We know what you thought when you heard the name. We thought it too. But Fill Me Up is not what you think it is or maybe it is exactly what you think it is, just not the way you think it, at the root of every addiction, every toxic relationship, every desperate reach for something outside yourself, there is one cry underneath all of it. Fill me up. Fill this emptiness. Fill this ache that I cannot name and cannot shake no matter what I try. That is not a sexual cry. That is a spiritual one.
We needed a cult. Turns out it's a cult of love.
Episode 20 of Fill Me Up is back at the table, and we're getting real about what keeps us spiritually fit. We talk about why we left church, why blaming the people in our lives keeps us stuck, and why comparing ourselves to anyone is just meditating on the wrong things.
Nothing here is medical advice. Talk to your doctor before changing any medication. If you're struggling, reach out to someone you trust or a local support line. In Canada, you can call or text 9-8-8.
Subscribe, and tell us in the comments: what belief are you ready to question?
TIMESTAMPS:
00:00:00 Are the Rooms a Cult of Love? Spirituality and Anger
00:01:17 Leaving Church: Heaven and Hell Are Already Here
00:01:55 The Worst Time to Date: There Are No New People
00:03:28 Cultural Pressure to Marry Within Your Culture
00:04:44 Online Backlash: Why Short Clips Miss the Context
00:05:28 Why Blaming Others Keeps You Stuck in Recovery
00:06:16 Stop Comparing Yourself: Remember Who You Are
00:07:30 Obsessive Thinking: Meditating on the Wrong Things
00:08:24 Who Programmed You? Challenge Your Belief System
00:09:05 Consider the Source: Whose Opinion Really Matters?
00:10:06 Discernment: God Puts the Right People in Your Path
00:10:42 Did You Write Your Soul's Blueprint Before Birth?
00:11:36 "Ye Are Gods": Stop Expecting Others to Run Your Life
00:12:23 Why Would God Do This to Me? Own Your Decisions
00:13:28 Only Calling Friends When You Need Help
00:14:53 Overcomplicating Recovery: Free Meetings Are Available
00:15:39 The Rehab Industry Debate: Do Your Own Research
00:16:20 Why Coming Off Prescription Drugs Is So Hard
00:17:23 12-Step Is Free: Where to Get the Big Book
00:19:34 Words Matter: Speaking Things Into Existence
00:20:10 Judgment and Gossip: Did He Turn Out OK?
00:22:16 What's Good or Bad Anymore? Stop Judging Others
00:22:59 Think Before You Speak: Override the Automatic Script
00:25:15 Grateful to Be Back: Truth Is a Hard Pill
#addictionrecovery #cult #love
6 Oct 2026
Your Past Is Your Greatest Asset: Recovery, Forgiveness & Healing | Fill Me Up Ep. 19
What if the only role God assigned you today is the one right in front of you?
Welcome back to Fill Me Up. Episode 19 is our first recording with a brand-new producer and a brand-new setup, and we used it to get real about what keeps us growing instead of dying. We talk about leaning into change, forgiving our parents so we can forgive ourselves, and why staying in the gray area will eventually cost you everything.
If you're struggling, please reach out to someone you trust or a local support line. You don't have to do this alone.
Subscribe for new episodes, and tell us in the comments: what role is being assigned to you today?
TIMESTAMPS:
00:00:00 Podcast Comeback With a New Producer and Setup
00:01:06 Leaning Into Change Brings Freedom
00:01:52 What Role Has God Assigned You Today?
00:03:54 Why Forgiveness Is a Grow-or-Die Principle
00:05:54 Taking Inventory: The Stories We Tell About Parents
00:06:44 Earth School: Filling the God-Shaped Hole
00:08:27 Discernment From the School of Hard Knocks
00:09:23 Too Sensitive or Desensitized? Being Called Callous
00:12:29 Radical Honesty in Recovery: Live in the Truth
00:13:27 The Danger of Staying in the Gray Area
00:14:17 Do You Want Direction or a Friend?
00:14:52 Truth-Telling Without Fear or Revenge
00:16:03 Saying Thank You for Hard Truths
00:17:00 Open-Mindedness: God Gave You a Brain to Use
00:18:56 The Chinese Farmer Story: Good or Bad, Who Knows?
00:19:26 Grateful for the Hardest Moments in Sobriety
00:20:47 Hope for Broken Family Relationships in Recovery
00:21:50 Altruistic Living: Pause Before You React
00:22:36 Watch What You Pick Up After You Put Down the Drink
00:22:51 Final Thought: Decide to Be in a Good Mood
#addictionrecovery #addiction #recoveryjourney
14 Jul 2026
The Truth About Antidepressants, Benzos & Big Pharma in Recovery
Jessica and Nikki are back and grateful — for the good, the bad, and everything trying to fill you up that isn't the solution. This week: the parable of the God in the dog, why spirituality is the last house on the block, the business behind your prescription pad, and listener questions on antidepressants, benzos, and staying sober through anxiety. The prescription for fear is faith.
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