At the age of 20, Sigurd Hartkorn was diagnosed with the serious and incurable disease multiple sclerosis. Now, 16 years later, he is ready to talk about it — not about the disease itself, but about what it has done to his way of being in the world. We will travel all the way from Moroccan nightclubs and endless drinking binges to depression and the fear of dying before his parents. This is a series about living in hiding from, despite, and because of the thing you cannot change. The podcast is produced and edited by Sigurd Hartkorn in collaboration with Danish MS Society. All the music is by Daniel Vognstrup.
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In the final episode of the series, Sigurd gathers the threads after 14 years of living with multiple sclerosis. Not as an ending to the disease, because it does not go away, but as an attempt to understand what it has done to him: to his body, his fear, his love, his shame, and his way of being in the world.
This episode is about continuing to live with something you cannot change. About no longer only hiding from the disease, but also beginning to see how it has shaped the life that became his.
The series was produced in collaboration with Danish MS Society and all the music has been composed by Daniel Vognstrup.
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18 May 2026
11: The emontional spring
We return to Line, who, in the second part of her story, tells us how she regained her trust in life after both the terror attack and, later, her multiple sclerosis diagnosis. It is about forgiving her body, about deliberately parking illegally — and everything in between.
The original interview was conducted in Danish and has been translated using AI
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18 May 2026
9: I Miss What We Could Have Had
Laura’s father had been very ill with multiple sclerosis since she was a small child, and as his illness progresses, it becomes increasingly difficult for her to be around the medical aids — and she gradually loses contact with her father. It is only when he dies that she finally begins to find words for what she was unable to talk about throughout her childhood and youth.
The original interview was conducted in Danish and has been translated using AI.
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18 May 2026
10: Dad
Sigurd invites his father, Morten, to hear what it is like as a parent when your child is affected by a serious illness. Morten’s reaction was to crawl into a hole and push other people away — a reaction that reaches back to his early youth, when he lost his sister.
The original interview was conducted in Danish and has been translated using AI.
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18 May 2026
8: The Ascent at Rock Bottom
Sigurd realizes that he is no longer living in accordance with his values, and in a desperate attempt to change his situation, he decides to let go and hit rock bottom. But he does not succeed — instead, he is struck by a simple thought that changes his life.
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18 May 2026
7: My Extended Body
Margrethe’s teenage boyfriend gets down on one knee and proposes on the day she receives her diagnosis. It becomes the beginning of a long and beautiful marriage, but also of a long and violent course of illness. This is the story of focusing on what you have to fight for, rather than what you stand to lose.
The original interview was conducted in Danish and has been translated using AI.
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18 May 2026
6: The Nightclub in Morocco
Sigurd begins to settle into a regular rhythm at the hospital and decides to approach it with the same solemnity and dedication as a formal dinner party. At the same time, it becomes important to him not to be defined by his illness, and in a nightclub in Morocco, he suddenly realizes that he is no longer moving forward in the world — he is running away.
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18 May 2026
5: A Strange Kind of Happiness
Bashar has not told his parents that he has multiple sclerosis, and he will do everything he can to make sure they do not find out before they go to their graves. This is a story about growing up and becoming a parent to your own parents, because you have a linguistic access to society that they do not.
The original interview was conducted in Danish and has been translated using AI.
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18 May 2026
4: Into the Night, Out into the World, Up into the Universe
Sigurd makes a decision not to enter into grief. Instead, he goes out into the night and travels the world. Morning parties, fashion parties and pirate parties. The desert of Abu Dhabi, the rooftops of Yemen and the Moroccan mountains — Sigurd does everything he can to avoid facing his illness. But no matter how far into the night or across the map he goes, it is not enough, and so he begins to create strange logical constructions as his lifeline.
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18 May 2026
3: The Terror Attack
As a young woman, Line is in Bali with her folk high school when a terror attack strikes their shared beach bar. Several of her fellow students are killed in the attack, and when Line is diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 20 years later, she is sent straight back to that night in Bali.
The original interview was conducted in Danish and has been translated using AI.
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18 May 2026
2: Sensory Storm
Sigurd found that the world around him spoke the language of grief, clinics and dressings, but the devastating news unexpectedly sent him into the most beautiful sensory storm he had ever experienced. The sight of very early morning mist over the lakes and of a silver poplar in the wind. Crocuses on the forest floor, helicopters in the night sky, washing his hands in warm water — everything was sensory.
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18 May 2026
1: When the World Collapses
Suddenly, Sigurd’s world began to tilt. Not metaphorically, but literally. He kept thinking that walls, trees and mirrors were falling down over him — and the phenomenon, which he initially attributed to too many city breaks and too little sleep, suddenly became serious when he was rushed to Bispebjerg Hospital’s acute neurological department.
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