last spring Voice Messages from friends Karlota, Nancy, and Clay Psalms sung by Rabbi Shefa Gold (https://www.rabbishefagold.com/hebrew_chant/chant_listing/psalms-chants/) An explanation of Karen Barad’s theories of intra-action and agential realism from the Leverhulme Institute I | Session II | Close Reading Karen Barad | Feb 2014 (https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=80TsxPmMvvk&pp=0gcJCcUKAYcqIYzv) Invocation of PGM VII.862--918, "the Lunar Spell of Klaudianos and the ritual of heaven and the north star" Noise and Beats produced, reduced, and abstracted by V Essay from end of episode can be read in full on the Autobiography of a Halfling blog

3. 

   22 Dec 2025

   Painting Tensions - On Speaking the Libidinal Economy with guest Noah Trapolino

   In this episode, Noah and I speak from inside desire as it moves across fraternity, finance, philosophy, and painting—without attempting to reconcile or redeem the worlds it passes through. The conversation unfolds through Noah’s experience of hazing as formative conditions of belonging, where masochism functions not as pathology but as a mechanism through which coherence, loyalty, and libidinal circulation are produced. As these structures are named, art and philosophy enter as parallel economies—fields that carry their own disciplines, devotions, and sacrifices, even as they often refuse to acknowledge the violence implicit in their formation. Drawing on Bataille and Deleuze we attempt to allow theory to act as pressure within the speaking itself, expanding the limits on what kinds of communication are possible across language games and communal worlds. This episode holds tension as something that acts—allowing incompatible economies of desire to brush up against one another without purification, refusal, or narrative closure. --- Noah Louis Trapolino (b. 1998) is a self taught artist with an emphasis in erotic figuration based in Brooklyn, NY. Noah was born and raised in Houston, Texas, and is the eldest of eight siblings. Studying finance and philosophy at the University of Texas in Austin, Trapolino pursued art as a way to bridge the gap between two seemingly distinct fields of academia; desire as an absent center for each would manifest in his art. He has continued to study the overlap of such worlds through a part time research program in political-theology, which informs his works. -- This episode features sonic art produced by V 0:00-1:30 a reading from "In the Slaughterhouse of Love" by Ken Hollings, essays on George Bataille in the Penguin Edition of a compilation of My Mother, Madame Edwarda, The Dead Man 16:25-17:21 a reading from "In the Slaughterhouse of Love" by Ken Hollings, essays on George Bataille in the Penguin Edition of a compilation of short stories; My Mother, Madame Edwarda, The Dead Man by George Bataille32:34-33:34 a reading from Story of the Eye by George Bataille1:16:10-1:16:37 a reading from Story of the Eye by George Bataille1:28:35-1:30:48 a reading from Variations on the Right to Remain Silent by Anne Carson 1:53:19-fin a reading from Story of the Eye by George Bataille All readings accompanied by manipulated fragments of Sound made by V: Againstfixedrep (www.saturnvox.com/sounds/against-fixed-rep) -------------------- Support Noah --> www.pen-keeper.com Mimbres School for Humanities --> www.mimbres.org Acid Horizons --> acidhorizonpodcast.com Support V --> https://saturnvox.com Support the Show --> https://ko-fi.com/saturnvox156

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Apple Podcasts (US)

5.0 / 5

12 ratings

Spotify

4.8 / 5

50 ratings

Podcast Authority Score: 53 / 100

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71

Social presence

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YouTube

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Engagement

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