Welcome to Awaken into Love. This is the place to be if you are looking for an awakened, freeing, and empowering take on relationship OCD and anxiety and how to live life and love beyond ROCD.
Meet Kiyomi LaFleur, a former ROCD sufferer, and now, ROCD, Relationship Anxiety and Awakening Relationship Expert for over 10 years. Her mission is to help you awaken from Relationship OCD and anxiety and in turn find that connection and love you're looking for not only with your partner but also yourself.
Disclaimer: This channel is meant to bring you education, information, inspiration, and motivation. It is not meant to replace professional therapy but can help educate and support you along the process. Please note that all the material on the website such as the blog, course, and community is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder, it's just intended to educate and support you.
What I Wish I Knew About ROCD 10 Years Ago (Solo Episode with Kiyomi)
Kiyomi shares ten years of wisdom on navigating Relationship OCD, revealing how to overcome intrusive thoughts and find mature love.
7 Jan 2026TRANSCRIPT
When ROCD Feels Too Real: A Man's ROCD Journey (ft. Cameron)
What happens when relationship doubt feels so real you believe you have to leave?
In this episode of Awaken Into Love, Kiyomi sits down with Cameron to explore his lived experience with Relationship OCD (ROCD), from the moment doubt appeared early in his relationship, to the shame, emotional suppression, and fear that followed.
Cameron shares what it was like navigating ROCD as a man, including the pressure to "stay strong," the belief that emotions were something to fix, and the deep confusion that arises when love and anxiety collide. Together, we explore why ROCD feels so convincing, how disconnection can feel genuinely threatening, and what shifted when Cameron stopped trying to solve his thoughts and instead began allowing his emotions.
It's an honest, human conversation about learning to sit with discomfort, softening self-judgment, and discovering a more grounded way of relating to yourself and to your partner.
This episode is for you if:
-ROCD or relationship anxiety feels too real to ignore
-You feel pressure to know how you feel at all times
-Disconnection in relationships feels threatening
-You've struggled with shame around emotions
-You want to hear a man's real, lived experience with ROCD
You are not broken.
You are not failing.
And, you are not alone. (#YANA)
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13 Dec 2025
How I Almost Lost My Relationship To ROCD/RA (ft. Martina)
Today, Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits with Martina, a longtime Awaken into Love ROCD/RA community member and HOME member (our ROCD/RA peer-support group) whose journey will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned their relationship, doubted their feelings, or felt shame about their intrusive thoughts.
In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Martina shares how ROCD first showed up three days into her relationship, how misunderstandings from therapists intensified her anxiety, and how years later, during a stressful life transition, her symptoms resurfaced in painful and confusing ways.
She opens up about:
-intrusive images and "false attraction" spikes
-emotional numbness and derealization
-the shame of not recognizing her partner
-comparing her partner to others
-the impact of OCD on her long-term relationship
-what finally helped her truly heal
We hope our beloved Martina's courage brings you comfort and hope.
If you're interested in trying the ROCD/RA HOME peer-support for FREE: http://home.rocdcourse.com/join
Inside a recent episode
What I Wish I Knew About ROCD 10 Years Ago (Solo Episode with Kiyomi)
Published 12 Jun 2026 · Transcript excerpt
[…] And I think that that's something that can feel very like, okay, like I'm not stuck in this, but like, no, listen to me. You may feel as though things will never, ever get better. You may feel as though you will be in the worst of worst ROCD forever. And I want you to listen to me and know that you are not stuck in this state forever. Change is possible. Hope is possible. If you feel as though you are meant to be in this state, then there is some conditioning surrounding that belief that is false and that is not based in reality. It's self-inflicting when we feel as though we need to be in this state. […]
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